If this continues to be a difficult life then I will not make any decisions to marry, and clearly after this suit will not be having a child based on the permanent damage to my reputation. It’s clear when things become hard is the “feeling” sought to be proven whether coming from you, is the happiness breaker or dream contenders to what is peaceful or how made & why. I think it’s safe to say when things are too much not to wait until there’s a shared feeling of overwhelm to diagnosis any heartbreak or circumstances to declare a few mistakes in thinking toward people as unforgivable or not easy to correct what is hard to correct is often not what can be seen but things you are made to feel. 

There are different types of life mine is not one that’s always treated as wholesome, protected, or prided in, and it’s those feelings of displacement that I can’t correct no matter what the diagnosis is, there will always be an excuse for rejection or discrimination and people will always make it seem like you are the uncertain one with no future or lost potential there are different types of gone and not functioning in life and I wouldn’t ever consider myself one of them or belonging in IOP like there’s damage to my brain or it’s not working anything simple is wrong with me that I can’t figure out, helpful IOP, but sometimes no equation for thinking is the solution sometimes the more you discriminate people on the basis of terms the less they have to say more they are hurt. So that’s the grievance. 

I’m assuming that things are being treated on the basis of business terms not stated toward me so teams, issues, look, risk, and investments which I don’t ask for help I provide a service of speaking and helping without fighting so the risk is always to me can I help or am I too disabled to help not when I’m well or why governed by incident being strong is not just for recuperating after injury or trauma it’s also about not being selfish and not bothering anyone and not being worrisome later in life you learn and connection feelings discrination when everyone all is sudden plays sensitive and tries to say your responsible for your condition failing you can’t be well everywhere and this is why I work from home because whatever is wanted is a continued drive success and ability and in real life people see disability or how things look as intended to insult you, you’re life’s not done until you give up and allow what others people think to cause you to not believe in yourself and improve to later stages of wellness when people see peace and happiness and reassurance. I think a diagnosis is to make you seem like you look so bad confused and sick that people can see something you can’t do your brain should be turned off because it doesn’t work so the thinking is your thinking is wrong so your brain is disabled so that you look stupid sound stupid and sad and people leave you alone that’s why they call people schizophenic because they think that them talking us disease and hear about you see you and make choices that affect the rest of your life and made to live with a negative opinion of you you can’t change and this is done to you as many times as it takes for you to stop thinking others can help you and stop going to the hospital and start living life not connecting to anyone if it’s so personal and fragile to connect why connect with so many preferences and standards. So it hurts that I could be okay and based on what another’s sees is the problem to focus on sometimes things get worse the more you blame a woman for being hurt and not comprehending the issue of control this is why I will never let anyone control me for the rest of my life because people don’t care they just want to feel good and smart and think the lesson is used up and stupid and whatever that’s supposed to teach me in life I don’t let pain happen and I’m not some sorry excuse for pain and drugs and I’m not done loving example of a life ruined or a bad decision maker you know people are mean pissed off combative and cold with mental illness they see people who are well and think your stupid or think you think things are about you that’s how stupid people are you as they act like your so stupid or a formula or reason for why they’re hurt that’s why I don’t belong in a hospital. A song was picked for me “Calm Down” by Taylor Swift. Sometimes I think the purpose for declaring a non existent deficit (everyone hears voices I’m told is normal) deficit pronounced at which time and why to say that my potential is so limited (I think conversation space is limited when your head doesn’t feel good and if you don’t feel like talking means I’m too fragile to connect or be used or insulted on the basis for how I feel or what too much I can tell you things much when it’s too much I won’t belong anywhere but my room and I don’t need to photo so people have faves and feelings and use for some definition wrongfully use my writing life and data to signify some disease it’s not is not what I’m for free data you can’t hurt md use my work and make up a definition making fun of me then I refuse to accept the diagnosis and hereby declare I’m not schizophenic and you can solve the disease yourselves without declaring and causing disease to my mind and my body by discrimination). My potential in life is not so ruined or things made to appear so bad (is the condition sought to prove existed at the time of diagnosis this is how people expect worse and try to timeline your health to the health of others I don’t think making md sick proves anything is wrong with me it proves that I’m being watched and hurt as sick and that can’t be proven that’s not schizophrenia that’s just plain tech) therefore my life should be shortened by diagnosis of “schizophrenia” that’s telling people there’s something so wrong with me that I can’t figure out or others can’t figure out and means that my life should be short based on how well others are doing and comparing me as though my life is going to affect or change the lives of those who have not experienced hospitalization. If the solution is to punish, weaken, prosecute, make appear stupid so that’s how punishment changes your life it weakens your body and mind so you look bad and it’s to make you appear weaker so others can sense pain or disconnect and not want to connect so that’s what happens to a person who is strong who is punished made to be physically weaker. Then there is tech and torture which you can’t prove how voices occur to someone who’s not connected to anyone and doesn’t talk to anyone how can one hear others if no one is in a persons life how and why does that occur and what is the known formula for causing sickness to a person known with unknown offenders what is a schizophrenic declaration for. It’s to continue to mistreat me as though the sick are connected to me then further advertise for sickness to be drawn to me to cause more sick connections to my body and use my body and my brain to treat people who are sick and then see if I get sick or what voices I hear to scrutinize my audience, ages, and intelligence try to declare me as not fitting in or doesn’t mix well or gets upset or jealous so that’s looking at me reading my blog imitating me then watched and then being mean to me like my lead is whack or wrong? 

