There’s no specific tone that resonates more with people when it comes to reading, and sometimes setting boundaries causes us to address the pain or the negatives we hear in spite of how far we’ve come. Stigma hurts more than what is said absent any cue or triggered from you to justify a sentiment toward you. That’s negativity it waits lurking in the shadows to your wellness the fight that’s waiting for you every moment upon wellness the first to attack your wellness. Despite all grievances in life you cannot correct the negative sentiments of others toward you. It’s not an invested care that dissipates overtime or an expected output to be complained about not alignment to general goals for wellness in life. It’s a taking of wellness when one feels more entitled to feeling a certain way and kicking you out of the mix to not include your efforts in life as being integral or apart of the creations of wellness made upon others. Then what or who is there to be well for and why if it’s a feeling achieved then dismantled taken and beckoned for credit in a change of pace course and direction of what is working for everyone. Wellness knows no jealously at certain points misunderstood by those who can’t achieve that state of mind, and accepted by those who’ve been through it enough times to recognize what’s within is a recognized state of having a disposition earned not given to them not taken. Earned deserving to be where they are look like how they look having done the work to be where they are.

After taking a few days to rest and not respond to negatives things are at peace again and sometimes that’s how things get better for you. To separate yourself from combative voices and disrespect things can’t get better wasting time and energy responding to that type of energy in life no matter how those voices are created. Seems like people want to heckle and step inside you to be your voice thinking they know better sometimes. Well then they can make their own platform for speaking why should I be changed to speak for anyone negative toward me in life. If they can write then why am I writing for who’s purpose and why if it doesn’t support my purpose in life to be free of bullying and harassment from negative voices in life. I deserve that much.

It’s a cruel world where you can share online and be known then treated as though you’re withholding something within not said. That makes no sense to me as a writer who shares everything on my mind, ideas, plans, goals, success, what’s going well for me or what I’m finding difficulty with. I’ve never not produced work of value I’ve always written for book writing. In this world your value is by what you’re paid and because I’m not paid and my value is not clear then it would be in my best interested to write to be paid one day. To illustrate that I have assembled a frame of mind and a way of looking at the world and interpreting things in a way that I am valued and who is reading also comes to value what I’m saying. Writing of value makes you think about life in a way that you can either personalize a work to derive meaning from your own life, or work yourself away from the negatives it will seem like less stands out to you wrong with others, more accepting of varied conditions. That’s the benefit of being centered as a person. You aren’t thrown off balance by others, you don’t need guidance from another’s tone about how to be, and you respect yourself and the opinions of others, without interfering with their ability to stay well and perform in life. Free writing is writing that doesn’t conflict with the emotions of others or interfere with their ability to stay well get along with others and find themselves in life.

What I need to work on is not to speak to the negative words or voices I got as a result of bullying which is doing me a disservice more than it’s helping me to perform in life and write. It seems like instant maturity to anyone who thinks they know better than me or don’t believe I was ever bullied or humiliated. It’s not a change I wish to address and make permanent it’s a condition I want to get through overcome and live life anyways. Peoples discomforts aren’t real until you create excuses for people to feel entitled to feel that way and I’m not someone who is going to live life and speak to negatives you entitle anyone to take the high road and pretend like their high road wasn’t established putting me down in life I don’t deserve that type of treatment in life overcome your own professional setbacks in life treating patients or friends and don’t use me as an example of anyone you’ve ever helped in life by mistreatment or bullying of me to identify non existing problems or issues standing in the way of me loving myself or being accepted in the world it’s by what you’re changed by in life you become worse off and it’s by what others can see clear they are benefited by.