When 8 million people are lied to and convinced to hate and detest a woman for what they look like, where they have been, and who they are, that’s a hate crime, and I’m not responsible for the emotions that were evoked in those who lost respect for me, thought I looked stupid, were disgusted by me, or who believed that this person was saying about me. 

• Im not a drug offender, sober cocaine 2006, only one semester drank and tried coke.
• Im not a molester, I don’t talk to or hug children, and I am uncomfortable by them.
• Im not a pervert, I stopped having sex because I was given HPV Carcinoma Cancer.
• I don’t do myself to men or women, I do myself to myself, when the time is right.
• I prefer older men, because I don’t now have the discipline and energy to chase men.
• Im not competitive, when I see someone doing well, it’s a condition to be preserved.
• I don’t meddle in the problems of others, I have my own problems in life.
• Im not a fraud, I attended a #scotus hearing in person, I got into law school with 152 LSAT.
• I have dated long term and qualified for marriage based on my health at that time.
• Going to the hospital and being dumped communicated to me I was not in their future.
• When someone does not see the future in you, that means they should date another.
• I was never gay growing up, gay was a condition that was caused upon watching porn.
• I don’t have anger toward men, I feel rejected by them, controlled by them, not enough.
• I got a job because my Dad told me to get a job.
• Im not a fraud. I blogged everyday that’s how I grew on Alexa, its simple, anyone can.
• Im not a fraud, I graduated from law school fair and square with As and a 3.2 GPA.
• Im not a fraud I was 3^rd in my class at UWLA after the first semester, taught WD.
• Im not a drunk driver, I don’t drink, I don’t go out, never been clubbing as an adult.
• Im not a drunk driver, I don’t go to bars, I don’t drink, I don’t black out, Im chill drunk.
• Im not a drunk driver, I don’t drink more than two drinks at a time.
• I did not go out after SOBER DATE 04-02-17, except one January 2 yrs ago: 2 beers.
• I am sober and have been sober since 2003, I never drank but my senior year in college.
• I do not go out, I do not date, I did not try dating apps, until my 30s, Tinder: Dejan.
• I have never been teased before in my entire life or bad mouthed by anyone.
• I don’t have hate or disgust for others, I don’t make eye contact, I don’t look at people.
• Im honest and noted for my honesty at my AA meeting in Westwood, they know me.
• Im conservative by nature, and only tried to wear tighter clothes shopping at Zara.
• I went to Zara in Paris France in high school that’s how I found out about Zara, 2002.
• I studied Fashion at Summer Fashion Design, and took art at Otis College of Art & Design, I took AP Art in High School and got an A, I enjoy drawing, that is a skill I have.
• I don’t lie, I only tell the truth, for example:
• (1) I called the FBI and disclosed that I feel like people are putting things together on me, and they told me not to call, later it became trendy, my Instagram.
• (2) I called the Police (911) during states of real emergency, threats made or directed toward me, intended to intimidate me or treat me as small, disrespect.
• (3) I call the police whenever anyone is aggressive toward me or shouts at me.
• (4) I don’t feel comfortable places when Im not doing well, Staples or elsewhere.
• (5) The fires were very traumatizing to me, and decided to blog and write books.
• (6) I stopped blogging after I got sued, and created a commercial blog (articles).
• (7) I stopped dating, and took Abilify shots, because I was running at night.
• (8) Ive had two suicide attempts one 2009 due to paranoia, 2017 hearing voices.
• (9) I did not do cocaine 2017, a friend brought some over once, I met at Qs.
• (10) I was prescribed 5 adderrall 2017, and am now prescribed 3 adderralls.
• (11) I take anti-psychotics not because Im psychotic toward others, its for voices.
• (12) I started hitting my head, because that was my solution to suicide, instead of swallowing a bottle of pills, I would hit my head instead, upon giving up, hurt.
• (13) voices are hurtful because they say things that are not true, because I didn’t date, people think that Im purposefully not as productive or making money on purpose, its because the meds make you slow and sedentary do less in life.
• (14) I sent several requests over a period of a year to remove a FB page, & website, and no one listened to me, and my condition worsened to schizophrenia. I did not deserve that Im not responsible for fires, floods, or any demonstrations by the homeless, I only spoke to myself briefly after AA and then started writing instead, and put together a book, and another book new writing.
• (15) It was recommended by the taxi driver to visit the MLK Memorial at night.

