“Fuck You” blasting nsync “Aint Nothing but a Heartache” – This could get worse, clean up my act!

If you cant help the problem don’t be the problem but as a writer I cant ignore a problem if I have experience with encountering those issues in life overdosing, accidental suicide attempts, cutting, self-harm, self-injury, why? Usually over stupid reasons that are emotionally difficult to explain like getting a job, or your health, mental health, feeling stupid, being made fun of, doing a lot of things at once, in between chapters, cant get a hold of anyone, being alone, delusional, being bullied, it will be when youre awake and everythings out of control and you cant think of anything to help yourself. That’s a tough spot to be in.

Usually we empathize with people who are regarded well and who we do not believe have the potentially to really give up that fast or over what reasons, so it is bothersome to all, what is going so wrong, that anyone is giving up in life, and should we hear about it as communication of what we should feel too, yes this is concerning, because its hard to hear that any conditions in life are so painful or unfixable as a feeling or thinking that you cant fix, or anything too late to get better, and that’s the issue with mental illness. It can convince you things are wrong or so bad they cant be fixed, and sometimes in thinking and feeling, we fail to do any work to stop it from persisting or worsening, and not asking for help such as meds.

The best way to fix something that you don’t have the answer to is to ask for help, to call a hotline, anytime you are in the balance of making a decision you think can solve whats wrong, hurting yourself only makes things worse, not better. I don’t agree that suicide is selfish why no one talks about it, it’s a very scary condition of things being unstable or wrong and it becomes a reaction that most don’t have experience or know why they are reacting that way or what is it that is making them feel like there’s nothing I can do or this means I should go or leave earth. I promise you that no one is so broken that a doctor or medicine cant fix, sometimes things we feel think or know … will not help us get past to a better state of mind, how writing helps, learn new information, or focus on new terms and learn a solution, or get feedback from a professional. So this is how suicide is sad, it means in the time that you were not feeling well, you didn’t get help until ultimately you gave up. If you feel like giving up, that means you don’t know how to make things better.

So this is what I learned once I got better and looked well, don’t worry about what it looks like, where you are, or whats wrong, when somethings wrong get help, not let yourself get sick. Then there is the issue of is there a philosophy or truth known that works which is not working or does not work with a character known “me” this is how I am viewed, if I am the character in common or introduced to an identity or used in a solution made by another, at what point should anyone in connection be made to believe that anything that is me is also in this, that’s schizophrenia, imdb means this is my story its important ready to share, and see whether I did a good job, or whether I failed to remember everything I could to let people know I did my best, and I was important. I never intended to introduce myself if I didn’t get through something very embarrassing mental illness, and think that Im a good example of someone who kept trying, in spite of dumber phases less successful phases in life. Maybe its not a story or best seller that a normal person who has not been sick would read, but maybe to someone who thinks that its inspiring that someone with schizophrenia did her best and then wrote to help others, to also do things in life to get better.

Life is tough so its good to hear from someone who cares. Then there is the issue of you in common, who you support and what is believed a “movie reference” this is why I think people thoughts I was mentally ill, or not well when something goes wrong and people think that you promote a rank that you don’t belong, if a crime occurs that they think is based on calling you out in public the referenced law student, then they think you are sick and because you talk to a DA, that you are why a crime happened, so that’s when it becomes too much for people to support you, if you are told you are sick and get voices, then you rest a year … things get tough, loss, try to work, but nothing can continue to be well until your consistent and when people cant help you, that tells you either help yourself, and explain why people think anything is your fault, and explain that you are not anywhere sick or breaking any rule in life to confirm that you work in places inappropriate or a reminder of a crime to say that you are guilty or Leslie and Film means this because she went to CU Boulder, so that’s to say because Leslie worked (she was in a place she did not belong) to say the jobs she got shows us that she is here or at this job to say that she is working, then people think that because of where you are working is dumb, and that’s how people think you are wrong, when something goes wrong and they think you did something dumb, and think that you are dumb in common.

