Sometimes losing battles in life, is not about defending yourself or reflecting on all the times you were careful, its not to be inhibited by everyone elses comments remembered, and to accept my losses, however dramatic or unreal it seems. When a system that works for me is offended its not that Ive changed or concealing a condition, inappropriate, I can accept that each person requires a proving to, so at any point when I was figuring out how to do well, none of that matters, however true, and experimented on me. Everyone right and youre wrong, is about everyone supported without confirmation of what information is known, to treat you as though you display information known in common to untrusted sources public, so when there have not been any rules broken, the basis for a change is a punishment of me not meeting a standard, so I can accept everyone defended accept me, and I can accept frozen for 3 years, scared, blacking out running, doesn’t matter to anyone, or sobriety, its not a accepted loss or let down, to not be places and not put people who are focused specifically on issues, when Im being treated as someone who observes life, avoidant, so please understand that I don’t go about going by others guilty looking and maybe that’s the incomprehensible demoralization that if I change or harmed that’s considered my fault, and if improvement was not backward blaming, then experiment on what backward blaming does, is it cause me to look bad and be viewed as inappropriate or hurtful. If there was ever a time of unsurmounting loss, and hope made difficult by something “wrong” and using me to be considered the sick or the “wrong” hard to accept, its what have I done that incomprehensible that is changing the value of anyones peace, or about disturbance or race. Know that at any point Ive been upset I get made to look bad and punch my head, so its not about boundaries, when you think Im wrong and anyone is suffering that’s my fault, don’t accuse me of scolding someone and the issue being whether Im gay or not if read as do not message them, therefore a haircut is equally as offensive to a man, who loves a woman, so changing me is to watch me, get things wrong, and that’s when it’s a joke about being wrong, there is not game to being wrong or looking wrong, just to question whether to blog and what to do with my life, someone who had everything got prosecuted for everything, endured difficulty without disturbing anyone, and then accused of not being respectful or creating things well or not well a bad judge of timing and risk, I would never respect someone and subject them to sex with someone and not be cool with someone youre accusing me of making cool and not being cool or accuse me of jealousy or not inspired, if the issue is “non acceptance of me feminine” its every effort was made to explain why hurtful and they cant get over why that word hurts, so what issue Ive lost to, is a word, accusing my upsets or accuse me as being a mentally ill match, I cant control things done unknown to me, or any illustration confirming something wrong with me, and I did my best to not self harm, to be honest, if I have lost love, to accept that and now know that my truth is system of treating me as preventable and no one is explaining losses January 2023 to now, its all about scolding me as accusing “calling someone a slut ie meaning Prizzia” is they didn’t accept improvement Im not competing with someone when Im fat and ugly and deformed and you didn’t respect my professionalism intelligence, and everything a dirty street low life joke, so John Cockrell telling me “Im gonna regret that” is what consequence when a man hurts me and his pride is used by other women to hurt me without recognizing gay being the issue, so although I brought up, why was scaring me some joke about whats true or too much, when you are using everyone elses feelings, and situate me at odds I can accept whatever is true or going on in court is none of my business so maybe I lost in terms of the car wash, shouted at car accident, shouted at tried flush meds, shouted at fractured hand, going to the ER and not knowing whether sick or not, I don’t make anyones life difficult, its asking for help past punching my head and accusing me of being hurtful makes inapprorpriate to be hospitalized, so the lesson is although my life can be stopped prevented and if I could be wrong on every issue, what fails to be resolved as dismissed a remaining harm to me, is all the losses and fires, was never a broken case submitted a cant represent joke.

Accept “pervert” means do not support women.

Accept “voices” means theres something stupid in me.

Accept being treated as a man, is hurting me for women.

Accept that staying away from women, is the right choice.

Explain how me too works, and what kicked out dying means.

Explain what court attorney car or love is for, whats funny about my limit.

Maybe its every reactions no one knows whats devastating.

And although I cant explain to you how I feel, I can accept disbelief.

And on my own, without punching my head or blaming anyone.

Stay home for 10 years, I don’t need a conservator, I needed a job.

No one can take care of me it’s a rehab pervert meds lingerie joke.

What don’t you understand about self harm and needing to be boarded alone.

Accept that Im not gay, accept no man was proud loved me good enough.

Accept the reality that everyone wants better and keep hurting me.

If hurt is my fault, then in what way is my condition a joke, or about sex jealously.

Its clear that everyone enjoyed not speaking to me, and with no attorney, present my own case, seems like everyone was helped and all speaks to eachother, whats in common ignored. So accept a new life not talking to anyone, if I cant figure out my health, hospital cant and everyone needs to accept that my effort is not what needs to be stopped.

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