My parents names (Cora and Ron) were called in for insult, upon a submission to counter-terrorism and an application submitted, and for my court documents to have fallen into the wrong hands Human Rights Watch, who did not support me, and due to the possession of my value being in the hands of who did not support me, later matters due to the falling of two Justices. Who have not been forgotten.

The lack of clarity as to the uncertainty and interpretation of whether meeting me is a good thing or a bad thing, if being questioned, is the value of improvement and what that stands for, whether it matters if one can tell guilt, innocence, mental illness, or promise based upon looking at you, and if its by appearances that its believed any reassurance or positive support was given due to my presence, whats been changed, is the impression received upon seeing me, either physically, mentally, or facially, preying upon a condition of body dysmorphia discovered while losing weight dieting and a runner, a statement by me in which you think you are bigger than you are and you keep getting smaller, but don’t see yourself as small, which only now is relevant upon getting bigger, now I seem small, which brings into question, whether a size of human being was the goal, and a questioning of modeling, selfies taken, and for what goals or impressions. By the time anything is misunderstood as insulting or charades is the point at which a writing needs to be produced.

If the point is about turning complaint into a reality of feelings toward you, its not longer about who I am but about who I am not, and why proving who I am not is being done, to reinforce a diagnosis or criticism of a definition that is hurtful, and to not be recognized as having been hurt by a definition.

As someone who has experienced what its like to be done by men youre not attracted to, for reasons of not knowing them, and either not being in the mood or condition to have sex, isn’t a reflection of my judgment of them not being good people or mates if I talked to them nicely and with enthusiasm and not high up or refined in a way that they would be insulted, or insulted by a later description of whether I am accusing them as rape, is being used to justify and criticize my lived experience of people having sex with me as a reason for not going out anymore, and ridiculing friend loss, and on what basis or conversations carried, its about whats put in stone, and what are periods in life, in which it is deserved or you are not forgiven worse off, I would say you fail to represent others as connected, whether by 4^th step, or any other commentary, when you become someone who is heavy or mentally ill, then you become the painful connection, which I think is the point and prosecution of me using the definition of schizophrenia, and my description of what mental health or illness feels like describing my 2009 or any other period in which I was hospitalized, and the fact that so much is required of you to disclose, is punishing me on the grounds as though there are things about me not disclosed, punished be, or something to keep track of that adderrall or any mental health state is about my acceptance or non acceptance.

My peace is not to relive a great life, its to be able to live a life, and by my interpretation of the use of the word with hurtful definition online, Ive researched and found which websites are concerning and definitions used for diagnosis, doesn’t require a later proving or creation of a more famous person or identity in defense of who I was sa though being known to all is a disregardable condition of “abuse” by voices or accuse me of having experienced any abuse personally, by doctor, friendship, or romantically, its clear that when you are not believed then that is why definition of schizophrenia, is about disproving everything that you say, to create an opposite person, which means that I am being fought and changed, in defense of who I have intelligently brought up, and threatening me harm on the basis of complaint, to turn everyone against me, and if that’s the solution to isolate me and not allow me to earn a paycheck, live free of harassment, or be made fun of as someone who is living in a reality that they cannot accept, what is happening for me in life, is not a reflection of who I am but a prescribed judgment of me by way of lawsuit or terms, to direct an attitude toward me of disbelief.

So this is when the improvement, convincing, and hospitalization stops, when it wont make my life, better, and will not create for a more knowledgeable solution of care to be provided, after the harm has already occurred. Its clear that a change is to accuse me of having a noticeable change that is instead of viewing my statements as true view all statements to be false, and furthermore, use the judgments of others, to not listen to me as a human being, and that’s when my role as influencer, popular, world peace, public figure stops, when in what way is anyone who I love made to suffer and in what way am I being prosecuted to prove that I am the cause of that suffering, and what is hospital for to prevent which complaints, and what medication should I be put on. Its clear that not being helped is a matter of things being good, and everything taken away, so that’s a witnessing of privilege and then lose all money, trust, respect, and ability, and sometimes that’s whats done to see who you are when you have nothing and what becomes of you, then what matters to you to speak to.

Living in West Hollywood (2009) was before I was famous, I was always well liked and popular, not to the extent that anything was not working out for me or a noticeable condition that anyone would fight for me, so if that was how Aurora was interpreted, then that’s what is believed and also by grades.

Whats a condition of being hurt that you are responsible for, when you sound stupid, and that is for punishing or prosecuting you as being stupid, and making the reason medication or adderrall, and without taking into considering being made to work more than necessary and to forget what that difficulty is about me that is upsetting to others, let sickness not be a lesson in what a difficult life, is or bring up family, to compare me as not having experienced a difficulty, that I was present and supportive of family during times of difficulty, change things to mean that I am someone too high up, or use my words as “ineffective” or “not sufficient” to prosecute me for a lack of impression or suppress complaint or lawsuit, in favor of the creation of a person who is not smarter than DSM 5 or West Hollywood, or a wrongdoer by my description of people who I am okay with nice to and criticize how I say that Im not in the mood for sex, or treat me as though Im not considerate of mens or womens feelings, and treat me as though a lower status, or denomination of innocence, determines whether my life as lived can be lived, determine that for me whats appropriate or inappropriate.

