If voices was a struggle I endured which I was open about and recovered from, is being used to accuse me of looking weird or being scary, then that’s a way in which my honesty is not appreciated and used to capitalize on creating for an image of me that is nasty or sick looking. I am the most patient, loving, and hardworking person, creative and unafraid to share and publish my ideas, whether or not my ideas take off or are used to help others. The last thing I need is to get voices again, however created real, or not by using my words to create for hardship moving forward. What there is to accept about people are things that put your mind at ease and help you to stay level headed and feel appreciated and able. Once mental health becomes a contest over who’s truth is real or not, there is really no end to what mental health or illness can be about. I think the solution, for non-acceptance of my career as a blogger, is to become a famous author and be respected for my success and wealth and then have a professional standing that is not questioned as to whether I am beneficial or not. I think so long as I am not paid for my writing, and so long as mental health or voices is used to discredit me, disqualify me, accuse me of being an oxymoron, question my advices, or use my mental health against me, there is no end to what extremes people go through to treat you as stupid considering themselves smart. I have never taken away from others the ability to think, never shocking, or inconsiderate, or worried about others. I have always recognized that I can’t afford to self harm because that injures my ability to think and write, and interferes with my ability to work on a book, and have peace of mind and clarity. If you don’t know what the words FY are for, its about your head being gone, and the person who caused you to be upset feels good and thinks that they have won, that’s what the word “FY” means. Therefore as a writer, and not someone who fights or is combative, don’t misunderstand my boundaries, and defense of myself as fighting or making anyone feel bad, I think if you think hurting me is right thing to do, I have every right to not feed into that response toward me, or use my blog or Instagram, or OJ to declare me as being out of touch or angry. Now is not the time, that taking a break from writing is refusing to help anyone, or providing a voice that makes sense, I think it’s clear if Im not writing the point was to punish me for saying the word “FY” as a result that made me look bad and made whoever win. I also don’t need to give up on 38 years of life, for responding poorly, or suddenly be mischaracterized for fun state all the ways people are trying to make me look ugly, make things about them. I think if you don’t respect my success, writing and running everyday, corresponding in private, then I can’t help you, and TRUST that I am not hurting anyone backing off from all interaction period, have been transparent since 2013 unafraid of being watched, please don’t accuse me of being confusing or angry or grose, or wanting anything from anyone, of course it upsets me when I’m called names whoever calls me words that are hurtful basically isn’t attracted to me, doesn’t feel good by me, is accusing me of being smart in a way I’m condescending or offensive, is accusing me of being criminal connected to voices based on advice I got from the police of which voices to report “command hallucinations” which I’ve not received, and also seeks to categorize me in ways I am rejected or accuse me of changing or being obese using bad photos that are inaccurate of what my face looks like in real life, to build a grotesque viewpoint of me. My pen name was RANDBOCOTIMES I think its clear what I was focused on who I was corresponding with, therefore MYMOLLYDOLL was used instead of that brand name pen name, so please don’t accuse me of trying to be something I am not in real life. It is because I had a great life and learned how to be smart and get a job that I am proud and got to do my idea of volunteer work. Once there is question as to my sexuality means it’s time to quit sex period, if you are not sexual and don’t comprehend what modeling or being loving is about, then you are too judgmental to view my photos, if you seek to accuse me of being hurtful toward women or men, or accuse my content of being to brash for anyone living life, accuse my story which is a true account of my life over the past 10 years, and not made up to pretend I am not more successful today compared to having nothing and punished, suffering mentally ill not allowed to do anything. My thoughts should be directed by what I feel is right based on what I sense to be important or have to say, regardless of my exposures or who is watching, I am always writing with respect or others time and attention that won’t change. Right now my audience majority is men on Instagram. I think once you make things about my face weight and beauty and bullying, I think whatever you are trying to win at, is to change me change my writing, and hurt my head so that I can’t write and be myself. It’s not fair to me to write life advice for years, and to continue to make voices about conversations toward voices who are hurting me and saying out loud what is being done to me, makes me look mentally ill, for me to be mentally disturbed, and then that makes my audience view me mentally disturbed and battling bullying, and again that’s how voices win. Voices don’t want me to write online, write books, model, audition, travel, make friends, date, voices is an abusive way of benefiting from my life and success and good fortune and innocence maintained, and seeks to put me at a disadvantage as though I can’t handle comments which I rarely receive, or accuse me of being capable of receiving bad comments if I publish a book. Being who I am I am more than capable or writing a book that will sell, that Im not afraid of, its how I struggled that’s hard to imagine and used to make fun of me or what I look like mentally disturbed.