Being brought to your knees in life by punishment is so that you are directed to appear as though you recognize something to be wrong that you should be able to identify not others, and something that others notice, not to be bothered by or question. This is a moment to think and for good work to be created, I think when writing well, its misunderstood for the other condition to be caused or exist, its not something that’s bottled its something that’s caused, and so the cycle continues “psychosis,” or whats understood to be one episode after the next connected, I don’t think that people are that temperamental that anyone should give up or forfeit the present, all that silence reminds us of, is that some people who are made to feel pain or think of pain or share and get pain like me emailing that DA in New York, it could be your story and be painful and be easy for someone else to read, doesn’t mean that what you are feeling is not real or unimportant and just because its easy for someone else to hear a brief summary of what youre about and went through, doesn’t mean that youre pretending that your pain is real or trying to make your pain a reality that anyone else should read or suffer by. Its usually what we don’t want to happen, comes as a shock in the event that it occurs, so who can respond to something shocking occurring, and what can be done. I don’t think that’s a moment when you think about yourself and say Im not feeling well I need to go to the hospital, that would communicate that you are at a limit or experiencing a pain or condition that you are left in in the event that things go wrong which doesn’t solve what is going wrong but only makes things worse the more “selfish” a condition is rumored to be spread the more the word “selfish” is thought of, and when amplifying and titling the issue to be something that things are not, should not be a reason anyone should be provoked to think that an issue occurring in a person is an issue that another should identify as “pain” or something to suffer by. People believe what their lives are made up of, so this is my one life, I take it seriously, everyone is fortunate to not have to go by my life to understand reality or whats important, so what does speaking teach others, that although losses can occur and although that’s painful, unless you are put in the same condition and made ton understand what a pain separate from others feels like, is probably the solution, for me not feeling well for whatever reasons, to understand what pain or which pains, and what type of pain in words or described, is something that hurts to realize or upon reading makes anyone think of something that they are not aware of be made aware of, like body mind issues, and doctor’s solutions, theres a stopping point as a patient with mental health, that if you are in a condition that’s not satisfactory then you can’t write, such as insults, defamation, embarrassment, suicidality, self-harm, usually someone in a closed condition is not like the rest of society that is open and above confident, on meds sometimes it makes you less enagaging, more reflective, and upon opening up, less impressive, if you come from a serious story people want to know that you are serious and that its not the meds that are controlling your thoughts and decisions, or doctors, and not be accused of going against medical treatments, I think the basis for applying a medical analysis of my health or writing, is on the basis of what others come to realize is anyone realizing something about being alive, that’s too much or untrue, based on my diagnosis, so which types of writing cause any condition of things not making sense? So what are things that don’t make sense? Something you don’t know, people you don’t trust, advice that you don’t take, imaging people think things they don’t, writing and people thinking what youre writing, the basis of connecting is a serious issue on the basis of whether your connections in life hurt, so is that your hurt or the hurt of others and what is hurtful about you, I think stages of building a website are not hurtful trying to see the big picture and take all things into consideration, I think the smaller your world gets the less that eveythings is matters as of influence, the more it matters how you are influencing so that’s what meds are about, less meds (how you write and speak) vs. more meds (how to write and speak), if you are not supported (then less impressive appearance is preferred to reinforce negative judgment) (if it’s a belief about you thought true you cant make people unthink something their at peace with, so that’s a word that you accommodate or explain or prevent or eventually study and determine how that can be prevented). Less meds are to punish you as a functioning person, it means as you lived life functioning, the quality of your life and your character either does or doesn’t deserve the privilege of thinking about life or working on the basis of what you take meds for or whether you need meds (there will be people who don’t believe you need adderrall, people who don’t believe you have disability, people who think it means addiction, people who don’t credit your smarts to you but to medication, people who think that your energy should not be awake based on thinking your energy is bad, and you shouldn’t be awake).

Published 04-10-23