Depending on where you are coming from in life, depending on what stage of life you are in, in difficulty, or doing well, opening up is something that you are taught or told to do, you never come to understand that talking is about making yourself vulnerable to the opinions and judgments of others. I think therapy is a good place to figure out what going wrong for you in life and to talk about it, I don’t think that blogging is necessarily the best place to talk about what is “wrong with you” i.e. getting voices. If there is no medical solution for it, then I also don’t have a solution for how it occurs and by what means, so it would be safe to say that there is no cure for a condition however caused, and to also not make me the teacher of a symptom, that should otherwise not make anyone fearful of acquiring who is not a blogger, or who has experienced difficulty finding medical care. Getting medical care is a big step in the right direction, looking for care on your insurance plan covered, scheduling the appointments, filling out the form, and making it to your appointments, all takes time, and then you get the hang of it hopefully, and get used to the experience of talking for an hour about “what is wrong with you.” You never expected to be insulted by the experience of opening up. Should you be a person who is known, or a public figure online blogging, or a character from a famous case, expect that people will hold opinions of their own hearing your story, and although you may have struggled, that doesn’t mean that they have too, so just ignore the positive attention, people wont know that they’ve hurt you until its too late. When I hear the statement “its too late” Im assuming that’s to reference a harm that’s been caused to me, or to get me to recognize a feeling associated to the words “too late” to see what comes up for me, Im assuming that it has to do with something about something that has already occurred, and seeing whether that has an effect on how I feel something that has already occurred that cannot be changed. So if its people living absent me, that’s life moving on, if its people thinking poorly of me, then that’s something I cant change, if its people making fun of me, then who cares why should that affect me now, and if its people who hurt me thinking something of me, well then now is the time when its not too late, now is the time when people are automatically forgiven, now is the time when how I feel isn’t important, now is the time when people can work towards making things better, now is the time when an expectation or an assumption of what an issue is should not matter by my sexuality or gender or matches, is no ones business, my status of my health, self-love, or ideals and goals in life, is no one’s business, Im a writer, I do not have to talk about what schizophrenia is and I do not deserve to be used as an example or a test subject for any condition that I don’t have which is disorganization or not thinking right about oneself or others. I have never thought wrong about a single person in my life, it is now to my knowledge that based on this diagnosis, people will think wrong of me, and it may become a situation of occurring towards me or if happening to me, say that I bear a condition of what is done to me and do that back to others, and that’s using me to change me to make someone else feel better, who was attacking me and wouldn’t stop. Its me that was the victim. Im fit for procreation and dating and can date, maybe it was my mistake to talk to people on messenger with enthusiasm and share pictures, that’s not harassment, sharing your life with others, is what everyone does on Instagram, everyone on Instagram shares pictures form their life and people from their life on Instagram, and people who are professionals advertise their services on Instagram and that’s how they get clients and work one on one with people, that’s what people do with their lives when it becomes about representing themselves. Representing yourself is so that you look good and so that everyone in your life looks good too. I think its unfortunate to be treated as someone to isolate or doesn’t belong, means not to talk to anyone who is successful or high income earner or political, that means they cannot help me, and that also not to use my identity to help them in life.

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