When you are a person who loves, and then you get mistreated as though you don’t deserve love, and that’s how women gang up on you, when they think that you have mistreated or have caused hurt to a man, ask Mike Hestrin. Also if you self-harm they treat you as two people and then mistreat you as though you hurt yourself a woman. And then they pile on other issues of sexuality and what you like or are attracted to, its clear that I don’t belong on Bumble and that’s not where I should be in life to find love, its clear that it doesn’t matter by now to match with anyone, anywhere, anyhow, over anything, that’s what gets done to you, when you earn the right to talk to someone, and then get treated as though you are the disconnect or a bad idea that another is being connected to and that’s how you get sent off in life, as though you don’t belong, and its punish you and accuse you until you either sound disgusting and schizophrenic, to excuse what people think is wrong with you, or until you sound like you don’t make sense diagnose and punish you and leave you stupid. That’s being treated as stupid, not smart, and that’s how you get punished in treatment facilities that try to label you addict or alcohol when you are smart, that’s how you are given problems in life, and that’s a humiliation that you never recover from, and that’s what ultimately sets you apart as either having grown from whatever brought you to places like that in life, or to live up to negative expectations of you. That’s being treated as an addict, they don’t trust you, you cant manage your own meds, if you have too much or too little energy, you will always look stupid and you will never be trusted and you will always be dumped or mistreated or drawn to you when things are well, and its when you cannot decide and when you have mental illness, that you cant date and life is too hard for you to incorporate another person into your life, or to bother anyone with texts, that’s what being alone with mental illness is like, its not love that will solve your problems, its because you gave love, that you look stupid, and get mistreated like you took something away from someone else, as though your condition or your body or your love, doesn’t exist in the event that you fall sick, is taken personally. So much went wrong and everyone weathered the storm its not triggered or caused by my condition, my identity, my name, my law schooling, my emails, my intelligence or my identity, those are all excuses, and what I promote on my blog is not the cause for homicide and my mental illness is not the cause for people being homicidal so make no comparisons and make no justifications about it, mistreat me as though my life is bad or unpleasant and is the difficulty that anyone else faces homicidal, and in addition voices are caused by detachments, and that’s when you are welcomed some place, you get punished and cant return, you are made to be haunted by voices of people talking about you, and that how you get voices, or on medication stupid, control, or robbed, or embarrassed or treated as stupid, everyone hurts your life, because they think that you don’t value their time and attention and think that you give you life away to strangers or on messenger, they don’t understand your brain mentality, and physical health, and think that you are experiencing life as though you understand the dangers of strangers or are someone who attracts dangers or has a demeanor or mentality of someone stupid who is faced with odds in life, or bad luck, for things to happen to them, or the wrong personality in life, that gets mismanaged or punished in life, and that’s what life is like in disappointment, when people hear things about you, and think that you stand for the wrong reasons or are not someone of value or don’t value yourself, seem stupid. What is rape? Obviously doing men that youre not attracted to is not rape, its doing a favor for someone who wants to feel good, so whats the big deal, please don’t call it as me being hurt or another being hurt by who feels good by me, that’s the wrong way to judge anything Ive said, it means you will not know what love is until it happens like with Todd Spitzer, it will feel like time and everything will feel good, or when in relationships when they are persistent and interested in you, and then it happens, but nothing happens past the diagnosis of “schizophrenia” that’s an excuse to either insult or allow for insult and to treat you as though being stupid is the solution to your problems, no you get more hurt, being smart is the solution to building peace for yourself. My story isn’t sad, I went through many punishments in life and rejections, and became a well known author online and proud, that’s just a matter of me being in control of me, and to now allow people to make decisions for me, or to treat me as unwell, that’s mental health, you will not look and feel like you are well, that’s because you are made to be insecure and not feel good about yourself, and that’s punishment so you go places in life that you will never return from, and that’s how you get treated as though you victimize other people, and not respected as being the loving one and supportive one, and that’s not fair to mistreat a woman who gives love and is dumped, or people outgrow me, as though I should know or understand or carry on a personality that is aloof or thinks important or is asking to be treated as stupid, Im a very giving person, as you can see I write online for free, and write well.

No its not right to accuse me of being hurtful because Im put on medications and treated as stupid and not allowed to work and make money to make my parents proud, and its not okay to blame me for having one pen pal and making clean videos and photos, and be accused of taking grose photos and embarrassing my family, no that was done to me, and it hurt me and my family, and this is why Im online blogging now to earn my respects back in life, not to be punished by Todd Spitzer and treated like I lived a bad life or painful so say that my life is scary or causes death and thats what is wrong with people when you have mental health issues, its easy for them to accuse but not one takes ownership over all the meds that you are put on in life, and all the problems you are given in life,. and blame you like you bring things upon yourself in life, I am not stupid, Im not disrespectful, I work hard, and Im kind and loving and my life isnt a joke, Im not running from the law Im not evil and if I need to stop voices I can do so by writing, and I think losing 60 lbs was a good way of proving whether Im gay or not so there is a clear line with women what the causes for it arent, and to not be treated in any way not by my choice or mistreat me as though I am trying to attract attentions from women or have them identify with me or my sexuality or mental illness, thats why I was called schizophrenic, so women feel good about themselves, dont need me, men feel good, and so people treat me like Im weird, and thats what a change in your sexuality does to your mental health, it makes you life worse and you get treated as schizophrenic as though you should know whether you have a condition of gay before it happens, so thats treating me as bipolar condition that happens, then treating me as gay condition happens. I dont date women or friend women, since I got mental health issues and have problems the equivalent of a CIA issue, therefore why would I make another woman comfortable or feel safe by how I got treated in life or disrespected, over when I dated or when I didnt date, do you know how many people had lives except for me, Im not for punishment to let people feel like they are offended by me, what about me and how I feel why is it okay to punish me and offend me like Im a chore or not worthy of love, so you know how hurtful that is to be in stages in life and to be punished for no reason over what or whom? I dont think thats deserved I explained my life to show that even if everything happened to me in a bad way I am still able to lose 50 lbs be independent and show up in court by myself on 1/31 in one piece.