Love is one of the ultimate motivating and maybe one of the most powerful influences you’ll meet in life if you’re up for the challenge. When you take good care of yourself and able to be there for others and help take care of them, it’s like old wounds healing faster than they would just on your own. That’s love it’s like the bandaid to all previous woos in life, just enough to make you feel whole like things are gonna be okay and you’re on your way to happy destiny.

I’ve been in love a few times in life but at 35 I was in a much different place, not having dated since 2014 and 2017, it’s hard to love again after a long break you’re just not the same it’s like winding up some place in life you end up talking to someone you meet by chance and hit it off with … you never know who your matches are in life if you don’t take the time to get to know and meet others. Stepping outside of yourself for a change is a good thing you know you’re not the only one hurt or the only one scared of trying again or the only one insecure we all need time to heal and move forward. This was the first time I’ve ever loved anyone and told everyone and was completely proud of my choice and never paranoid or worried it’s rare to be comfortable in a public way about who you love and for everyone to know that.

Sometimes people don’t get your choices in life don’t know what you see in others, but you can’t always predict who is going to match, it’s rare for people to actually be interested in getting to know you, most people don’t have the time or patience to care many non believers like what do you want from me are you real (it’s like they chase you and get it then not sure afterwards that’s a hard commitment to give yourself to another and then have to prove yourself after submitting). I guess that’s the price you pay for being nice and loving, they may think you’re like this with just anyone.

People want to be loved in a special way, and you won’t learn all the phases of love constantly insecure or not sure if it’s going to work out. This was the first time I ever fell in love and changed and blossomed into a completely different person a more mature version of myself it’s like you never think to embrace your feminine side until you find someone you feel motivated to be feminine with it’s like everything cute about you happens when you find someone to love.

Background Info: When I tried dating (no dates just talking) I was obese 195lbs so maybe that was what wasn’t convincing about me didn’t believe photos I’m plus size can’t tell size in photos I guess and sometimes when you’re not ready to date you’re going to have trouble matching. Timing matters.