Comfort is about being a good person and things going well for you, influencer is things working out for you and also working out for others, advisor, is having had experience analyzing difficulty spare a decision maker of wasted time and effort to acre by disclosing issues of concern, whether being about me or others.

When its about others, it becomes about “wrongful death” in what way are other women referenced to that have passed, and in what way, does a referencing of me now, made to be similarly deadly, and in what way are politics being criticized for highlighting an untrue description of me earning my right to be alive, and in what way are negative judgments being used to explain for losses.

At what point to people give up, when (1) it hurts (2) when its not worth caring for (3) not told everything or consider them hurt by someone admired for disappoints them.

Disregarding my August 2008 attendance to a birthday party, to skip to the issue is not who should be embarrassed by attire, its in what way am I being punished for sharing a letter to the birthday owner, and who’s connection and friends Im sure mattered to them, so that was a party favor worth sending, not an issue about how anyone can tell when its time for me to leave, its clear that when people do not consider you sober and invested $2000 in an outfit, Im not the one gifted a bottle of Chanel perfume and told I should probably leave. And not watching Dita Von Tesse says nothing about my sexuality, pre City Attorneys office cards handed out December 2008 (painting at the bar, James Dean). But my reactions in West Hollywood are remembered, in what way does suicide occur, I can only explain how my suicide occurred, or what things seemed like, not connecting to anyone and for everyone to be together minus me, and for me not to be understood or helped, as though Im speaking about things that do not register with others as of necessity, so that was the only team oriented reaction to not being well, is how others appear together.

I wrote one letter (later shredded after given a hard time at the hospital and told I was delusion, dragged down a hall and shot with a needle in my neck) over a deposition space, in which a person was protected who ended up harming my family, and many years later into adulthood, my privacy is still not respected, and considered a space to be investigated means that for everything to not accept is anything described as problematic, occurring based on voices, voices now are about hearing people, who is believed to be a schizophrenic body or medium of people connected who I am changed or ignore or don’t see the value and responsibility of connection.

Treating me as connected and hurtful doesn’t recognize in what way am I harmed, for a reaction on my face or losing it, and whats the basis, for others to be close and to not be close to me, and to treat me like sex is enough to sustain a relationship or a relationship for marriage, its not and no one is responsible for hurt, I think you get what you deserve in life, so if that’s the loyalty presented there, its punishing me for everyone close to who I love and expecting me to have some experience in what that should feel like or how I should come to accept women having fun and being close to and flirting with who I love, and I was punished, car accident, after confronting a friend, and scolded by group text.

So its not the incomprehensible demoralization that alcohol does, it’s the incomprehensible pain and suffering for having read your story or be treated like people know your story and for people individually to hurt you or harm you and for your reactions to be viewed as an honest truth holding you responsible for, so this explains, why I was hurt until gone for two months, and memory issues, and ridiculing me for car accidents, which if due by head injury or phone issues, or websites not working, they want to know why does a car accident represent that Im gone, when I am the one injured to see whether I can drive or not, and criticize a prevention of a worse accident, and for that criticism, to be used to justify anyone flicking me off in broad daylight, and not take responsibility for shouting at me, getting out of his car, and me driving away. What do car accidents and cleanliness represent, either on the outside you are recognized as of value, or you are someone whos luck has run out, a car dusty, is what my car being keyed and dumping dirt on my car represents, what doesn’t glow about me.

Researching a case before going to law school having a message relayed to me from OJ Simpson’s jail, makes me extremely considerate to think about a case Ive not studied, and to not make fun of my reactions as made with insult or lack of concern for anyone else race or identity, or sex preferences. Its clear that when people want to make you look like youre an offender and cannot speak for The Trial of the Century, is because they think that you are oblivious or sheltered taken care of, and then ridiculed as being street or criminal, makes what too late, that my story wasn’t valued and instead what wanted to be highlighted is throwing a chair, my balcony, thinking in the rain, neighbor reading my letter, so what makes that not normal, its in what way is my suicide 9/11 related, based on my first perspective of life as a whole, and for there to have been an attack, that there was no witnessing of drugs alcohol or non performance on my part, but a questioning of my Father crying and what that meant in the immediate, it meant I went to school that day.

So in what way does commenting on my house being yellow (200 N. Rockingham), and both our houses torn down, would be if I am important, and our homes were destroyed, that’s taking away something of value from the public for observation and study, and further if each home is to represent an issue that is not my issue, if its viewed as speaking to others, that’s criticizing my Moms judgment of the address of the home on Gretna Green, or a blue home, or Persian home, so again its not about me failing impression wise, is about financial losses suffered and for the lack of impression upon others, based on housing, attire, friendships, or education.

Removed 10/02/23.