Based on how I looked, and based on a lack of confidence and ability to assimilate it was judged as though I have failed to integrate, or avoidant of integration to elicit a theory that I did not try, or became known to a set of conditions of dislike, never occurring, or held a condition unstable, that was not suited for any environment around others, kept to myself or not talked about, or a disability made worse, failing to cope in a positive way, or be accused or not using proper coping mechanisms to combat any delusion. I think no matter what the circumstance is serious or not, you have you, and with nothing in front of you, and nothing to look back on or think of, such as when one is put in “fight or flight” you think of what you can do to maintain stability, when there is chaos around you, that’s common, its not necessary that you be hero, but if you are someone suffering and no one is declaring that the state of emergency be in the people or for the people to blame, then that’s not what one thinks and that’s not what the Government would teach people, to panic inside themselves over something they cant control, or panic in themselves, being taught that something was done to them in life, that they don’t want connected to them, like trying to establish me as “influencer” and say things are because of me, then wrongfully get others to become accustomed to the delusion that things have touched them or influenced them by people who knew me, to teach people that parts of them are unwanted, and to be made to think that the parts of them that they don’t like, are the parts influenced by me, that would mean that I should have less influence, upon declaring that my influence is “schizophrenic” or can become an unwanted part of others that they do not wish to read or be exposed to, would be the solution in not video blogging or sharing photos anymore, that I cant change what blog I cant get back into @mymollydoll1985, which mean I will have to create another blog, that sits well, is easy to read, and is not hard to follow, and upon finishing reading, can take a look at how things are going, and to know that a solid effort was put forward to at least sharing a story, so that it shows that I know what is important or meaningful about my life, based on what I have shared and based on what I identify with. All of that can change later in life, when you are treated not with special consideration, and treated as though you knowingly got sick or assume for what reasons be accused of being sick in public with knowing that being sick in public can cause others to feel sick, to wrongfully accuse me of making a shooter sick who decides to commit a mass shooting, or wrongfully argue that my condition is so poor, or so noticeable, that anyone would act on my behalf, and wrongfully accuse me of supporting the bad reactions of others, make anyone think that anyone is fighting for me, as though I have stated any claims to being victim or anything wrong having been done to me in life. Liking for popularity is about another benefiting, because I will not, and allowing for someone in higher standing to be credited for the amount of people watching my blog develop and getting to hear me speak, its not to take power away, or be used as a device to measure the wellness of someone, by how hard my job is, my job will be hard, whether I am feeling good listening to music, in a condition of voices, taking photos, loving, trying hard, doing disciplined research, studying, or video-ing, at this point in time if none of that matters then what is the difference between going by who is well versus going by who is sick, and if this is some sick conclusion or derivative or not stated solution for voices, then that would be a poor experiment on the condition of my readers, to assume that asleep means quiet, or to perceive speaking as thinking and then to misjudge thinking by writing, as upset or sickness, and then prescribe a difficulty to mean created by me, or by an outside pressure, in any circumstance what cannot be solved or difficult cannot be fixed by any writing photo or video, that would be a buying of closeness, to circumvent an otherwise state of uncertainty, that is created when I do not photo or video for confirmation or show an element of trying to prove or disprove a condition exists by looking at my face, I ca simply tell you when I have voices and when I don’t have voices, so you know whether I am speaking to prevent voices to gauge what is being said in relationship to the type of voices I am hearing, or whether to ignore me and judge as an isolated condition in which I am to accept voices, or people acting or reacting from my shoes and wrongfully accuse me of not speaking for others, or creating a weaker condition of others as connected to me. So right now is no voices, how solved, through writing intelligently. Solutions that don’t work: confrontation, fighting, sex, gender issues, closeness, being yourself versus feeling people trying to stand in you, witnesses you, being whole absent connection to others, letting others connect absent you, and then being yourself, with no one connected to you would be the solution, for determining, which people are not stronger by me, which are affected by my condition being weaker or with voices, then its for me to control my output, and to