So I’m sorry to be so blunt but I refuse to accept a schizophrenic diagnosis, I will however continue to study CBT and life coaching to improve my writing but with no intent to work one on one or for career coach anyone since this suit means to stay away from all people and be alone for the rest of my life if this is how people get hurt when I’m connected hurt or embarrass to be rejected and teamed up on like my connection fate outlook in life (strong for everyone stop hurting me to call me selfish if I don’t make you feel good call me schizophenic or label me as though any sickness is coming from me my body my brain my blog or my writing it’s coming from who feels sick thinks I’m sick causing them to feel sick is the problem with dislike & diagnosis) or campaign doesn’t work or is faulty or disorganized I wrote it myself it works as far as I’m concerned and if it’s not believed can write a whole new Instagram with a whole new set of terms to reflect on and until something works in the minds for others is often how long difficulty lays for … that’s just the process of being strong in spite of losses some of us can’t quit some of us don’t need excuses some of us don’t need defamation and punishment to know when to stop sometimes shout subjects you to attack and makes people think that you are worse off or not hardworking or have failed like everything’s going well and be mistreated like I’m ruining anything that’s going well if I’ve been a steady inspiration for 10 years then me smiling for once in my life is and was my peace and not about anything else and if that’s offensive then why Im not sharing photos anymore not especially to undo any negativity toward me which hurts, I can hear it, people trying to connect and in a hurtful way pretend they care and it becomes seeing me as difficult when it’s others difficult cold to me and can’t help me when things are good all of sudden should my life be difficult not be mistreated like I took things too far or not going to make it or the problem. All difficulty is worrisome because they think “mental illness” is defined and reoccurring some disorder caused by you your mind focus or attentions why they keep causing you sickness people who see well then cold to you cause you sickness that’s where it’s coming from … forced to wonder about others is purposeful to treat you as selfish or suicidal and watch you feel hurt by who disconnects to say that you are hurt or not helped or excuse people disconnecting I think not only can u not help someone who hurts me publicly but I’m also not expected to be read watched and studied by who thinks there’s something wrong with me then they cannot be helped by me therefore why should they read if they didn’t consider me apart of code mistreat me like my life is gone … my life is not fit dying or being controlled to make people feel like doctor like they’re healing me is wrong use of my body and writing. So this is why an inability to feel good (is caused if you date to tell you to go to the hospital if you have love to offend you make you sick so you lose love this is how doctors offend you and sabotage you and cause you sickness based on what they hear in the end to write and get smarter is the solution of worrying what people done with you think it’s then you can’t help no explanation needed and move on in life) and you won’t always know who is causing that or what is being watched for and ruined sometimes it’s your clarity and peace others think is invitation to drain you focus on you change your face. So that’s why I’m not sharing photos. What will help is not being watched online and treated like I’m mentally ill why would I ever expect anyone to help me treat me or advise me on anything that a doctor cannot solve or figgier out or would cause them to give up or think that you are being bad or too much … sometimes it’s about staying well simple solutions in difficulty.