Re: Being bullied online today 05/18/24 by @gendercity.

I have been struggling, ever since I left my job at Engleman Law, and decided to take a break and focus on my mental health, working with a new treatment team. In spite of everything I have been through, not once did I question help or complain in life, so maybe struggling mental health wise, put on heavy meds, wasn’t discussed, since the goal was to get better no matter what, not normalize terms, at my expense, and subject me to bullying, that I don’t think a negative term is worth putting alongside my academic career and professional career. Right now is about talking in psychotherapy and sharing my story and what I’ve been through and allow a medical professional to make an assessment of me, good and bad, struggle or not, cursing, bullied, writing excellent, or not finding a place to end things on a good note. There are some games you just can’t win at in life, and that results from not doing well in life, or not being somebody that others enjoy hearing from or benefit from, the times are pretty selfish in terms of expectations professionally, and I’m sure that I have suffered sever setbacks in life, being made a poster child of any controversial diagnosis, undeserved, given how hardworking and disciplined I was, finishing law school, seeking help, being helped, and doing my best to move on in life. When I was insulted today after I already decided to take a break from blogging, chose to write today, it’s upsetting to have someone comment and insult me, call me “naïve” or “uneducated” or criticize my line of work “writing,” you may question me and not know me, but I’m (1) educated and have won awards in writing (2) I’ve attended two law schools and received A’s on exams for my writing, (3) I have published two websites, and working on publishing two books sometime in the near future, and (4) I don’t appreciate being criticized for who I am “a writer” or for my writing online and public disclosure of activism is not for anyone to judge, was hoping it would be examples of hard work I have done for others, that people would be grateful for. Instead I got a comment that is trying to tell me that I’m stupid, or lack knowledge, after seeing me build two websites with proof of participation and likes, and confuse me for someone who is outside of issues, “not apart of life,” maybe the jokes are all lined up for you in life, to understand life, and maybe my life does line up with all the reasons you are thankful in life, and as far as I’m concerned I don’t care whether you think I exist, or don’t know why I am alive, or question my purpose in life, I am not alive for you. You may not be thankful for all the work I have done, or see all the political emails I am receiving asking me to represent my District, or see me as someone with a respected reputation for working hard and being there for others online and through jobs. I can assume you don’t know me, since you don’t know what defines educated from uneducated, my acts aren’t an opinion on some devastation in life not affecting everyone, the investigation of P Diddy, is shocking and detrimental to the health and well being of everyone who knew him and was associated to him, so maybe that’s where you were wrong to judge me. I am not judging you for your short blog and trans comment on your headline, or pen name, I am not threatening your opinions or intelligence, therefore don’t claim to represent anyone in insulting me in public, like your banded together with any privilege in life that makes you superior to me. When I hear your comment, I think “White Privilege” I think someone who studies famous people and writes opinions but is not famous themselves online or successful to know what it is like to be at risk of harm, to write online, live in fear of bullying or negative opinions such as the one written about me. Again you don’t know me, all I can do is hope that by your privileges in life you don’t continue to discount the experiences and lives of the people you meet, as having to know the same privilege as you when holding opinions of the educated or compare me to the uneducated. You have not provided anything online to better the community, your religious and political views have not been produced on your blog, your identity is unknown, and as far as I’m concerned you are insulting me thinking you are better than me and more intelligent than me, and life is not meant to be lived, picking and choosing who gets to live life and speak and who doesn’t get to live life and speak, I am far from sheltered, or privileged, or naïve, I have lived enough life to know plenty about helping others and making a positive difference, I have suffered from enough bullying and death threats to know my worth and how to survive in spite of being called names and not knowing where its coming from. Therefore you are the last person worth my time, to lose my cool, or devalue my words and reputation, correcting someone who chooses to insult me, without knowing who I am, and assuming I know less about life, if I knew less I wouldn’t be a writer, online for 10 years, working hard to help everyone, and I’m sorry that you are living life enjoying life, thinking everything is coded to make you smarter than, is naïve to assume that your viewpoint is more intelligent than my own shoes, when living life. It’s because of people like you, I refuse to live life, disabled, I refuse to now talk about mental health seeing the objective is to marginalize people for their experiences including your words to me. @gendercity (Online Bully Incident 05/18/24).