Mental health issues are one thing, fighting is another thing, and sexuality is another thing, I don’t think that you have to be suffering from anything without these things in your life including love, love is usually a feeling that you get to, after knowing yourself another coming to know and understand you and appreciate, but nothing is instant including feeling well and feeling good.

Maybe its those who feel well and who feel good, get designated with the most privileges in life, to be among eachother, like eachother, and flirt with one another, and maybe Im just not one of those people, who’s value is yet recognized standing among others, out here on my own. But I can tell you one thing, to be anywhere in life you need to be strong, get along well with others, and be positive, those are the general requirements to be around people in life, to just be a nice person and not bothered by most, or ignore.

Recently, Ive come to terms with a hurtful diagnosis, a disease Im told is permanent “voices” with no cure, and no improvement recognized as not a signal to punish me and knock the wind out of me, but for some reason this is happening to me on more than one occasion in life, getting As and a Witken Award (2011) (sent to rehab sober with a boyfriend), getting As at Thomas Jefferson School of Law (sued, voices, self-harm), and while recovering on and off Invega talking to Todd Spitzer (2022) (sued), for trying to reach out to him following treatment.

I can tell you one thing, they may not know you, and may not comprehend how anything is connected to you, but people unfortunately wont see all the good things that are possible to occur, so long as the negative is occurring, so in what way, is anything going on now, have anything to do with anyone else health, or reasons for relapse and giving up. Im sure we all have our reasons, but I don’t think that anything is that clear, of non-acceptance, that who I am or how I am should not affect how anyone else feels about life or what they see.

I don’t think I have ever lived life not able to be in a room full of people, or self-conscious, or stand out in any way, that would mean I don’t belong, and Im assuming this is what mental illness does to you physically as a person, combined with hearing “voices” its to make you not be out in public, to not be able to get jobs, to not be able to date, why because you don’t feel good around other people, and when you don’t feel good around other people, then they take that personally.

So this is why its important to be versatile and to not be easily affected by others, and when considering your own mental health, never for two seconds think that its something contagious its not, Ive been told bipolar is not contagious, and Im sure the same is for schizophrenia.

All that I know as someone who cares what others think and as a dedicated writer, and now especially in response to ongoing current events responding, of course there are moments when I don’t feel well, please respect an on and off condition of “voices” which over a 7 year period, is causing me mental illness, and Im sorry if that affecting my writing, or ability to adapt to the issues that Im exposed to.

Its very hard for me to live life, away from everyone, or not good enough to meet anyone, and also not respected as well enough or successful enough of an example or assembled campaign that would be recognized by any ceremony, so Im sure the battle Im losing with, is in regards to how other women feel about me, and for that to not be my issue, and that that issue is inconsolable, the amount of discomfort that is caused by gay and distrust and turn off and lack of respect, its like all the feminine hierarchies collapse in life, where it becomes less about women being proud of one another, and entitles people to treat women as men, as a benefactor of the wellness of a woman, so that’s how easily misguided voices become about a womans health, when they fail to recognize my beauty and intelligence, or accuse me of affecting anyone else beauty or intelligence, as far as Im concerned you are a reflection of what you believe in and who youre exposed to, so look up to women who are strong, and even though mistreated, as respected, respect women who even though they get mental illness, still do their best to work everyday (blog) apply for jobs, and be a loving support system to Todd Spitzer, so whats confusing and with recent news, is the standards for respect when it comes to women, based on monetary wealth success, or demeanor, what is annoying or what is the basis for attacking women as not being good enough, I think whats failing is the respect component and how people feel, and I can comprehend people not feeling well, that doesn’t also mean that the women you expect to feel well by should be blamed for you not feeling well, whether by concert, or any conversation private or public.

I go through this myself constantly having to review and edit, whats taken the wrong way, and so far its about intelligence proven, class, etiquette, look, photo, weight, and success, and you know what if no one wants you to have any of those things in life, then Im an example of someone who when there is a side against me collapses and gets mental illness suicide, and cant speak or cant type and cant be helped, so that’s how inconsolable I get and hurt in life, so understand that Ive been open about my struggles, I would never expect to struggle again or be hospitalized and don’t think I should be made to give up now in life, based on who is or is not dating me, or what my face or body looks like, is no ones business, wait until a woman feels good to make you feel good. Wait until a woman is strong to help you and help make you strong. And wait until a woman is well and able to work or date, to determine whether they are sick or not deserving of wellness in life.

Everyone deserves to be well, no matter what your race is, but when there is hate, there are only a few things to hate people for: what they look like, nationality, race, religion, opinion, sexuality, so I think the fact that my website is doing well worldwide, shows that I have defied those ordinary standards for just automatically hating people, and should not be on that list of people you automatically hate for those reasons.