I just listened to Chapter 1 of Prince Harry’s audible and I can’t help but respond to the unpleasant circumstances he faced at home with his family, you’re not alone, there comes a time when you’re either old enough to step away from fighting because you loved and cared for your family, that any fighting hurts and leaves you defenseless. I too have been through phases as a best friend to a celebrity and victim, and would not share my story if not to add light to in what ways are peoples stories remembered and how does that influence the times. It’s never too early or late to begin to share and appreciate your openness and creativity recalling only once at a bar on Wilshire saw a look a like, and shared one painting/drawing from London as an adolescent in Europe with my Father. So that’s the only reason I stopped listening to write.

✓ I recognize now the time has past upon everyone being enchanted to meet people in life and understand how easily that enamourment with people is lost underserved. It always seems before it’s time, in my life, unhappiness seems to hit before clarity arrives, and at some point you have to trust your instincts and that relationship you cannot fail at in life. I learned that whether together or apart we are always a product of who we meet know, trusted, and guided us this far in life and it’s common upon suffering bullying or abuses that you’re made to feel hurt. That devastation over control is a real circumstance when it comes to respect none more obvious then all the stages Ive been through in life all the highs and lows and hopefully you don’t become one of them lost by reputation or anything declared to be wrong about your discussions private and turmoil your family faced upon revisiting your greatest loss, the loss of your Mother.

Social ills are potentially the worst indicators of what should feel good and why never the misery or deficiency of others, this is not fashion and attention these are your lives to live without being viewed as small by others. We all have potential to make a positive difference when we vocalize the grievances of others and sometimes under the painful examination of the public. Not all are remorseful or compassionate, not all understand your hurt and disappointment, not all understand your role or placement to your family, and I think all would understand if insulted to meet me and fail to provide advocacy or assume any teams over diagnosis or maturity levels. Memory is a good thing, remember what you can while it comes to mind there will be later stages in life and trauma when what’s most important will be now when no past experiences is found beautiful or capable of architecting a beautiful story to love with lessons, heartwarming. Yours is. Although it’s a media blitz, I highly doubt anyones angry and more quieted by the fact that your families suffered for reasons not stated. I once said a dream would be for everyone raving with glow sticks at the Washington memorial lawn. To me I used to say things later I had to remember what’s not to like about me or my story so here’s a list:

(1) Tried coke 2006.

(2) Quit hotline counseling.

(3) Dated and dumped.

(4) Deans list to academic probation.

(5) Straight As to rehab.

(6) Yearbook 2003 voted most shady.

(7) Lived alone Boulder sober.

(8) 2 people w/records took photo w/me.

(9) I kept a diary my whole life.

(10) I wrote 4 final essays 2 for boyfriend.

(11) I didn’t finish my JD Bc flew to DC.

(12) Invited to Inauguration flew back.

(13) I had a job at DA, return badges.

(14) Returned badges I got arrested.

(15) I had two jobs 2012, & TMS.

(16) Rehab 2011 for taking extra adderrall Bc I put myself in the hospital made + 2 months.

(17) I had to work & go to law school & dated.

(18) I got As in law school then burnt out.

(19) On meds I couldn’t work apply get paid.

(20) I wanted to blog because I love to write.

(21) I’m not allowed to talk in private.

(22) On meds day to day talking helps.

(22) Breakups kept email fights.

(23) No one took my side.

(24) Pulled over changing lanes w/o blinker.

(25) In not a sex offender, I get hit on asked.

(26) I’ve never been mentally ill dating.

(27) I never turned on my family, I wrote truthfully and clearly best of my knowledge.

(28) There are no secret services for me.

(29) To help I call submit reports not entrap.

(30) 2023 no one gives up on my anymore.

(31) I can still be sued not good enough.

(32) I improved well dated reached back out to Todd, introduce myself, then after 2 years of talking my ex was in town wanted to see me. And then my other ex w/forgiveness root for me.

(33) The bad website, because I was on meds unstable unimpressed if I sounded sick or needed to go to the hospital, heard laughter.