In the end mental health is not easy, its not something you can learn unlearn learn the wrong things or get confused or mess up and ruin your life or anyones life, its about who you are. Anytime things are hard on you, it simply means that you are made to think about life seriously, sometimes that’s a good sign, and sometimes that’s a bad sign, its not a mathematical equation for anyone to think of life seriously, and what there is to take seriously, whether its your own life or losses, or you yourself questioned as affected or what you are doing to help make things better. This is something no one is immune from, in what way can a loss be prevented, how is that care shown, what is the type of life that doesn’t create for losses, and what is the type of life, that is not well adjusted or anything public intended that would make life be difficult to know me in common to anything ongoing or what anything is about, so that maybe is not the issue, if a hate website is not to be addressed as having impacted my family, and the way they were hurt by how I was treated, in the end it was me hurt, that hurt my family, and that hurt can only be undone, by not reinforcing that I am someone capable of being hurt and that hurting others upset with me. So there is no story, blog, or code about what needs to be made of issue, I think its safe to say that anyone who wants to help, has seen my blogs, and is doing their best likewise to be respectful of me and my family, the only issue is whether people don’t care about me, or in caring less for me, is my family cared for any less, and whos fault would that be, so this is when being in public is questioned as helping or hurting me in life, I think without a job, it was tolerable, I think after you get hurt it becomes whats punishable, viewed as the reason for you being hurt, and in the end, the goal is to not get hurt, and for any understanding or study of my life, to not bother me, or worry about, focus on in what ways can I be hurt and how that can cause harm to others. Being something you are not is relevant to being proud of myself around my family, and making the effort to talk again, after being demoralized for 7 years and put on meds stuck with voices, Ive not brought that up, based on my ability to write books and help, so instead of being remembered as someone who helped, even in distress, made the effort to get well and write well, so that no one else would be scared or not function too, shows that I did not allow myself to be scared dysfunctional, so I also now am aware that in crisis that’s a concern, your ability to help, competence. When you’re told not to talk to people and something stupid happens to you, that’s my fault, you will never wonder whos who and whats what about shouldn’t matter, until its ever made of concern, what any decision making body is based off of, or what communications are ceased, in the end you are on your own in life, so whoevers fault is anyones suffering the goal would be to not allow that suffering to occur again, meaning I should not be hurt, and no one should suffer or get hurt, including Aaron Brown, so that’s with newfound awareness for how known I am, and what is influencing on the basis of who is respected, again if Im not respected then I am not the one influencing, and what is influencing is not intended to harm me or anyone, including Aaron Brown, and if whats upsetting is the length of time it takes for me to recover and be helped, then that’s whats questioned, in what way have there been any losses, and in what way is my mental health, or story being used to blame me for being a life or anything in existence, that is difficult for anyone else, intelligent or not intelligent, my life should not be a life, in combination with any facts, or story made unimportant, or respect be not supported, that I should be treated like Im not aware of dangers in life, or be accused of bringing danger toward my family … so this is how Twitter gets blamed, in the end its what you are doing well at speaking well at, and what your comfortable with, that you are told to stop, and it doesn’t matter who is talking to you, if you are harmed, then what is the basis of being harmed by someone who is pretending to treat me as a stupid, as though Im not a good decision maker, or so stupid, that Im stopped or broadcasted on the internet as stupid, respect is earned, trust is overtime, so although everyones reactions were justified and they don’t look bad no matter what they say or do, means that others don’t look bad by me or guilty, and that the good is seen in them, and by how they react or respond to me or whats done to me, so this is how complaining doesn’t help, so if right now is struggle of why I don’t feel good, that’s no ones fault, if the issue are losses, what is it about my story that Im ever subjected to harm or subject others to harm, and whats hurtful about my story or who I am, so this is when the value is not when you are accepted, it will be by what about your story, explains for anything else happening in the world and at what point should that become a truth youre responsible for, and in what way is your story untruthful or why should you be viewed as mentally ill or sick on purpose, and what is the point of improvement if people just want to know whats causes a head injury of bad hand writing, or difficulty mentally, so that’s whats focused on and not clear, not necessarily whats misunderstood or tampered, there will always be something that is done to make you look like you don’t care and if that’s the constant test, then it will be on my own, that whether I care is proven, and what the issue is.

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08/07/23