If you haven’t noticed yet, those who stay out of trouble and remain successful is because they are doing everything right, without taking risks to their health or the health of others. So this is highlighting the subject of “everything working out” “everything not working out” since luck and cancer is a big issue right now. I think mental health is somewhat related to how you feel, less talked about are the physical symptoms of mental illness. I think I am someone who worked hard went through a lot, has first hand experience being helped, that I was able to make mental health a less scary subject, not normalize causes and for those parts about me to be questioned. I think I did a good job of staying motivated and being productive and creative. So it’s not that I have changed, if you have reviewed my photos and websites, it simply means that I’ve been hurt, and after enough times of being hurt in life, you stop trying, so that’s what happened to me. Being motivational and positive, is about things working out for you, and having faith and confidence that things will work out for others. I suppose right now is a test of things not working out for me, and to not know when things will be well again, and for things to get worse and worse before court not better, so that’s what’s too late to be helped, the time between treatments, and that’s unfortunate to do well, and then to lose all your progress, simply because of medication or writing on X, that’s totally unnecessary to struggle writing in public, and go through losing followers and gaining followers, I don’t wish to experiment with being changed in life, or given a hard time for stopping a lot of things in life, I think based on being in court that’s a good idea. I think life will work out for me when I get a job as a paralegal which won’t happen for at least 6 months to year, while I recover from all the confusion and concerns, and just focus on me and what is bothering everyone else. I think the more on point I am with identifying issues, the more likely I will be allowed to move forward in life. But getting sick isn’t the solution, or being punished, Im too old to face any more delays in life, Im not strong enough to keep suffering or face disability in life or criticism. As open as I have been and accepting of others, I would hope to be treated in the same way no matter where I go.