Improving the quality of your thoughts serves many purposes. One of which is to recognize that what you are focusing on is capable of bringing about a set of circumstances for you in life or provided you with a lens from which to view life, which if you choose to focus on things harmful to your health can do you a disservice moving forward. Solution can always be found in what is provided and a series of shootings or crimes can occur if that’s what your focusing on. If you ever want to process what’s ongoing and what needs work then please view the study I submitted to CU Boulder where I went to college.

Start with a list of what you want to solve incidences or crimes or news, then address in what way are others affected, and what do you see as important to sustaining or keeping together of what’s remaining … such as things going well, not only focusing on what’s not going wrong (crime) not misunderstand thinking wrong to be the kind of wrongs sought to be defeated or prevented or minimized or descalated, that’s not the solution. And if you write a research study and you get attacked in life then that’s someone feeling smarter than you trying to turn you into a subject of question that you proposed in your study.

A problem cannot be solved by creating problems or affecting people when there is no violence and things are at peace that’s not the strategy for determining guilt. Nor is disability … that doesn’t describe my 2012 or 2022. So get your facts right about who I am what I’m about when I’m capable of working and when I can’t work and stop judging me as schizophrenic. I worked two jobs that year and went to school part time. I joined Twitter 2009. I’m not famous I was not known and now as known I assume greater responsibility over my words and image and what that means or what that looks like and take responsibility for what people think and it’s a higher degree of mental challenge to be read by people if there’s disagreement cause you sickness and voices so that if anything said does not solve what is thought wrong of you not told to you then you get sick when people feel like you’re not in reality or a good judge of what’s going wrong and whether your work is sufficient to make things go right again wrongfully accuse you of being schizophrenic (sick inside mentally ill or confused) or bipolar (puts things together wrong and has mood changes).

I’m like everyone else weakened when attacked and hurt when wrongfully accused that makes me sick when I’m feeling well and someone attacks me to cause me to feel sick. I’m on point I’m educated I’m creative I’m caring I’m compassionate and protective. I don’t have problems with mental illness and I refuse to allow or to be a created condition of people trying to convince me I’m guilty or mentally ill that’s not my problem, I’m not guilty and I don’t function in life or behave like I have a secret or get away with anything and that’s not my struggle it’s being attacked and condemned for no reason. Ask yourself what are you doing to prevent violence and ask yourself in what way is it necessary to hurt me to cause violence and not expect for that to be proven and not coming from me or my mind.

So on that note I’m not going to study white supremacy or Hitler enthusiasts because it’s already causing me sickness lack of mobility tired and don’t want another’s viewpoint to interfere with how my writing is judged or it’s quality. And will not do kickboxing or boxing because I don’t have enough energy on the meds I’m prescribed I’m in bed all day and work a 3-5 hours a day and have to mentally and physically prepare to write and handle all feedbacks and also stay fit to manage negative voices because I can’t stop people from talking or questioning me and also not be situated in a place with unwanted secrets of negative voices be wrongfully accused of hurting readers of their lives I think people have good lives and no one went through anything close to as deadly as what I went through and never exposed anyone to mental illness or explained always dressed proper clean and ran in public everyday for years so no problems assimilating as a known blogger and should things change that’s ok to talk about it doesn’t mean I’m anti American or complaining about things or people who are not criminals it’s a completely different subject the lower tiers of life that thankfully I’m not left on the street suffering and able to work a job and not thrown in jail because I’m not hyped up feeling good to the standards of other peoples abilities or completions in life wrongfully accuse me of not being a team player I contribute I’m smart, I stay away from all people I don’t get close to anyone and I stopped dating for 10 years so how dare anyone wrongfully accuse me of being some mentally ill loser for all I care I don’t wish for that to be done to anyone of value ever again for no reason hyped up on OJ or anything else provocative to feel good or fuck someone over.

There’s nothing wrong about my writing is not provocative or shocking it’s introspective and well stated thoughts not always about crime or the effects it has on the politics concerning what people think or choose to blame for solution is not my solution and cause my position as a provider of sound insight intelligent and read by many to feel sick or to cause me suicide to categorize me among people who are mentally ill and that’s because I get attacked causes me mental illness suicide. It’s not a made up condition it’s simple you are either well not bothered or you are well and bothered to cause you sickness. Simple. Im doing my best, improving, everyday is an opportunity to be positive and to get along with others including voices that call you names & terrorize you.