Being online or out in the world, should match, meaning if you are accepted online, you should also be accepted in reality. So that much is going well for me. Recently with voices, I lost my battle, the arguments are usually about “harassment” “making fun of me or my sexuality” “making fun of my law degree” “thinking lawsuits are a joke and hurting me” or “making fun of me for not having a social life” or making fun of my work history “and calling me schizophrenic,” in the end there is nothing you can do, to prove yourself to anyone in life, that’s not what being strong in life is about, its about being successful so that that improves the success rate of others, who should not fall sick to illness, and being positive is about not making life difficult for others. Voices is a battle that you can lose in life, and can be caused for any number of reasons, none of which in reality are accepted consequences of anything in life, there is no one to explain voices to you, tell you what its about, or explain to you how its caused. All I know is that through reading and writing it can be prevented. And through blogging, that can help you to improve your image, so that people know what you are about and what is going on inside youre head, that’s so you are not questioned in life, as being about or for the wrong things in life. That’s so people can determine how you are staying well, and that’s in the interests of those who plan to continue to stay well, and unsure of whether you have a condition that counters anything else in life that they are well by, so you are not accused of reversing changing or influencing any other known systems to which people are well by. There is not such thing as competition between systems, everyone has a right to choose their own system of improvement, and determine what is causing them sickness, and by what causes and means are affecting their health, that’s to each one’s responsibility to keep themselves well and keep track of how they are feeling, or what is affecting or influencing their thinking. Voices is a test of your ability to handle negativity, its to determine your resiliency, its to determine whether you self-harm or get suicideal and why, and unfortunately its not a system of treatment by others that I can prevent voices, voices is some kind entitled position that someone thinks they are in to prove that you are sick, or of threat to anyone elses health, that’s how a diagnosis of schizophrenia ruins your life.

The problem with voices, is that all it means is that people have turned on you, or thought that embarrassment or humiliation was a deserved punishment to cause you suffering, and that’s how people make you nobody so no one respects you and thinks that you are a joke, that’s is how you get treated when you try hard and mean well, and open yourself up to talking to a stranger, they don’t know you, they think everything is about them, and they insult you, and that’s how people treat you if you ever become somebody, its to make people question you and not think that youre smart, that’s to hurt you so that no one is intimiated by you, so not one feels sorry for you, so that you suffer a loss in life that cannot be repaired, which would be people not being nice to you, this is a test to see whether you are nice. Being a nice person means that as a blogger, I cannot turn on people, I cannot complain, I cannot write about others, I cannot write as influenced by anyone, I have to support others, I cannot talk about anything in life, as though its not a moment to respect more about people, and its so that Im not misunderstood as something less, is so other people are not misunderstood as being less than, and also the fact that I get attacked, means that in order to prevent anyone from being attacked, would be to straighten out the reality, and be truthful, and to my diminished respect and against my best interests in health, allow for others to bully me as though they are on a team opposite to me, and that’s how I get made to look mentally ill, when I can write, and then get sick, when people don’t need me and don’t acknowledge that I come from a sensitive story, and those become lost opportunities to get along.

Why am I smart?

• I overcame weed.
• I overcame alcohol.
• I overcame cocaine.
• I have been to rehab 2x.
• I have overcome schizophrenia and suicide. (Suicidal 2009, 2023; Self-Harm 2015, 2020, 2022).
• I have overcome voices.
• I overcame obesity twice, losing 50 lbs (2015) and 60lbs (2023).
• I have overcome bullying and death threats.
• I have overcome public humiliation 3x (2017, 2021, and 2023).
• I have overcome friend loss, and started being social again beginning with dating.
• I went to law school twice and graduated with a Masters in Law in Risk Management.
• I went to Paralegal School and I am a certified paralegal.
• I have been hospitalized 9x, and know when Im not feeling well.
• I have overcome hacking and data loss, still built a successful website.
• I was able to write books, motions, & research papers when I have the opportunity to write.