The most hurtful things about life is to do the right thing and not bother anyone, and report, and for it to be mistaken as reporting “the people” I don’t think anyone has time to keep track or be threatened by people in nice cars, or women, and get beat up over breakups, these are normal pains in life, whats not normal is for your story to be read without any details given, and for anyone to make you appear like you snitch, blame, or prosecute anyone from your life as having hurt you, there is “harm,” and there is “consensual” and there is lying and there is cheating, and what is defended is when you get misinterpreted as not being cool or labeled “schizophrenic” and for to appear as permission to degrade you, your story, or cause your family suicide, is not the solution, its not me carrying on in life, reckless, when I message that’s with confidence to help solve and figure out its not a game that you study and keep track of and watch and its not for others people to be viewed as faster or smarter than me or for any way to be about punishing anyone, not especially names from my story, and no core needs to be known, in order to understand how the world works, that’s not how all is lost, all is lost as we figured out today when you combine all the elements, whats too late is when you were viewed as though you have autism and say things or signal or are places to communicate, and that’s what makes you look stupid, therefore speaking to losses, and their effect is a good way to show that you care, not something anyone should feel forced to address, but if you are someone who if you don’t speak directly to a subject get viewed as well in spite of losses or unaffected, is how you get hit with problems in life to prosecute you as though you rescinded care to a gender, to calculate or fathom a loss in film to the Presley family, and that’s not whay being gay or leaving gay is about, disconnecting or connecting to women, and disconnecting or hurting anyones feelings, or not being the woman who should be admired or alluded to made fun of what hurts is what USC suggests when you combine all the elements in a way that you feel hurt by something heavy, is the “guilty” position is the way to interpret code “when you are prosecuting people and seeing people as stupid” you will more likely than not interpret what they have to say or upon study as “knowing or having knowledge” of something, this is how solving what is wrong cannot be solved on messenger, that is how you look slow in thinking, if you are trying to think with another, that’s not how to show that you are thinking and that you care, you care by writing, and illustrating what you are thinking so you are not mistaken as carrying the wrong ideas or images in life, or have a personality that gets attacked or not in tune with recommendations by psychiatrists and doctors, no one can protect you from life, you may remember things that they have said and those could have been problems then, but the goal of all recovery from mental heath issues or writing online, would be to not undergo conditions in life requiring psychiatry or advice, that’s what “psychotherapy” is for, its when you talk for 30 mins and then prescribed meds, if you cant do that I guess then people think you belong in a hospital, I never knew the importance of being that way, until you get hurt and are not the same person you were, and although you cant read into why people had anger toward you, ultimately its about age, enlightenment, things working out, things improving, what you see or don’t see, so that was the recent insult “rude” which is a reference to Full House and the death of Health Ledger, Im assuming that’s to scare me on the basis of writing a research paper, and that’s not the hex or the cause for what is going wrong for me, its that I was already punished as though it was my representation of reality or completed works that signaled anyone that anything was wrong, so that’s “Allison-ing my Honors Thesis” to say a body of work was not professional for honors designation, to say that a body or work created by me, even if it was changed or stolen, is not the cause for anyone to react or respond in that way in Colorado in a movie theater, there was no code made at the time, there were no photos, or visuals of me or my likelness that would suggest that any delusion of reality was real, and there is nothing fake about trauma and crisis, that’s nothing that around you tells you to do something, it will always be the case that in times of trauma or losses, that there is a “loss of clarity” around you, its up to those who are able and brave enough to help to figure out what needs work and how to help, and maybe that took me too long, to get back to smart or to be comfortable talking to others, but it was worth the journey, and things will get better, so long as you don’t allow whats “not clear” or what you are studying, seek to make true as a guilt or a blame or justification for “bringing people together” is not how Barack and I met or Todd, and who I meet is not recipe or on the basis of something bad happening, I think we are all the same that when things are good we can reach out and when things are bad we need to be alone, no one is powerful enough to make people find eachother in life, no one is that special, that everything should be okay when two people meet, and the fact that that was able to happen meant that that love was real, and like all love can be broken, or confused, or others seek to support, usually when things are good, the reason for the past wanting to feel good, is the basis for which you are moving forward, to see whether you are ever capable of moving forward when others don’t feel good, and Im not someone who is able when people are not feeling good, and you may sit with things and no one can help you, and if you want to help others, you yourself need to be strong, and that’s how the spirits of others are lifted, when there is no guilt, or any story or outing that is being used to make fun of anyone as “outing” or not reporting actually identity theft, so no one is too late and losses are not about anything being wrong as to the health and sides that are unaffected, we are all human, whats to appreciate is the work that has been done, application for award, is a standard, and if it’s the standard that I did not match on the basis of requirements or lawsuits ongoing, then that’s my fault for not maintaining impressive presentation, and that is why I didn’t become a finalist, sometimes if you get viewed as joke, a more powerful organization will seek to take the award, and its not relapse that is common to a taking, it will be how you talk about life, whether you are short about things or explain things well with appreciation for what is here and who is here, and I don’t think anyone in Brentwood wasn’t scared I think we all were, so no one gave us directions for motivating eachother of what to do, we just made some suggestions on FEMA Idea Scale, and that’s how people get motivated, its if you do something well, then others are motivated to do well too and that’s not competition, that’s no one wanting to accept an reality that any communications were made to anyone to justify any disempowerment or fire circumstance or school shooting, so this is how you learn to know of people’s stories, and allow people to be strong, and it will matter later, when you recognize who is strong it will be because those people were strong, and the fact that you are strong now means that no one was hurting you that alluded to you or made fun of you, not a diagnosis, not a breakup, not a lost love, not a lawsuit, not a President, not a devastation, there is no excuse for devastation, and no Country is too late to solve losses, and there is not justified pattern or order in which any losses should occur in life, based on any teams in life, and that’s not how to view or make executive decisions on who is of value and a positive influence, what is stupid, is when you get treated as guilty by someone who is picking and choosing what is in error and hurting people as they go, is not what the Justice System is for, allowing people to continue and hurt others, that’s not how you continue by checking in, checking in is a pause, an actual recognition of reality, your presence and ability to continue on in your reality, will be based on your life, functioning, words, and how you treat others and respond to life and reality, and the solution will appear more and more, the less people feel like they look bad.

05-09-23