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As one grows and matures and enters adulthood, with more responsibility, requires for more acceptances of others. Ultimately “bullying” despite discussion of voices, for me personally is a forced acceptance, of not being empathized with, not inspiring, not viewed as easy to comprehend or understand, and a forced change and experiment on my audience demographics and who can relate and why. If race is the issue, the whats not been discussed is in what way should I feel harmed, or speak to a “White Lives Matter” joke, I don’t think that he should have been fired, since in the immediate I was not hurt, but since he was fired and a Billionaire and was married to Kim Kardashian the most prominent and successful member to a story concerning OJ and his family, it’s wondered whether my suffering has anything to do with anti-semitism. If that’s what is needed to be known, whether I am hurt by anti-semitism and where I stand in terms of how I look or am viewed, its much too late to read into, correct, or accuse anyone of harming me due to whether I found humor or support to the statement “White Lives Matters” or recognized I am not a representative to that term, not white, I guess hearing that I do not view myself as white, and I think to not speak and support White People or take offense to Kanye West, doesn’t make sense as having bipolar too, therefore as a more experienced member to a diagnosis, it would not be me condemning him or correcting him, that’s the miscomprehended upset over what happened to Pelosi family, not far from my tech support issues, so Im sure that at any point in time I could be invaded or attacked, so its in protecting people, that you don’t allow them to be punished for anything occurring outside of their circumstance or broadcast through news, illustrate a ongoing trend or trend that starts and cant be stopped by him, is the wrong way to view myself as teamed up on by words, so bullying at 38 with a blog, simply means that Im not pretty, Im not smart, women will not find things in common, my writing and subject matter is not feminine or easy enough to comprehend to lighten the thoughts of those with a preference for bullying, means that they will feel empowered by people who are successful wealthy with nice cars educated have nice friends a nice lifestyle, and a career and money of their own, and that’s normal because people want to be able to make money. So in what way does my blog, not now provide opportunity and startup funding to pay people for writing, that was never not an idea to create jobs, I was always pro job creation because I had difficulty finding a job, so no other social media development has ever stopped me from having the opportunity to create it would be a matter of respect whether that’s standing in the way of me feeling good, wearing heels, dating Rob or Aaron, or loving Todd, is not what I would amount my success to to date Todd, its my success will amount to what work and time Ive invested over the 10 years toward a writing career, that will either make happen for me jobs like paralegal job, or dating opportunities, and its when you are in a place that you can help others, is when people are drawn to you, when you are in a place that “reminds another of what it felt like to be strong” a simple reminder is all a usual person needs to get back to feeling good, and sometimes all the things wrong, or what holds people back, so bullying is simply a test of what I think what I say what others think, and of course if people dislike me I will feel physically ill, of course if Kanye intended to hurt me I would not be recovered now from any other abnormality thought in existence to being famous or being known and for that to scare me in life, its not reality that I fear or respect that I can tell is given or not, and respect doesn’t mean people need to be quiet, and strength is when people are bold around you, even if you are not, so that’s not the social anxiety causing issue, it would be what causes me to feel offended or made upset, and what do I sound when I am hurt on the inside, probably nothing in a mental state of clarity in which another can read and comprehend what Im going through, probably an aggravated state you think is black or masculine, and probably an inner turmoil, that is considered created by me, or a difficulty around men or women, I don’t think Ive ever had difficulty I think I have physical illness why Im alone a lot. Anti-Semitism means to me not liking people because of what you think they are or by face or features think is a stereotype of prayer or what religion means, a devotion to running everyday and writing quotes, or attending temple with my Father every year, shows Im a good daughter and not ignorant to established religions, and Im sure the insult or questioning is what is military code, what is history, what is relevant to politics, and news, and in what way should my career take a turn for a more prominent position one day that may never happen given disability, so if someone does like you because of how you sound, Im now starting to change, to discuss specifics and names to clearly establish which if any celebrity feuds or concerns have also been my concern, and maybe a writing needs to be created, to differentiate between my own wellness and motivations, and clearly identify myself as apart from others, its who you are established as provide for, is who works or codes with you, when you are sick or if ever shocking, that discomfort can turn to cause making fun of you, and that’s when you start hearing things different in the news, louder statement sound hurtful and the assumption of a hurtful statement is referencing a person current known who is losing respect or has lost respect, and that’s how you can tell when arguments are made, not to shelter me, but to heighten sensitivity, so that’s how you are told if you are less than, and that could mean the difference between inspired or not, there is also the issue of Social Media and hiring reading your blogs, so up until 2023 I had not history of saying anything blasphemous or unforgiveable or combative, so whatever were the reasons Im glad that I am doing better now. And continue to hold difficult discussions, I don’t think I ever was a person made fun of who thought she was hot, I think I was never hot and lost weight and was proud, so that’s not my issue, and most women feel pretty and hot compared to me, so that’s my face and beauty level it doesn’t intimidate others, or cause anyone to be insecure and my face features and presence isn’t so strong that anyone is scared, and my body or face is never dark or my eyes, to show whether I have secrets or guilt, and I don’t have any privacy which means that what you see online is who I am in real life, and the same person you meet in real life, a good feeling to the eye, is a good feeling to presence in person.