To be a successful writer, such as myself, without complaint, and positive reviews, it means to stay positive and to continue to grow through the process as you come to know yourself, and as you meet the needs of others, which is more of a guessing game the more you worry about it, the more time is wasted, people pleasing the wrong sides or terms or matters in life, not having to do with you just yet, its when you provide examples to justify terms, is how you cant win with voices and things only become worse, it’s a lose lose battle once enthusiasm is lost, it is then felt as though something is owed not provided, a reassurance or a benefit. Who takes away the benefit from you in life, its usually stuff you beat yourself up for later in life, things about you that you’ve done or said, to make you not like yourself, can manifest itself into voices, or people contesting your standing in life, or who you are, or what youre about. You can hardly think under any amount of negativity in life, it’s the wound that keeps festering.

In order to grow as a person you have to be positive, the kind of person who is at ease, not easily bothered by others, and comfortable with yourself, that’s the personality type that is looked for, upon people being worried about you or questioning your faith about things, the less people know you the more they will feel intimidated by you, the more people know you the less impressive you become, its whatever solution you seek in being known, to make things better, and not all things with good intention, revolve peacefully along the same lines.

I think the fewer people you talk to in life, the more isolated you feel, the more likely you are to feel bullied by voices, and that’s a very uncomfortable position to be in in life. Writing undoes negative voices, it puts your words in place of words you hear that you don’t say, who seek to make their anger about you, whats a good team goal. A good team goal is when things that makes you proud also make you feel good, its when things you go by in life, and can rely on in times of need, tend to be pointers in life, information, or facts, that spare you the time or wasted energy trying to make things happen, and life happens for you in life, in peace. Its in troubles that life slows down, things don’t work out, and things seem difficult and unbearable. When things work out for you in lfie, that’s an energy and success you carry with you, that’s translates into information or things that you say, that will resonate with others, that’s being in tune with your audience.

The loss of Lisa Marie Preseley is devasting, and on a personal note, traumatizing, for a woman who embodies the kind of respect and family presence, to have lived a life different that she deserved, or be cut short, make no news story over addiction is not the solution to remembering a person for her beauty in life, nor is criticism over her presence at an award ceremony. Most people who are famous, born into serving positions in life, are shy, that’s a humble approach to being so big in life, to not make others feel small, that’s being respectful of others, not a competing sound or undercurrent to anything else going on in life, genuine. So when you feel concerned speak more to what is being memorialized in film, and in what way is memorializing the loss of her Father significant and timely, and that’s a negative judgement to determine that the making of the movie was untimely or led to an untimely death, not made with love, and properly orchestrated accurate to the life of Elvis Presley as he lived.

It seems that as someone who has disability, and been hospitalized, or sent to treatment taken off medications, or sent to therapy, it seems like its believed that there is something inherently wrong with me, that you think is being spread to the ideas of others changed, I don’t think that there is anything sick about me, influencing or overarching the goals of any film, or celebrity, music, or character in life, or book, I think everyone is living as themselves. I think the group goal is to be feeling good about what you are doing in life, life is not about being known, and imitated, that’s a different understanding of life, to discredit people as being strong on their own, or to blame their influences in life, as molding them, to assert that a person who is later diagnosed with conditions, is responsible for acquiring them, or accuse them or setting other people off in life, based on their level of understanding of life and connection. People don’t want to associate with people who bear guilt, because people don’t want to feel like guilty people that’s plain and simple, people don’t want to feel like people who don’t feel good, this is a certain sense of belonging that is taken from a person, when you decide to punish them or chatise them for the life the live or lead, or because of who actually is brave enough to talk to them. Its not my fault that I have a life that is difficult to talk to, I think Ive made significant changes in my life, where Im able to connect and talk to people, and was even open to therapy recently, but what are the problems that are wanted topbe heard, you cant really get to the bottom of anything in a therapy session, when all the focus is on what is wrong with you, what can be fixed about what is wrong with you nothing, if it’s a disorder then its permanent and nothing can be done about it, if it’s a disability, its permanent and nothing can be done about it.

So on this not, more acceptance is needed in anyones approach to accepting people the way they are, including myself. And my tone is not correcting or asserting that anyone thinks less of me or is causing voices, its to say why should it matter why should anyone care to dislike, what is at the bottom of that thought or belief and what is the motivating force behind establishing a belief in others that one is disordered or something that they are not. Life is not out of control, but when people are unhappy with you, that’s how you lose control over your life. Life is real, my feelings are real, my love for Todd was real no one has seen me ever love someone so much and do so well in life, in my entire life, no one has ever seen me that happy in life ever, and maybe that was because I made a friend in life I could talk to, not sex based, and had a spoken set of words and a way of talking that made sense and was not influential in a political way or about anyone and not problematic, but when you are accused of wrong doing that’s to make you sound street, or disturbed, or masculine, or combative, or trashy, and that’s what they do to women when they don’t like them on the outside, they hurt you on the inside to see what comes out of you, and then claim that you are a threat because you are an unhappy woman, life is all a competition over who is prettier, more at peace, more successful, more well rounded, who feels better than who, and its clear because I don’t have a job, I cant get a job working for a man that I admire trust and love, so that’s not saying that any code is messed up simply because I have to remove posts, and that’s not to say that he was not doing well on his own, that’s to accept that in real life by whatever terms or emails, something was said or provided that cannot be read or seems unnecessary and if I cant identify whats upsetting, then its not my job to disassociate from others, and make clear that Im not watching or following anyone, and shouldn’t be knocked off my only team in life, being trusted by Todd Spitzer, its not fair to leave me alone in life, with no one to talk to, I have major problems that are not fit for discussion in therapy, and too many fears in life, that are unnecessary to talk about over and over again, in therapy or out loud online, that doesn’t make me feel good, that solves nothing, and that makes my life worse, so in what way can anyone benefit, when Im made to feel worse or sick? I simply said Im not feeling well, that doesn’t mean that there is anything going on wrong with me, Im taking as prescribed, I think a lot, I work all day, all morning, and all night until bed, on my blog and studying and keeping track of all the things I have to do in life, and also trying to take on jobs in life and help others. Im like everyone else, a blog is a serious commitment in life, my life depends on my blog, my blog is my job and my life force, and I love Todd hes my friend.