have faith and confidence in myself, and not be sidetracked by any negative voices, hate or animosity, and continue to keep to myself in life, that’s not integrating people are to blame for a condition that cannot be solved by any medications, and its not for me to write to be wrongfully accused of creating voices, which occur in the absence of doing anything to keep the mind busy and connected to something that feels well to it, whether that be by exercise, writing, cards, or in controversial sense, loving another human being, who once connected to, yes I do get sick, so that’s the ultimate condition setting to be judged by as a woman, who you are connected and who you are disconnected, who you are without love, versus who you are with love, who you are with a website, who you are starting over on a new website, will be weighed against your ability to prevent based on what you ever though could be of issue: (1) hesitancy (2) mental health – diagnosis (3) sexuality (4) writing (sufficient or insufficient), (5) job or not job, (6) specific or not specific, which is why I have changed to PREVENT to (1) no job (2) no doctors (3) no adderrall (4) asleep all day for a few days (5) ER (6) with permission from Colorado to help others (7) hesitancy (learning to write even with voices and not to respond to voices, and learn how to not talk to myself, not sing, and not communicate with anyone with voices (8) recognize when things are connected to me reading within me – do not love, do not touch, do not be close, do not look at, do not reach out for help, keep to myself and how does that help, so no one is connected to me when I am not liked or getting voices, so no one is felt threatened by how I am treated or turned into a person to hold voices or be looked at as though they are to be witnessed as getting sick by a condition they designate to be in connection to me, or because of my face and where I am situated in life. (9) voices I cannot fix so will have to learn how to write with voices or with no voices in any kind of state no matter what voices I hear write well, with the SOLUTION for no pressure, for things to make sense, and for there to be no fear, misunderstanding, understanding, without affecting anyone, and to make things better, where no one is to blame, and the condition is isolated as to my body and mind and identity only. (10) Sexuality, is that’s an issue then not practice any sex with anyone until it is clear that I am a positive contribution online, capable of preventing, who does not allow for worse conditions to take hold, or convince others that things are worse than they are, or be blamed for people who decide to not be apart of or not healed by the wellness of others or affected by my condition or how that occurred and why. (11) and to write sufficiently, would be to start over create a new website, and not rely on a previous website, and to not have my previous website be of issue paid for and published or unpaid for and not published has never been an executive decision made by me to experiment for reaction from others or to test for solution as to what can prevent violence work or not work, or based on who knows me, say is not working is known, or not known, or is known and not helped of issue to wrongfully accuse me of helping without an ability to be liked, or helping to a crowd that will not listen or cannot be helped to wrongfully accuse me of being sick in public or schizophrenic and not helping or not sharing in a way to prevent wrongfully accuse me of not being apart of the solution or wrongfully accuse me of being well or doing things for permissions not for everyone else to be well, or to say is connected to everyone and not well, or should not be well, as connected and does not prevent or clearly state, to say anything is a matter of confrontation in life, or in response to any crime, say that I am geared to perform depending on issues, or losses, or hardship faced, to wrongfully accuse me of helping to wrongfully accuse me of not helping or incapable of helping, to declare me a bad connection to blame be as being a source of embarrassment, to not say I am apart of, to blame me for the death of those close to me, which matters to me if I look bad and of course that would make them feel bad, and if I have done everything to appear well and that was not goodf enough called schizophrenic, then I can lose  60 lbs and stop taking a med and learn how to function in life with everyone thinking that Im schizophrenic, and have everyone watch for reaction when I am rejected or when things don’t work out, or when I am made to be alone ot to think about life as though I have done something wrong, until what others are doing or not doing doesn’t matter. But I have every right to undo a harm, regardless of a condition, and nothing is too late, life is all about what the day brings you, and that’s how you live life, there is nothing that needs to feel a certain way in order for things to go right for you in life, you wont always be able to control what happens to you in life, or who is you or is not you, influenced by you, affected, perfected, or in disgust of you, that cannot change, and whether it by picture or connection in life, eventually you learn how to be yourself, through all losses, and condemnations of you, not make life worse than it is.