A lawsuit symbolizes that this person does not know me, does not care what my reputation is or my health, my schooling, or what I look like, this lawsuit sought to say that Leslie was never known, that her website was never a worthwhile contribution to the internet and for people considering creating content and writing books, with the same enthusiasm and fearless effort, to say what is right and most understandable. I think there then becomes a point of knowing someone and rejecting me, meaning a refusal to say they have heard, or based on their story empathize with them, this is when you are considered a stranger, not an innocent person someone who is treated as a bad connection, so this is what is done to strangers, people who you don’t feel good by, so this is the test of whether when I don’t feel good who is affected, to be reinforced by a document that says its this person, who is wrong minded or thinking, and doesn’t make sense or is causing trouble, the order was not granted, on a basis I don’t understand. Meanwhile I am expected to appear in court at the end of the month. Because this is a private matter not to ostracize people or make people look bad, hurt, get hurt, or look like they have been used, or focused on, or not protected, is what I guess court is for, what is it that I went through and go through on my own, and what is it about me not real, genuine, or human, or really happening, friendship and wellness, if that is not considered real, then that really sets me back in terms of what wellness is or who its for, and why its questioned. The last thing I think about if anyone else, in the event that Im not accepted, that just means I tried to introduce myself get to know of what Im going through, and been rejected, so that was a failed attempt at not being well, having schizophrenia, and then not being able to appear normal or confident, that’s being hurt in life, when no one can help you, and they think its your fault, or dont empathize with you, so that’s how I was hurt my diagnoses, its to tell people of what to expect and if it cant be interpreted its until the discomfort takes it toll, to say that its something within you that cant be changed, or was thought, and accuse you of having inappropriate thoughts, so that’s when you get mental illness. As a person with respect of another, what is in my best interests is to stay away from people a person loves, its not my opportunity to campaign for acceptances and be known, that’s a clear discomfort, people who know people separately, will have clarity thinking of who they love, not someone who knows them too. So I think that much was misunderstood about me, along with my image, campaign name, and what I guarantee in writing, an ability to fix or make things better, it means that I was once someone who had to function with things not going right in the world, and think of what to do in order to make things better, and maybe this is unimportant, work, or fun for people, and maybe becaue I take myself seriously, my purpose and connections were not taken seriously, nothing is made up to look good, you cant help if you have guilt, that’s how things happen again, or when believed to have happened that way, happen again, until its viewed as something you triggered or have done wrong to explain for anything overall not going right, by what is mass communicated to everyone. This is why we have mass communications, its not for defense of self, but in my case, its to what I initially thought was wrong, a negative or false untrue rhetoric, and although it does away with me, its not fair to leave something untrue out on the open to be acted upon towards me or my family, we have not given up, we are doing our best, my family leads normal lives, I blogged without being hurt for a few years and wanted to write a book, it must be something about being known and known in the negative is how people prevent you from being known in a good way, and believe who defamed you as being accurate about your personality or what is wrong with you, so that’s how people mistreat and feel better, and I don’t think anyone is entitled to treat me like Im cramping on anyones style or wrong or a mess, Im not a trainwreck, I get picked, and Im not easy, Im smart, and yes I have been raped, and it wasn’t a big deal, I moved on, and once you know how it happens, you know not to drink so that its doesn’t happen again, and that’s having sex, with people you don’t plan of staying with, and that’s how that happens. By the time you meet matches, it will be too late. So for anyone to characterize me as an unlawful union, or a destined for destruction combination doesn’t understand what it takes to be read online, or for how long, or how to get likes, and what the quality is expected, and maybe that’s not work to you, but anyone who fails to represent me in a careful way, and considers me the embarrassment is my job to fix.