Be conscious of the undercurrents guiding your thoughts and outlook, consider your exposures who you have come to know, and work absent an influence coming from others, that’s creativity, its being in yourself and embodying a character or a prose that can resonate and be adapted to any life upon reading, its not just a perspective or directions for how to think, its about whats being read, not made to think about outside terms or be related to other things in life, and its simply allowing a person to focus of themselves, that’s writing, not intended to cause people to focus on the person who is writing, or seek to embody the person who is writing, or to be like or look like, that’s not how an influence carries its by what you are actually connected to, is viewed as influencing how you talk or what your tone is, and that’s the interest of people who are observing for shifts in writing styles, temperament, mood, or ability.

I am someone who has mental health issues, to there will be heightened states of being watched like at night, hearing voices, or in duller moments if Im not actively doing anything and working on something. Its easy to get maxed out working online. You spend all day checking your stats, and updating your website, and trying to learn new apps. You spend a great deal of time working on yourself, such as listening to Udemy tapes or going to an AA meeting, and you spend a gear deal of time staying organized, taking notes, creating emails, keeping track of accounts and passwords, managing your funds each month to pay bills, it’s a lot of responsibility, and sometimes you have more energy for it, than you had on meds, slow.

As a blogger you inherit the mood or temperament of who is reading who may not like you, or the temperament of a person who is not sure of you, and puts you on edge and makes you more stiff and conservative unsure of yourself, there are different phases in the blogging journey, to get to a comfortable place in life, when you are not knocked off center and that can still happen being watched, if people go through your messages and emails, Im one of those people people like to investigate my own investigations in life, so that makes sense, it seems like people don’t come to know or understand things until they go through all your stages in development, and see how you have improved, to understand where you are or how a good website is made, I think making a second website that’s different, shows that Im a strong person and a strong writer, and capable of taking on more challenging subjects and still be read. There is no certificate to talk about th9ings other than yourself, you just have to be brave, and most things people don’t talk about in real life, os make sure its something worth hearing.

To make sure you are consistent, be aware of what is questionable about you or what people are not sure of about you, so I’m assuming people are reading through the lens of a diagnosis definition and looking at me or watching me, waiting to see whether there is something they know to see if it is exhibited through me to see whether I can hear what another person is thinking, no I cant hear what other people are thinking, I think people see what I’m thinking, and I don’t really get bothered or worry about what other people are thinking or doing, and I don’t care even if its about me or something funny that would hurt my feelings, I have better things to do in life, and bigger problems in life, than to worry about anything about love, or sides, etc. So this is where tinybuddha.com’s suggestion would apply at least in my mind, “Perhaps the best goal is to identify negative feelings quickly and improve your state of mind instead of responding to feelings with more feelings. Odds are, if you choose the latter, you’ll do something you’ll regret later.” [1]

Is what your thinking controlling what you are saying, and is what your thinking based on a person or a specific experience in life, that is being credited as explaining but not mentioned in your writing, or are you talking about life in general in terms of your own ability to rationalize what it is you are going through to explain to someone else, that their worries are not your fears, and your worries are not disabling or being inherited in others, made to think or experience symptoms.

I was told at UCLA that “bipolar” is not contagious, nor is schizophrenia, so if its not a blood disorder or sexually transmitted, then what is it and how can other people tell .I wouldn’t know there is no proper diagnosis for it, and Ive never been diagnosed with it, it may mean that I either look weird, or by heritage, is assumed I am confused and mentally ill, or they think that the adderrall needs to stop because they think my thinking is stupid, or problematic. Which is very insulting having gone to law school. If I was schizophrenic, then I would not have been able to read and memorize and study for hours and outline, and write essays. That makes no sense why Im diagnosed with a diagnosis that homeless people have and drug addicts that’s so insulting to treat me as drug addict prescribed adderrrall. Who are these people who just look at you and tell you there is something wrong with you. I have paid to be seen for years, so whatever gave anyone the right mind to tell me that my mind is not right, and change me, or say that who I am or how I am is not appropriate, and then drug me to turn me into a person who gets shouted at and disrespected, and treated as stupid, why should I be intimidated?

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[1] https://tinybuddha.com/blog/10-ways-to-let-go-and-overcome-a-bad-mood/