Recent Emails Sent to my Boss (about Gun Violence by Work a block away):

• I represent I’m not represented 
• I’m cited to but not credited 
• I’m supported only doing well
• When I’m not doing well I don’t call for support
• When I’m doing well if something goes wrong I have to stop everything to make everything go right again then can resume my work life 
• In the event things are not going well either to me or to others it’s my responsibility to figure out what’s occurring to allow for that energy to be had or directed toward any side and why
• It’s my responsibility to represent myself no lawyer or doctor can represent me in the event there is risk it’s my duty to not distribute risk but to undo the harm being caused to my reputation or others defended and against what or who and not be used as the agent to condemn in attachment to circumstances 
• It’s my belief that I am good and am doing no wrong not until someone is cold to me 
• I recognize someone as being cold to me because they will not admit to me that others know me but then will try to hold me responsible for those who know me and to accuse my connections or influence in life as determining a feeling they “fear” of inheriting but then cause to me.

Leslie Fischman <[email protected]>

8:08 PM (42 minutes ago)

to Alex, Franklyn, Richard, SCOTUS, Staff, info

I’m not responsible for the 8 million acquired by distribution of photos of me without my consent. #worldpeace I’m only responsible to respond to the 15 million in traffic generated from my writings alone. That’s my bottom line when it comes to responsibility I can only take responsibility for my own actions and the peace generate from a persons admission of taking things too far is not my responsibility to upkeep or protect or explain for on my energy time and lost wages to accommodate what is going wrong and what is causing shootings to occur it cannot be stopped until there is an opposite reaction that counters the space created in which people are responding in that way unhappy in life toward others and taking their anger and aggression out on innocent people.

If it’s not addressed it cannot be stopped and prevention requires not focusing on what is going well leaving things alone in terms of what’s done well and not create notifications toward me of guilt not exhibited through me in private or public or demeanor or energy reaction or circumstance voices is not my hell but a hell raised to over compensate for people anticipating threat where there is none who anticipate aftershock or defense where there is none coming from me neither instilled within me exhibited or taken out in public directed towards anyone.

I on the other hand have to deal with other people’s aggression toward me if recognized thinking it’s right or just when it’s not what’s right and just goes to court and since I’m not in court or jail means that I’ve not done anything wrong I need no underground or grassroots defenses of protection or help and there’s no explanation to be demanded from me when I was at work performing to the best of my ability and cases settled by motions and mediation briefs and responses I wrote from my brain. That’s not underground that was DISCOMFORT created by seeing someone positive in a desperate or nude circumstance asked for sex by phone from someone I’ve actually had sex with October 31, 2015.

Afterword:

My solution to feeling under attack is to take medications or to seek help, but I cant help or control who is condescending toward me or unsympathetic, I don’t do anything to hurt others I have lived a completely solitary life since moving away to college 2003, and function independently alone, with no friends, and no boyfriends, Im usually in a relationship. I have never had mental health issues until law school and that makes sense because as an adult you are introduced to what your childhood was like, and what people were saying or are saying about you and your family, and that becomes the first time you feel under threat, when other people try to pretend that they are bigger than you, that is because they don’t respect you and think that they are smarter than you, usually insecure people who take out their anger on you. Because either they don’t feel good, or they expect you to make them feel good, and then think that because you are feeling good and not making them feel good, think it’s a transference, when its only a non-match between a person who is doing well busy, and a person who wants other things in life social, and Im not someone with social or political goals in life, I am always someone who makes friends easily, is respected, and left alone in life, not bothered. There seems to be some resentment toward me because of my website, I speak to every circumstance and every issue, and if its not being mentioned by me either my issues are (1) acute (means time is of the essence) (2) ongoing (Im in the middle of explaining a situation or working on thinking to figure out what the situation is) (3) something has stopped (peaceful).