What is my reality, and how should my reality affect another’s reality. I think when my reality is being judged as not good, or in poor standing, or defective, then that will cause people to want proof of my wellness, mental health, and good standing, to know whether I am reviewed in high regard or low regard, to know what applies to me, whether the attitudes of low regard have anything to do with me. No they don’t, I was nice enough to talk about a difficulty that I don’t have the privilege of knowing why or for what reasons, or what is the cause for dislike, other than hearing from me, and on that basis I have learned a big lesson, that when people hear from you, they want to hear from you as you are on a professional basis, and that people do not need to hear from you, in a theoretical basis, or historical basis, or based on associations, what issues are your own, or not of issue, to determine what there is to hire you or not hire you on the basis of, I think everything has to do with health and reputation.

Unfortunately on the basis of bad press, that is something you cannot fix about what is heard about you, if not created by a professional with a license to communicate to millions of people on your behalf then it was not a decision that was made with knowledge of the long term consequences, or causes for voices, and mental illness directed toward a person who is in public notified with directions to hold me in low regard on a specific basis by words, that not being my problem, my sexuality, or my tone.

If you are not in politics and not a public figure if people hear about you studying politics they think you are mentally ill and think you are mentally ill applying politics to your life or suggesting that you hold a political position within a story with authorization to speak from a condition that has not been caused to anyone else from your story. So that’s why Leslie Fischman in relation to politics is a joke, on the basis that The Simpson story is an easy comprehension to others, that people have processed and experienced in life, to have come to appreciate The Kardashian family on the basis of their success a story has later been held in positive light, that although there was hardship due to a loss by homicide, people have recovered and come to terms with life, in a way that does not have to remind them of what that period was life to them, all losses hurt, and especially losses by crime, can be devastatingly painful to those who are processing their reality, and making sense of their life later in adulthood upon processing trauma.

What has later become a unstated humor, are things that enrich the comprehension of a person’s story that should be intended to not traumatize a person who has experienced trauma related to an issue of “revenge porn” therefore what happened to me was traumatizing to Kim Kardashian in the sense that it made me look insensitive to be asked to take nude photos and share them with men, without realizing the potential for those photos to be made public.

As someone who attended law school and is a writer, you work hard to have a good head on your shoulders, when everyone sees you naked, they either diss you, don’t like you, think you’re grose, or become unethused by your story, or come to dislike you on the basis of meeting you in a state of sexuality as expressed to a person who wants sex from you, people in general in the millions, do not need to see me or meet me on a sexual basis, is uncomfortable for me, women who are shown in a sexual way are photos created by professionals in photography and require a lot of preparation and training, and mental comprehension of being looked at, prepared for that shock in life.

Not everyone has the right background or personality to be viewed by photo in that way, it takes a certain kind of woman who is strong in a way, that they are not offended by their own appearance, as well as their family should not be offended by their appearance online or by photo, when you expose family to a nude photo of a person, who was skinny for a short period, that causes a disrespect to a family, and to all associations, which is not deserved.

Nudity is a celebrated state of mind that occurs when a woman is ready and proud of herself to present herself to others, like bathing suits, that doesn’t mean that a woman who is overweight and taken off adderrall should be punished on the basis of the quality of her life, her family, any connection to OJ, be selectively punished on the basis of a mental health issue occurring upon bullying and death threats that causes one to hit their head, therefore no argument should be made in favor of anyone who bullies a person who is taken off medication and sedentary in bed all day, be forced to be subjected by a force or a power to keep them in bed, a shock or embarrassment that cannot be controlled, like a heart attack, something you cant fix that’s painful.

So what to do about “schizophrenia” would be to not allow myself to be subjected to hacking or being watched on the basis for proving or disproving anything about my life, personality, history or who I am now, or what has done to me. I think going to MIT is a great opportunity to learn tech, I don’t think that learning tech will subject me to being shocked by anything I have not already determined to be wrong or unsafe about who I am and what anyone has access to, having a website shows that I am not shocked or alarmed by who is reading even if its family.

I have a big enough head on my shoulders and speak properly that anyone can read, and no one is made to feel close or brought into a trusted space, from which they have to accept or hear of any secrets that not everyone knows and have access to. That’s the beauty of writing in public, you don’t have to get close to people and be hurt by people, you can be alone and talk to people, have control over what is said, and don’t have to speak to things in life off hand.

What you need to talk about is rarely what others need to hear, what people want to hear is that you are okay and they want to hear what you sound like well and with a life, which cannot occur if your life is ruined or being threatened by anyone or anything, a down will result in a 10 year delay in functioning and ability to get a job, being punished is not what is going to happen to me in life, I don’t deserve it, my emails were not inappropriate, I have the right concerns in life. I speak properly on subjects at the time that it is required that something be said, and I can only go by my own health in terms of what will keep the peace will be what peace I have to share, and only recently have any delays been questioned as a consequence or factor contributing to anything else occurring.

I don’t think that it’s the hacking that causes me to slow down, that doesn’t cause others to slow down. If I’m a victim of molestation and humiliation, then in what way is not everyone happy for me for dating again. I think as a result of being single and modeling, the worst happened to me in life, and for that I was punished and for three years was suffering from mental illness and doing my best to work again, while my Father was dying of Cancer. The only way to help a patient who is dying in hospice, is to be well, be present, take meds as directed, hold conversations, be fit, recognize the timing of life and importance of this period in life and saying goodbye to your Father, and to do as suggested, when someone loves you and believes in you. They (who knows you) have known you not in the way that others have come to know you, and an unfortunate part about life, is that if people come to know you on different terms, they can think less of you and that can ruin your life. So when someone is dying that’s when you become alive, that’s when you wake up, that’s when you work and push yourself, and upon doing well, should anything else go wrong, that’s when you make a choice, work, focus on my mental health (go to the hospital), or write and stop working and not go to the hospital, the hospital is for if you are sick cannot function, its not if you are scared of shootings, that’s not how to prevent shootings, by putting a person down in life making them look sick or at fault.