The best way I can describe what mental illness 2024 feels like, is being too late, already harmed and not knowing why, suffering and cannot be helped. Having had positive interactions and after being supported, ending up worse off on your own, and having to start all over in lie.

Please accept what court means, rejection, it means meeting me, learning about me, reading my writing, seeing me, viewing who I am then rejecting me in public “civil harassment.” Which tells me that I have a better chance of making it in life, not stopping to love or admire anyone, and can comprehend punishment to mean disability not allowed to work or write and suffer from mental illness trying to rebuild your life. What’s too late is what everyone has been through and everyone who is doing well, who lives free of what I have had to go through to stay well and be successful. So accept that difference, that I’m on my own, and if I like someone, am rejected and sued, is all that that means in summary. It means I was at peace doing well functioning getting As in law school, running everyday, and had my own home to live in. I think its wrong to mischaracterize me as lost or a reckloose, like Im lost or wandering in life, hurt or hit in the head, by anything too serious for my won comprehension, after what Ive been through its my goal to speak well and function, whether you believe anything Ive done to help, my true gifts in life will be seen by publishing a book.