Mental health is not a fight, I think I battled symptoms of mental health issues, and went to the hospital on my own, in the event that I ever got sick, I think later in life I have come to understand mental health and mental illness in a way by use of different meds to treat my condition, as a much more challenging struggle with voices, and after sharing online, have your mental health be a debatable issue, is not what I anticipated by sharing online, to get hurt because of any diagnosis. I think a problem gets worse the more its mentioned the more I lose in life to those issues mentally, and that’s not an illness I am able to overcome, I may have struggled but I have no solution to justify any condition is not my fault, not even to criticize me for dating so I don’t match make me sick and cause weight gain, if I am well I don’t need to worry about facing criticism like Im trying to date to get well, and be accused of being sick or mentally ill. What I’ve learned in life based upon my chosen profession and how many times people try to hurt me and ruin my website, doesn’t make me any more responsible for how I’m hurt, I think being successful in spite of being hurt shows that I am a strong person and a hard worker. In life I can assume that everything working out for me and earning a living and being successful presentable is a person who would not offend others, and also be a person who is not deserving of voices, like being in treatment for 7 months got no voices. The same should apply to being home, I still should not get voices. I don’t think my blog ever calls for negative attention or makes anybody else’s life more difficult or worse. I have never lied in my life, don’t accuse me of lying, I have worked hard my resume was real, and my career was ruined as a result of punishment. I think giving me time to think is not a rush to push myself and get sick, or be insulted attacked if I am sick, Im sure that’s broken down to a science by now, since I disclosed and reflected on how I was bullied humiliated and what my condition was like. I am not online to complain, or take away from anyone’s experiences in life, I think the shared excitement of writing produced with a broad audience was a positive, I think I you’re reading it helps to know who else is reading and see likes, my WordPress likes have recently been disabled on my end, my website is not working probably due to some confusion over my level of trust. I think tampering, hacking, and voices is a way to make me look unprofessional cause distrust and accuse me of having bad connections in life. I have faith that I will get well again, and that’s for me to figure out and be given time to meet with a therapist. I think it was hurtful to struggle and not be given any advice or help, I never expected that I would be treated as inappropriate or offensive, being who I am, and that’s not something I am fit to argue or defend myself in public about, I think it makes me look bad. Therefore helping myself is a way to not be judged like Im being helped paying $3,000 a month in rent, at no point in time was I ever enjoying myself social or having fun out of touch with reality or punishment or court, I had to push myself to get a job and be rejected applying, if I wasn’t well I wouldn’t be able to work. Back on meds is no different, everyone will have a different interpretation of how I should be, but I don’t deserve to suffer lose a prescription approved in the psychiatric hospital.