Sometimes we get rallied up and it’s okay to join or partake in any debates in life I think that’s how we all get to know eachother better. It may actually make some of us look more mean and scary or upset than we really are we each have a different root that we stick to in life that gears how we feel about things or certain language used. It’s a tough crowd these days but talking on the blog gives me hope for more open feelings in the event one of us loses a marble every now and then … I mean it’s living life you can get upset it’s a normal feeling and like the earth moves and evolves so do we as humans it’s not that we learn to care less but we learn to not get so hurt by things being human can be painful sometimes like mental health issues or a headache but you get through it you never think anything is permanent and that’s a better way to think about what hurts you in life that things will get better things will get back to normal, you can change, they can change, you can say something better.

Today I’m back to normal, I took a Prozac today still getting used to voices I’m not the expert on it but I’m definitely one to go by instinct that if I’m feeling scared or nervous should say something if I’m getting sick to make sure that it’s just not me, and so someone anyone knows I’m not feeling well you think help will arrive in a BMW car with words on it like a Brentwood doctor Ad I saw on a rear windshield thought that was funny. That would be so cool if Todd had one of those cars and just showed up, and said are you okay? I was worried about you, hope you’re doing okay. Then check your blood pressure, give you an anxiety med, and write you a doctors note, rest 2 weeks.

But life isn’t like that, you’re actually alone kicking and screaming and everyone’s like what’s wrong with you, and you don’t know what’s wrong with you you just don’t feel well and getting voices, I’m not sure what that is. And so we learn how to handle discomfort. Whatever the cause is sometimes we don’t know, it could be the crop top I’m trying to look good in but just can’t look at myself, or maybe I need to learn how to contour my face and fix my eye liner, you know there are simple ways to see things just right.

So I’m sorry for getting into legal arguments I guess next time or in the near future will look up all the laws and write a legal motion or brief defending my own corporation and blog and make sure to update my bylaws and make my company active when I’m feeling better and get more copyrights I think there’s a excel version you can submit for online posts with all links that will take some learning protect myself it’s little things like that that you do for yourself that make you feel of value and professional. Still a work in progress. I also want to learn how to make a magazine front page to my blog where I have the option to share or reblog other articles that other writers and bloggers have written well. Still making sure that I’m in the clear with everyone esoterically and coding and humor wise, I promise I’m always doing my best to be an approachable subject in life and a helpful person of insights to hear from. I think I went through a lot and handled myself well in public over the years without making a big deal of anything to anyone not bothering anyone. Keeping to myself it’s just talking online when you become successful and get activity and likes people want to know how you got there or what you did to be yourself or be read by many I think you can review all my posts online to see how I developed as a writer through disability to know what is my best work vs when I’m not feeling well, and what’s argument dilemma or “schizophrenia” versus what is real helpful and aware of public conscious. I think I have no qualms about talking about my life it’s not an unfair subject to have introduced myself to the world since there seems to be a market for it anyways, there’s no reason why my story should not be of value too.