When things get worse you have to be positive because no one is going to talk you through stress, disorder, shame, blame, or looking bad those are the feelings you are intended to sit with in life whenever someone decides to punish you in public it’s what there is about you that you need to figure out how to change. That’s a difficult position for anyone to be in and wouldn’t glamorize or pretend that feeling like going to the hospital or things being too much or too heavy is expected to occur to me or for anyone to know the reasons why. 

The lesson is when you have come so far you have to make choices either to connect and take the risk of looking bad or being rejected or not connect. All opportunities to be helped require some connection and honesty if allowing someone to work on you and try to fix you no road through recovery from mental health issues is easy and wouldn’t improve in writing if it was a condition that I know how it happens or ever about being known or what anyone thinks. It’s mostly to do with what I think and secondly make sure when interacting with others I have good things to say I’ve never been one to be in your face about subjects or argumentative … all things serious are serious feelings you have to deal with and sometimes it’s hard to minimize what’s serious in you. 

However serious happens to you in life you’re on you’re own when you are made to be on you’re own and if that’s pushing your limits in life when things happen to you you don’t expect sometimes to make sure you’re human and have tolerable limits in life speaking wise in the reverse you are punished as though you should know you’re own strength interpreted by women who assume you are “p” or gay as though it’s a defect needing nurturing or bonding with women and that’s the insult that hurts which women cannot control offense taken it’s when women feel offended made to care for someone they interpret as hurtful for not being well or loving with is how I’m misunderstood as hurtful as though who I am now is ever who I was growing up never intense social never a loner never struggling doing well. 

It happens with popularity more is expected of you people assume for you to be better off than you are people have the power to watch you and complain or give you a hard time the lesson is the more you make things about others the more unhappy people are with you and the worse you feel caught up in explaining the discomforts of others at your own expense of sounding “blabbing” or “not making sense,” argument is taxing it’s not a high or law school it’s literally churning your insides under a pressure to the mind to speak clearly to be read well not offended by you that’s being scared to make sure people are not offended by you, writing.