Until you can figure out why life is hard, remember, life is hard getting down the basics, and life gets harder or next to impossible, once people in common think youre mentally ill or belong in a hospital and if the hospital does not think you belong, then stay home, a condition you cant fix is the hospital, also a destructive condition would be to convince everyone that everyone knew me or knows me supported me, or referenced me, and say that I am not worth it, or because of me, and anyone who knows me, that anything went wrong, to say that I am the defective person writing who convinced people she belonged and that she is mentally ill and too much because everyone was doing well, and she worked, to say she is someone who any place she does not belong, so that’s people testing you, why are you well trying able. So this is by what you are hurt by, what losses, so as many times as it takes, people will not understand you, if you have done wrong, so that’s what cant be fixed.

Either on a small scale share and work, but always remember what people think of you, there will always be people who think that you have done wrong mentally ill on purpose, why people keep track of people to know what they have done wrong, and that’s how people think less of you or think that you are someone who makes decisions in life wrong. I think everyday I struggle on meds, and everyday I do my best to belong, and everyday I try to stay well, and everyday I try to do everything right and everyday I try to speak right, and some days I will be sick, and recently was sick and said things wrong so that’s my first experience saying things wrong.

So that’s life it may take two years to be trusted and watched to know if you are well to work or cant be helped, and you can undergo treatments … it wont matter how anything looks when people think youre stupid or criminal. This is why if you are hurt, and cant be helped life gets worse, and as a blogger on a public scale if you are the person in common who is not well, that’s how they think that youre system of staying well is stupid or think everyone is reading and thinks you’ve done wrong. So that’s the lesson in whats okay, its okay to love help and improve, its not okay to get sick, and its not okay to date if you are not well, and once you make a decision stick to one, so that’s observing myself over a year or so and losing weight.

How much am I able to speak normal and can I date if I get voices, the best life is your life, I think my life is not planned with an amazing future. Im still getting the basic down how to talk to people meet people work, I still have to do everything right to feel good, and I also have to be everything on my blog I say I am, stay sober, tell the truth, get help, be nice to everyone, and be open about my stages in life, no one knows exactly how to be to not get voices, and that’s something Im still figuring out.

Give love to people who deserve it, and don’t get hurt looking stupid, it could become a joke permanent, and then what. So Im sorry I had a girly website name clearly based on how I was hurt, it is no longer appropriate to be an open audience to women or men of all ages, it seems like the defect is my personality or mind voice face body, I promise that none of my defects mean that I have offended anyone, but Im sure it doesn’t make my life any easier, to look ugly or fat, that you cant change when you aren’t a big deal, and people think you think you are something you are not …. Sometimes things only go well so long as everyone is well, and that’s the lesson.

I don’t think it is anyones fault or anythings you notice, what is good will be good and will not be to blame, mental illness is something that occurs only in a few, we are all different. I am not expert in mental illness in general or crime, etc, or jail, Im sorry I took a picture there, I have learned the lesson that to not be put in jail, its better to not remind yourself of a place where you have suffered disappointed many and never got your life back put on meds, and also not end up any place that says when you were doing right in life, working, people think you are anywhere mentally ill or wrong and don’t belong, to say its your fault mentally about anything.

Im sorry that I missed appointments, Im sorry I suffered hardship, Im sorry that anyone thought it was okay or made sense to treat me as less than or failure, and Im sorry if you don’t see me as someone who has arrived and wants things to be well stay well, no one is stupid or wrong when they are doing their best and being honest or loving, so Ive done my best, and sometimes when you fail many other conditions are tested for, I cant anticipate how any breakup or lost trust can be fixed, I cant fix a moment in time well, or how its made sad, so Im doing my best not to be known to all or famous, until I actually get out of a place in life, where people think I am not speaking professional or have mental illness, your best impression is now.