Life is about things going right, I think at this time, peace is questioned as to what things go well by and by whom in question and that’s a valid argument, to question from whom or by what life any peace is brought, and sometimes that’s the confusion when it comes to diagnosing mental health issues. Whats a joke. I think in my shoes, humor is not relevant, when things are serious “voices” that means more proof is needed coming from me, to prove that a difficulty is not coming from me, when there are “voices” it only means that I am being watched more closely and if the basis is “trust” the basis is whether or not good is because of me, based on how I react and respond, what is inherent to my being and basis of decision making, including more story and outlooks in life. It’s clear that if given a hard time in life, its not you who are empathized with or supported and Ive never expected for life, to be something I could live, with or without others hearing or seeing me, that much I can attribute to what voices mean, that I can be heard, that I can be felt, whether or not I am appearing online, healthy, or not feeling well, that’s the consideration of what difficulty mistakes create for others in your life, it means if you are not doing well then that affects others, financially and emotionally, its when you cannot be helped, that its sought to be proven that things are your fault, and that’s not an argument that you cant win writing, or being social, a difficulty or upset, that’s not what going out is for, if there is upset, it means Im home, if there is difficulty that means start writing everyday until things are better, that’s how life gets better, not by treatment or hospital to stop voices, that are a result of texting or thinking “Im cheating” or cant be trusted being social a good decision maker, and if my face is of concern, know that I have no future plans to date or have sex for the rest of my life, it just means that if Im left with a harder life, my life cannot be made better by incorporating anyone new into my life, so that’s the current issue, as a blogger, am I someone who is capable of helping others, through talking, able to overcome a difficulty, or am I someone who is going through a difficulty private, I think I did my best to share online, and suffered losses in followers, that’s should be enough public recognition of losses of faith or support, which cannot be made any clearer by improvement or working harder, those are losses that can be felt, Im not required to be stronger than is necessary or be tougher than is necessary to stay stable and to live a good life, and no relapse or alcohol consumption so justifies any drug death or complication medically to anyone famous, nor should any complications to my health be used as an indicator, over who is doctor who is healer who is patient, and who is suffering, its safe to say that we must all have the same concerns at this time when it comes to being well and staying well. Im not a robot, and nor is my body a robot, so it doesn’t matter what voices I get voices, cant prevent me from dying, and cant protect me if anyone gets me wrong, nor can any video or any upset, its clear that being out in public was not viewed as my peace and being at peace with others, so facing difficulty and my head shrinking, further seeks to recognize what caused any changes to my head out in NY, in the end, it will be the pressures that I face as a human being, are the conditions that I will inherit in life no matter how caused, and that’s what head size represents, what are you faced with pressured by, what is real, and when do you thrive and recover, and don’t wish for my body or brain to be used as an example, of what conditions cause difficulty mentally or what that looks like. All fighting destroys relationships, including any fighting online so its clear to conclude that “fighting” is the basis for “mental difficulty” the thing or fact “hard to comprehend.” So going out, became the secret hate toward me, based on being social, and getting home safe, so that was unnecessary, know that whatever is wrong, that you’ve done wrong is something that you are held to and made to remember as though you should know what you have done wrong, that’s not a truth that you can escape in life, so that’s what there is to be learned about Tony Bennet’s passing, that “cocaine” was wrong, during the Tony Awards, and that became something known in a permanent form public in detail or not public, that becomes a fact about you questioned, that’s the truth even if it hurts, the main lesson, whether watched for 10 years or 10 more years, respect will be earned and based again on how I feel and how I make others feel, and drinking or cocaine cant help the standard of what is needed sobriety, so Im not someone who is not keeping sober resentful of death or using like Im giving up, its recognizing the challenge, facing the challenge and taking responsibility that even if Im being sued there should be no losses, and the point being Im not someone else in life, that the public doesn’t see, or someone worse in private, so that’s the mistake in confronting Hestrin, know that Im not abusive, I never lie, Im always honest, I speak well to others, Im positive toward everyone, I never joke or make a smart joke in reference to anything hard to talk about, and Im honest even if Im being sued, and not guilty doesn’t mean that anything else will be forgiven or made less difficult, is the current dilemma, what are things difficult by or shocking in response to, who is known and who doesn’t deserve to be known, who is known and with respect is known, and who is talented, and who is affected, in the end I am alive and I am able to participate and be a well rounded person because I make the effort to be that person, its not a new person, or a person that suddenly I feel good and Im able, Im 37 years old enough to know that I can start with nothing, I can be lied to, threatened, say things wrong, get upset, but its me who has to make my life good again, and I can accept that “sexuality” becomes something about you people justify voices for or expect you to be things for people, you are not required to be in life, and that also doesn’t mean that Im not a victim, or life a life that anyone would be victimized by, I know my worth, I know the value and worth of a human being, and Im not living a life, that doesn’t thrive among others, or is suffering from anything so grave, that anyone in public can tell there is something wrong with me, Im not anywhere in life for help, Im not anywhere in life in a dark place, and I am not anywhere in life blind, or focused or concentrated in life, that no else around me is relevant, I have lived long enough to know what whats around me is a direct reflection of who I am whats on me and what happens to me in life, and know my contribution on earth. What can be forgiven is relapse, whats not the issue is sexuality, and wellness is not about things going right for me and feeling good to make things happen for me in life or be able to help others, its so that I don’t face difficulty or anyone else made to face difficulty no matter what the teams in life are, on my side or against me, and I can continue to speak and write until no lawsuit is used as an excuse for anything occurring now in movies or song or to any life, is not the change or the disappointment, that is affecting the livelihood of who is famous, or a take on things, a medical difficulty is something that anyone can face, whether the odds are with me or against me in life, sued, dating, friends, or no friends, there is not truth in life, when faced, that anyone should be made to face difficulty again, or anything stated falsely, be true, or later become true about anyone. Its incredibly insulting to be called something you are not on the basis of what you look like or what meds you are on, you will never meet a more trusting professional, serious, and well spoken person on the issues, than me, and certainly no wrongs in life make anything easier to comprehend about life, or reason for anything to seem true about you, I know what Im alive for, I know Im not harming anyone, I know my life is of value, I know Im not a doctor, and I know who I am online helping others, and the masters degree that I have and what experience I have staying well, strong enough to know how to stay well, and speak well enough for things to go right for everyone else. Therefore whether or not my life is made worse, I am not to blame for any death wrongfully accuse me of not writing and staying well or making anything more difficult environmentally or by any rumor, maybe its others who forget, I don’t forget that Im American, I live in my Country, I don’t travel, and worked hard for 10 years to stay well and that shouldn’t be anything that’s taken from me to prove illness or prosecute me as though nows any different or use now to make an example of a new condition of anyone who shouts, hospital cant cure voices, so although Ive discussed my struggle, the best thing I can do it write, so that no one else is made to struggle and so nothing enviornmental occurring with or without my input is too late to solve or prevent. Maybe my health is suffering, but I can get well when I make progress what cant be solved, are lives taken by things not going well, so never see my break as though anything is well for me made difficult for anyone else, I live the same life in the same Country in the same code and the same facts and people’s health as indicators of whats going well, so please don’t use me as an indicator of anyone who is suffering who is choosing not to be there for others, accept suffering as not making things difficult for others.