No one teaches you how to think and behave like an adult there is no shortcut to adulthood, responsibility, and lessons or imitations on how to carry yourself in public or awareness lessons that necessitate anyone to consider what they look like to play a role in how they feel or are treated. Until that matters worry about it, if it’s not on your mind don’t rationalize how you feel as being your fault some things don’t matter until you say it or describe possibilities to allow enable or in words let people think that way toward you.

There is no recipe for good health posture head shape and feelings. It’s being human you can fill your life up with whatever makes you happy and well just don’t let that be people or bad ideas or sick thinking all life is to be remembered you live with all experiences in life and all experiences no matter how it occurs is what becomes apart of you sometimes that’s how people are made to learn lessons in life to see whether they experience life and live life wrong or whether they live life by script whatever the experiment is there will always be an impetus to watch inflict change or add difficulty or demise to watch you come about in life most people don’t believe you’ve had it hard or struggled until they see or watch it have proof to read or know or feel it to know how far down you are in life and whether you are gone, going, dying, stupid, “angry,” a no or told no, a reject or connected.

Sometimes that’s how people determine what’s inside of you on your face or in your brain by hurting you changing you watching you listening reading private conversations and observing you that’s the satisfaction people have hacking … it’s putting you in harms way for their peace of mind it’s attacking you hurting you to see what or what look behavior feeling detected on you causes your life to be over or belong in jail whatever are the circumstances for determining that is not my speciality.

I don’t watch people get well watch them get hurt and lose everything to know what a good life is or what I’m capable of. Sometimes when people try to justify your diagnosis it’s what you look like attacked why they keep attacking me hurting my feelings attacking me causing me pain attacking me changing my face attacking me like that’s pushing me.

There is no recipe for rising above and saying the right thing or not belonging in jail mostly people who don’t trust you seek to justify it by annoying you trying to aggravate you trying to blame you trying to treat you as who hurt you that’s the rationale when someone hurts you because of what I said (or repetition over what is said). What is the probability of you becoming something that attacks you wrongfully to try to justify attack like something in my brain is wrong or connected to kids (or anyone suspected) to wrongfully beat me up like job or sex or hit on means because of my job as law clerk at Childrens Law Center. I was working hard. I wasn’t looking socializing inviting for flirtation or social I was focused and professional first to work everyday. 

If that’s the plan to attack me like I’m who attacked me then I don’t have to explain or say what he did was okay on any level or teach people to beat me up watch me torture me aggravate and annoy me like that’s supposed to make me punish my head and ruin my health and progress to ruin my relationship to someone I did love that’s the competition in life whatever you have is destroyed and to make you sick then blame you for your losses.

That’s how technology fails in terms of prevention that’s how bullying is caused and that’s not justified by anything that happens in life when I can work and work hard you will know whether I’m suicidal or at fault and wonder for the rest of life had I not written books and blogged then what would life have been like not writing at all.

What good will it do to prove mental illness based on what I say why memorialize a period in time when I was put down in life to ruin my life like I deserved that no one deserves a force so powerful a life is ended no punishment especially.

I was able to work through issues in life and it was me that said the issue could be respect so to be someone respected so that I’m not attacked like I don’t deserve or be treated as not good enough or an embarrassment if that was the issue I identified as hurtful disruptive then how would gay make things any better or improve make me more attractive or likeable or picked of course that makes it impossible to talk to women impossible to be understood hurtful on every basis toward me and insulting on every basis to declare anything sick coming from my body looking at my body and treat me as sick like you are in me or I’m in you is a wrongful experiment on my face and body and wrongful interference with my health outlook livelihood and all relationships period.

Figure out life for yourselves watching your own faces, listening to your own bodies, through your own exposures, and create your own lessons in life you’ve learned without reading my life story illegally and injuring me like everything’s on an everyone knows everything the same basis that’s not true that’s inflicted that’s not about me no movie I never lie I’m always honest and I wrote ideas and argued for acceptance for all long before any movie or any mental health trend or any womens movement and improvements socially or bonds. 

02/11/23: edit paragraphs & sentence structure, still sounds abrasive fix my tone, passionate but still sounds like a side at me which is still intense to read, fix that in my next post.