Having a mature opinion means that you are able to come back center, and maybe that’s a gift to few, who don’t need to be on meds, they can hear, read, listen, and come back center and everything is okay, so what percentage of people are not able to come back center. Normal is a way of talking that doesn’t speak to what everyone else is doing and thinking is the lesson, its not assuming that people are reading or going by you, and definitely not assuming that any song or movie is about you, it expects you to register life as someone who did not growing up knowing OJ where you have to pretend that you don’t have the life that you had, and are forced to accept that what you have to say is not rational or true, and is viewed as mental illness. Can we tell what mental illness is by now? It would be physical reactions to things you hear alone, or feelings that are triggered by bullying you cant prove or doesn’t threaten others, it is a nice way of telling you you have big problems, that don’t bother others, to let you know that although you think youre blog is special, that you are not special and don’t deserve the meds that you need. Its to tell you that “you need to calm down” it’s a way of using music to talk to you or treat you as though you are a by-product of music or the identities of others, and to treat you as though you are like everyone else, and sometimes that’s the treatment of people so that they are not important. We also have come to recognize that my trip to DC, although special to me, is now not important, or meaningful and does not matter, your story doesn’t matter when you are telling youre story and not important, then people think you are telling your story to be important, and by the time everyone knows you, people want you to allow and accept that they do and not take yourself seriously, when everyone knows you, it is therefore discomforting if you are upset, or getting in trouble, that makes everyone feel let down in life who did meet you online, and that’s how you become a disappointment, and that is the value or fans, that if one turns on you, it becomes excuse for others, and its until all do, to see how do you feel or fair in the face of everyone turning on you, and what have you got to say to everyone. Usually people are made to be scared, to apologize, so if you are not one to recognize your part in life, then don’t be surprised if someone tries to scold you and tell you what you did wrong, if dating is wrong, then ask Owen, Rob, and Aaron why they texted me to date me, I was not looking, and didn’t try that hard, I was 195lbs at the time, so it wasn’t even about sex, it was about taking nice pictures to see if I get picked, with awareness that those who know me could see me, pick me, or reject me on that basis. The world is a small world, so if you are trending online, we all saw the Facebook movie, it becomes a word of mouth trend, I think I never made myself so PERFECT that I would lead anyone into delusion that I was the creator of any platform for women, I think Instagram was bought to make that happen for women. Therefore being a feminine pen name, made people think I took photo special or with makeup or headband to appear pretty by photo to be accused of a catfish someone ugly in real life, who doesn’t look the same in photos, I don’t think as a JD MSL student 3.2 gpa that I was catfishing anyone, I am not someone different than I am, if you insult me and I give time to talk to you, then telling someone to stop punching my head was my solution then, its now 2023, and after treatment for schizophrenia, what then is my fault, when Im doing well, and he is trying to make that happen again and it doesn’t happen, then what is the dissatisfaction resulting from me not committing suicide, or becoming mentally ill, this goes to show that self harm and suicide can be prevented through writing, so that no ones feelings are hurt, so that who felt better if I suffered feels better, and so that Im not punished, for not changing to something ugly or obese, and lost 60lbs and fix my face, and continue to maintain appearances. Therefore whats not occurring is a result on video to figure out whats too much for me now or then, so the lawsuit, is to make my life scary and incredibly difficult with many things to say, so that I don’t end up in jail, and that’s now worth committing suicide over, because I have not harmed a single person, so I don’t have to apologize to anyone, everyone is well off and doing well, its me that gets harmed on my own, this is why Im being social now, and going to date, its that my life isn’t in danger, and doesn’t need to be in danger, and if Im famous, Im not attacked in public bother no one, and getting a job will be so I get a nicer car, and losing weight is so my face doesn’t look weird, and so Im not attacked as catfish.