How you identify is no one’s business, perhaps why my blog is so popular, it’s not that they identify with me or on my team in life, its that the words are they are written make sense to the mind of anyone who is following along and trying to determine in what way or for what causes I ever got sick or for what reasons I was ever made to offspeak. When it comes to photography, because my face in real life did not match my face in photos, that’s not why Im crying, and that doesn’t give the public information about me that any camera lens or lifestyle or placement in life or connection is the cause for an influence or change to my face, nor is my face a product or drugs or alcohol since I don’t do drugs and don’t drink, it’s a product of cardio, therefore modeling is not trying to be Kim Kardashian, nor is modeling sexy intended to appear like a sex tape, love is a feeling that you have for a person that you share its not making fun of anyone or pretending to be something that you are not feminine. What you look like you are and what you sound like in writing you are, and what your face looks like you are, and this is just a lesson in cameras and technology that certain apps and lenses are not accurate not an accurate depiction of what a person looks like in reality, and the more time self-harm becomes an issue the more my image is damaged or viewed as flawed, a flawed face my face is because I talked about self-harm is why people think that Im scary, so that’s why Im not viewed as the sweet and loving woman that I am, which is demonstrated through writing, this is because of camera lenses and my face in real life not matching, and the presumed issue is whether a person is prosecuted in private for something that they have done wrong known to others or viewable to others. I was an everyday runner so I take good care of myself, I have lived alone my whole life, therefore in no way shape or form have I ever been a person who does not take good care of myself and others and try hard, and that’s the misunderstanding of having a public profile or a blog, its viewed as sharing something that’s coming from within a group or influence, when its information that is coming from me to others, to understand potential causes for mental illness, which is normal “body dysmoprphia” when you see yourself bigger than you are, or when you are smaller at a later point in time looking at your weight loss photo, but at the time you don’t recognize how small you are, and how small I was is only recognized after I was made to gain 50lbs on meds 195lbs, so that’s not body dysmorphia being 195 lbs, that caused a difference between my head size and my body size, so that my head would be too small for my body so I would be hard to look at, and face disfigured so that I am hard to look at on the side, and that they think is because of self-harm why self-harm by voices was caused to say that Im hard to look at and that its my fault to say that because of self-harm Im hard to look at, or to say that me disliking a photo of myself is a treatment of another, a treatment of myself is not a treatment of another, and this is being brought up on the basis of when exposed, embarrassed called myself “fat and ugly” before Justice Ginsberg died of cancer, this is what is being held against me as though I was mean to myself, which is how later voices turned into a situation of self-harm, to accuse me of being someone who doesn’t talk nice to myself or to others, and this is what people think voices mean, they think that you have a mean voice, a mean voice is something that people think means you are scared, so what was misinterpreted was my discomfort and taking a long time to open up to people, and misinterpreting that as though I have seen or have had a scary experience to justify my voice octave, or now with so many “she names” is about what you are called, so if that’s trending its simple big picture comprehension of how you self-identify, no one would understand why I didn’t want to be shown “fat and ugly” because that was my suffering and its not for the public to know or to witness any changes to my body and face or for what reasons, are not for anyones personal knowledge or investigation for know how or philosophies on life, everyone is made up of whoever they are around or see, and its for no ones to watch me or have me undergo changes in life to determine what is human about me or others, to determine how humans are made or their faces, improved, justify a misuse of viewing my work, as an unwanted attachment in competition to my physical health is why it may be my recordings of my life, and not for viewing on the basis of me being connected to my work, therefore if people are connected to my work and feeling good off of my work not in public, then they are trying to connect to me on the basis of viewing something that makes me feel good viewing all my changes and recording all my progress, which doesn’t mean I think Im fat and ugly, it means I looked that way and I thought people thought that way of me, and I didn’t date because I was obese and never had face issues my whole life. And because I explained that I hit my head into a wall at home by photo, they thought that I was actually hitting my head or had mental illness, its for no one to make fun of you or your issues or fractured hand from bullying in the street, I was beautiful in photos and feminine, it just goes to show that people don’t care and on the basis of your body size or who you are people attack your head or shout at you sim[ply because they think theyre members of “the public” and think that you don’t have a comprehension of history and violence and shootings a music long enough to know what to do right in life, what you have done right in life, what youre not doing wrong, and that you don’t need to be insulted to be driven in life, that’s what makes your head small, being offended in life, by others.