If there is one thing you have not learned yet about life. Or when things go wrong, or how things go wrong, it’s just as important for me to write well, and not leave anyone in a feeling or disability, upset, or anger. No one is immune to racism, it exists, I have a Jewish last name, I’ve been online for 10 years on and off blogging, so coupled with “hearing voices” and being called schizophrenic, all I hear are excuses to justify for a treatment of a person, so decided by a non legal body of decision makers, who should not meet me, hear from me, and make sure a life changing decision to my identity, self-worth, confidence, and negatively impact how I feel or how others would feel toward me. As an excellent student something I excelled in school, and worked hard to be a blogger or paralegal, it’s important to not get torn up over preferences in how I should look or feel. Let no race, religion, upbringing, neighborhood, house type, dictate in what way I should be more or less susceptible to voices. It’s clear what schizophrenia is it means you are not well liked (I am well liked and loved by many), it says you speak inappropriate (I went to law school I speak logically just like anyone else, and my mental health isn’t a cure joke either). Sometimes after all is said and done, I think to myself what have I ever done in life, or said, to justify the creation of voices, that are not mine, not a reflection of me, not made by me, not words I use, and not a tone or energy I have in life. I’m not in a rush, I’m like everyone else trying to make things better, be given time to think, study, watch the news, and focus on building my content, in the middle of a World War in which genocide is occurring, and countries are quickly becoming viewed as the enemy or punished by every single country, offering aide to those in need, this is a big deal, what there is to hate about Jews or not respect them for, and I consider myself one of them, voices or not, genetics or not, know who I am. Not only do I know who I am online, but I refuse to be labeled an offender or made to suffer from social diseases you have decided to call schizophrenia, to give people a bad feeling about me, or to consider my words are evidence of what a mental illness is, I’m the definition of what a human being is. I’m the definition of what a woman is. I’m the definition of what being a patient feels like, get well.

No one is immune from hate, it’s like a disease that spreads, like an inside joke, or the use of words or memorized points to attack me for, as though you are the attorney and suing me. I’ve never lied in my life, I’m a great person, and I don’t deserve to be sued. I’ve been working everyday at home for the last 10 years, finishing school, learning blogging, writing books, and recovering on meds that disabled me, and deformed my head and neck. Eventually what is a side effect or tolerable seen. Hate is something that if you pick it up and make something with it and everyone else hears or thinks it, what it’s made with, will likely carry remnants of that racist perspective or management of code, and there is nothing that can be done, when people start getting hurt for no reason, and not know what’s hurting them or where it’s coming from. That’s how hate influences culture, how race or religion is used to create a more dominant race or viewpoint that marginalizes people or is used to judged people as stupid, or view themselves as smarter. Hate is like an infection, that gets worse and worse the more it continues, the more you allow it to happen, so fighting back is the solution.

I am a strong enough human being, that I don’t have to put up with everyone’s microaggressions, as to identity, growing up on Rockingham, beauty intelligence, friendships, boyfriends, Facebook, types of homes, money, jobs, knowing OJ Simpson, or Nicole Brown Simpson, I should have never inherited voices for any reason, or been hurt or sued, accused of threat. Me plus 300k readers worldwide, are a group of some of the nicest people on earth, who have supported me in numbers, and continue to support me in numbers, and that’s not a positive force that anyone should fear, or worry has the capability of causing harm to me, or anyone period, of any specific identity. I do my best to live alone, I think that’s best given invasion to my privacy, not allow people I know to be used for story, or to hold negative judgment of me. It’s no longer the code, when it’s not made with love, once you interpret an Apple emoticon van that matches my van in sober living, that’s not Apple doing something for a group of women they are proud of, and my face on an Apple lens isn’t punishing me or communicating to anyone there is something wrong with me in real life there isn’t. But this constant weight gain, and changing my face, is really inconsiderate, plus a heart condition. You know 300k don’t need to pretend they don’t exist, and don’t need to pretend I’m not famous, and those 300k don’t need to be convinced of alleged crimes I’ve not committed, against any man I have loved or admired, that’s crossing the line, once you start using a diagnosis to prevent me from living life. They can say anything positive, but they can’t change the fact if voices continue, and using terminology to make me rejected or viewed as offensive, is not how I want to live life. Pretending like everyone knows me and that’s code, read my ideas and templates, see growth, then treat me separately as though I’ve not earned 300k views on my own, and it took 10 years to work online comfortably and to produce new material everyday. So please don’t send negative energy toward me, based on treatment, or meds, diagnosis, or lawsuit, as far as I’m concerned, I’ve suffered I’ve been harmed, I was not allowed to live a life free of harassment (voices) like Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, Martha Stewart, and Teresa Giudice. These are women you respect even though they were punished, and I wish to be treated the same, based on who I am online & know.