So the goal is to respect Todd Spitzer’s privacy and being used and having my feelings hurt over and over again, and ridiculing me for being sensitive or freezing, and continuing to make their issue about me or my acceptances, it’s that they did not accept me, did not need me, chose to work independent of me, and insult me and lie to me and didn’t care I lost privileges, didn’t care if I ended up in jail, didn’t care who I loved, didn’t care about my privacy or switching attorneys, didn’t care about my court submission everything became about dislike not liking my court forms, not liking court forms not submitted, if it’s about breaking my heart and trying to make me jealous then accuse me of being mean or intimidating it’s the reverse and if they didn’t need me for 6 months or on bumble bff (favorite profile photo) it doesn’t matter who I’m a reflection of if I refuse to be close or connect to anyone for the rest of my life and refuse for anyone to represent me speak for me or use my life for political gains or exclusive access to privilege in life of importance, it’s my life it’s not me treating anyone as unimportant or taking risk with anyone else’s guilts or issues, it’s about why bring up my reactions and upsets as though it has anything to do with DeNiro’s nephew passing bring up phone call from an attorney who insulted me scared me intimidated me worked closely with Todd Spitzer talks to the Attorney General and accuses me of being mean or unprofessional, therefore she can’t forgive me shouting “calling her a f-king slut” before hiring a new attorney, so stop wrongfully accusing me of having some unprovoked jealous reactions or in some place better of privileged to be interjected or some bubble to be poked like I can’t tell the difference between a positive day deserved from how a bad day is made and by who’s hurting me after politely requesting to not be contacted by them then it’s not my forgivesness not granted or their closeness …. Brought up to wrongfully accuse me of being mentally ill inappropriate or not moving on not talking to anyone is what I did and will do now since me writing to NY DA is about a phone call from Attorney Prizzia in NY over messaging Todd Spitzer and him letting me know that they talk that’s his comfort and their discussions has nothing to do with me or my reactions, I did my best in NY, if I’m not allowed to drink it’s in wellness or talkative permits others to attack me as irresponsible and bring up over and over again how I’m treated with “schizophenia” or why I get hurt easily, not ne appreciative if I had a life was social. I didn’t lose everything to alcohol I lost everything to this lawsuit including what others think of me. Let alone women who could care less and homophobic toward me and in constant dissatisfaction with how I look and sound and expecting a more harmonious personality off adderrall unable to read speak or run …. Again I’m not writing to the NY DA to chastise or condemn Todd Spitzer and his office constantly featuring other women they’re proud of and continue to criticize me as though I’m jealous as a top blogger with book dreams and in contact with exes loved and reached out to, but again what can’t be forgiven is why I’m hurt or insulted by it and I’m the future not care no matter how sensitive the issues are the truth is it’s my story and my case and my past 10 years and if I feel questioned I have every right to challenge a negative innuendo and not be punished for Todd Spitzer’s preferences and with reflection on my privacy and the purpose for changing me or not accepting me and making me sound weird and be rejected by men on some hierarchical basis of who’s a woman or who can take what wrongfully accuse me of being critical of any woman I didn’t have a problem with respected …. And think I handled myself well participating on a hashtag. 

It’s not about who died and wrongfully punishing me as sick or at fault or a sick person blame me for anything doesn’t make sense of blame for choices or addictions or alcoholism accuse me of ignorant of any solidarity or what I’ve been through and who could have identified with me not use me as disappointment as though I’m hard to accept or capitalize on Todd Spitzer’s nack for treating all women as special except me speaking to me like get away or “going to call the police,” when someone’s done with you that’s something you think about naturally what have you done wrong and is nothing about whether I’m respected or code feels good being made making fun of me or accuse me of influence carried on that I’m not proud of others producing. It’s the constant of being watched and given voices and getting sick you wonder what people want from you if it’s about treating me like I said a sick word so that’s what they thought of me and that’s how I got treated out of the millions of words I wrote none inappropriate and with one criticism of Aaron as saying things not funny to me didn’t get seek to label me schizophenic and accuse me saying inappropriate humor from movies not seen accuse me of not being code friendly or respectful of others and observant protective instead it’s about observing me and expecting isolating me destroying relationships and critical of me at ease or social speaking to important people always the “reverse” is the schizophrenic definition …. You know it will never be good enough according to DSM 5 and their multiple definitions and meds that didn’t work cure voices, and it will never be good enough if my peace recovery stability isn’t upsetting or viewed or offensive if voices think it’s okay to say hurtful words and keep making fun of what sound like and look like hurt and critical of every conversation means text no one anymore …. I can get more done writing research papers than getting to know myself take notes or report to one person Todd Spitzer and try to figure out what to say what to work on means the solution is not a group project if for solution I’m injured and I get sick no matter meds or not likes or not, if it’s about “scratch work” accuse me of thinking sloppy or incomplete or puts off or doesn’t remember or doesn’t get work done of high quality ….

Losing my Right to Privacy

1. Critical of out in NY drank, phone taken away and hurt stressed out.

2. Couldn’t take a call from an Attorney trying to put me in jail and make me jealous froze me.

3. Ignoring I spoke to police in NY on my own.

4. Critical of my coverage of DeNiros loss and focusing on what’s wrong with me blame me.

5. Insensitivity to my health or family health.

6. Considering my health worse not fatal to others to permanently diagnose with no cure.

7. Consistent unimpressed or treated as embarrassing or not who I am online Invega.

8. Being given voices if I like someone or date and make fun of my instability or mental health.

9. Constant rejection and feeling sick pressured and overwhelmed with work writing.

10. Doing good work helpful & punished.

11. Taken off meds and still no one’s happy.

12. Writing medical descriptions that call me delusional or hyper critical of me based on how I am or what I say call me mentally ill.

13. Being a role model and model website and author online presentable judged as obese disfigured and improved still problem with me.

14. For solution to have been found in terms of public safety and the constant negative assessment of me as though I’m unsafe or I’m not approved safe to resume life as though I’m not making an effort to recover and dissatisfaction or non approvals carried over whether used to be spoken through me start to create a team atmosphere of treatment of me.