When people use people to scare you (ie me) there’s no limit to ridiculous level of racism and intentional harm emotional distress disability fear deadly ending up in the ER suicidal when a person is convinced that there’s something wrong with you and becomes consumed with treating you as stupid and lying to you and using people to hurt you and mischaracterize me as doing anything to them and wrongfully be mistreated as someone who speaks inappropriately. This is using a diagnosis as “excuse” to permit people to be mean to me and making fun of me and mental health affected when I can’t tell whether they’re being mean on purpose and why that’s funny or what’s pathetic obnoxious or wrong with me that I should be rejected or wrongfully paint a picture of me being embarrassing or accuse me of not being proud of myself and punish me as not presentable obese or not able to represent myself and use other women doctors or attorneys to speak for me who don’t even talk to me don’t even know me can’t help me refuse to support me is a gross misuse of my life story and timeline to hurt me to defend who was mean to me and let people get away with mistreating me and taking things from me private and ridicule me for being sensitive to preferences and for it to not be clear as to why I’m insulted being told “schizophrenia” is an excuse to not go to jail and be threatened to be put in jail for a year, you know what maybe I’ll never know what that’s about and why injuring me in support of another was preferred. But you will have lost your most honest writing and balanced take on life, out of preference for mistreating me as gay and breaking my heart for no reason over a song or because of who you’ve dated, and ruining my life over and over again until each person that tried to put me in jail appears innocent and I’m disabled and what good does that do to injure me until I’m sick so that someone who said something insulting I complained about doesn’t look bad so your ruining my life wrongfully punish me for doing my job and working and continuing to make a big deal of me complaining.

I’m going to discontinue talking to everyone for the next few months and maybe discontinue going to PHP based on the issues I’m faced with and not being allowed to be well and improve and why that was ruined. Based on my experience for reaction I’m going to discontinue talking about life and also not be wrongfully prosecuted as something I’m not and accuse anyone of doing anything for me or with 10 years experience with mental health issues accuse my personality or demeanor as something that someone can tell looking at me. Maybe you can’t forgive my upsets and complaints but if it was more important to help other women with the intent of humiliating me with words and punishing me for obesity and accuse me of having a genetic disease that gets passed …. I really have to think about why I’m alive and figure out how to get money finish my JD and try to live the rest of my life and not be used and preyed upon for my personality or what I disclose figure out about how I function best. It’s not me who’s insulting it’s me who is working no matter how you try to brainwash me into living a life off meds disabled isn’t the solution for figuring out what keeps me strong or what I’m alive for.