After a few missteps, hurdles, and attitude adjustments, I’ve finally come to a place in which I genuinely want to get better, and recognize how important it is to stay well, to be online. Recently after much debate over words, which turned out to be defeating to even me, there must be a better way toward solution, that offers the kind of optimistic viewpoint, to know things will get better. We may not always trust each other, and not be confident in one another’s strengths and weaknesses, but that also doesn’t mean that life has to only work one way, and that not all opinions matter.

What is Optimism? Optimism is “hopefulness and confidence about the future or the successful outcome of something.” For example if the solution is to write to FBI, talk to the Police, write to the US Supreme Court, Message the White House, or Call 911, then that’s the solution. I never said that being a blogger was an easy job, not especially on choosing topics to write about and think about what to say. Most of the challenges you take on in life, is with permission, without being told no, without being prohibited, without being told you are wrong, and without criticism. I think a sound solution occurs by a system you can trust, a trusted body of decision makers who are intelligent enough to see the problem even if you can’t say it yourself, or hear from you, and know what adjustments to make from a public safety standpoint. Right about now, as my condition worsens, I think if I don’t feel well, chances are someone else will not be feeling well, hence the need to discuss optimism, without needing to be specific on dangerous subjects get wrapped up in debate hurt. No one deserves to get hurt, overwhelmed, or feel powerless that defeats the purpose of blogging to everyone, so everyone can read worldwide, it’s about empowering people so that they don’t get hurt, so that they don’t get mental illness thinking on their own, so there is a starting point, to help make sense of reality, without causing harm to one another, based on discussing or not discussing, there are no rules as to how you should care, but some issues are very traumatic to speak about, think about my life, how long it took to open up, and is still not something I’m completely comfortable with, haven’t even published my book yet from 2018, but there will come a time, when I can share my life, without mentioning OJ or people in my book, and help everyone anyways. To me that’s the solution, without unnecessary mention, it just hurts the deeper you dig, and what hurts is something difficult I’ve overcome decision wise, effort wise, easy to someone who is not me. A lot of things will seem easy to people who are not me, use that gift to your advantage, to not be on meds, hospitalized, sued twice, etc. etc. We all want to live positive lives!

I grew up with a psychic close to my family and Sydney’s family. Andrea Peet. She was always there for me, during addiction in college, my Mom flew me to Klamath Falls to stay with her. She put on the movie “Idiocracy.” She is the one who taught me spirituality, other than Judaism prayers and Yom Kippur, and told me “is what you are doing now going to get you to where you want to be.” Simple advice that always comes to mind, whenever I’m at a turning point, and need to regain control of my direction in life, how easily things can fall apart in the event you get in trouble, or rejected, I’m so thankful that I get interviewed and get paid jobs now, that took years of hard work. So I’m aware of breathwork, healing, energy, sage, candles, detoxing, using your imagination, believing that pictures can be read, trusting others on telling you what they see in you or for you, hearing how someone else thinks of you, encourages you, and makes you feel special in touch with yourself. All the ways that spirituality can be used to help visualize, are all the ways that I later learned as an adult, can also have an impact on what happens to you, not just what you are doing now, also what you are thinking and saying, it seems like everything sticks these days, the world is not as welcoming and forgiving these days, even a short risk or misunderstanding, can throw you off for a few days, just make sure to catch yourself in the editing process, make sure everything sounds positive, and if you do mention someone, do so with respect, never complain, and if your hurt, don’t hurt anyone else, I guess that’s the lesson being addressed as to my mental health, if affecting me, in what way has my life been delayed or medicated so Im disabled and can’t work, has had a tremendous affect on my self-esteem, once being able to work and go to school, to suddenly not be able. Sometimes what you can’t do in life isn’t your fault, but I’m happy for my time spent blogging, learned a lot, and was able to create a job for myself that Im proud of writing. Stick to what you are good at, there’s no telling where you can end up, loving yourself, believing in yourself, and finding ways to connect and be helpful in life. Just because you can’t do things doesn’t mean you are not smart enough to find ways to help others, and have some purpose in life, greater than yourself.