If you mean well and your heart is in a good place, you can say any number of things right. In the event you are faced with a difficulty, or challenge in life that you become responsible for, well that’s a whole new chapter on what to say and how to stay strong. Don’t expect people to care when your chips are down and going through something difficult, some will be understanding, and sometimes it’s best not to share and be so open about something, immediately following an unsurmounting difficulty in life, like the death of a loved on, a new diagnosis, a huge loss, a financial loss, a setback, alcoholism or addiction, a breakup, a lawsuit, these are all moments in time, when you are allowed to focus on yourself, and life should just carry on. As a public figure you have to follow some unwritten rule about informing and updating others on your progress, or provide details as to what you are going through or explain what court is about, as though everything is your fault, it’s not.

In the real world when something is wrong, no one can help you figure that out but yourself, and in the event you have a falling out with someone you love, the best way to explain that is that you were not accepted the way you were, this person thought something was wrong with me, I loved this person and he did not love me, and not be accused of harassment, it’s a word that just builds and builds and suddenly becomes about other things people think is what lawsuit is for to hold you responsible for other things in life, or get you for something, and I can tell you this is much if anyone is trying to get me for something, then I’m submitting everything to the US Supreme Court, and reserve the right to defend myself, and also stick to the causes and memberships I have committed to in life. Life won’t always flow past difficulty, and it’s your job as someone who is going through difficulty, not to allow anyone, or voices to justify that difficulty as being your fault, or a result of something you have said whether in private or in public.

As a public figure it becomes your private spaces that become unsafe, your accounts that get hacked, and all the unlimited ways that people can make you look bad on the outside, and not feel good on the inside, that’s life, that’s how life works, you won’t be comfortable with how you are made to look, you will not like the big picture being drawn about you by use of your identity, and you will likely become defensive to such claims.

Growing up privileged, doesn’t make it a given that I became a successful blogger, it is because it was something I worked toward for 10 years as a writer and continued my education, that is what enables me to write from A-Z, have the balls to send letters to the US Supreme Court, and the balls to call the police and submit reports to the FBI, that all takes work, it doesn’t mean that I’m a victim or not humiliated by bad experiences, like anyone should be, it means Im strong enough to fix my life so that by 2024, I can then again become a successful blogger, with the goal of getting 1 million in traffic in the US. That has been a goal since way back blogging on twitter, I always wondered how that happens and tried so hard to make that happen for myself as a writer. So I’m sure that all the delays with meds, and court, or punishment, are all the ways I was made to not exist, and it’s not that Im insensitive to movements, or refuse to disclose my 4^th step and list of who Ive hooked up with my first boyfriend being “George Nelson” age 33 when I was 18, who I met in Boxing class the instructors name was “Floyd” he was a triplet, isn’t not protecting myself from anyone bringing up the death of George Floyd or accuse me of being underground and then at the same time call me delusional, then act as though anything was inspired by me, then accuse me of not saving lives as a the daughter or a Doctor and professional myself, it’s not about my records or my Google photos, or two websites, it’s about what information is being sought to call “Bible” and go by, and why suddenly challenge me inside and out, private and public as though Ive not been transparent for 10 years working hard not afraid of hackers, or threatened by any game in life, or code of naming and not accuse me of not paying my respects to the deceased. It seems like once I liked a DA, it suddenly became about voices, or mistreatment of me, as though Im not deserving of liking someone who fights crime, or use any made up record being held against me, to “disqualify” me from being loved or bring up in a job application. Ive just about had it, with everyone pretending like anything is a joke, or life is about anything, that you’re accusing me of not comprehending or not working hard online everyday, through riots, and crimes, and mass shootings, doing my due diligence and giving my best effort to help make sure things go right not wrong.

I have never used the experiences of others, to describe what’s happening to my neck what’s choking me when hearing voices, or accuse anyone of making me throw up 4 days in a row, I just know my luck, and it’s not fair to use my innocence, for any other purpose than to make things go right. Whether you believe in me or not. It’s not my job to share my life or my story and recollection of events as delusion. If it’s too late, what’s too late is injuring me, if anyone has died, it’s not too late to figure out why, without blaming me, or using any lawsuit, or medical record to hold me responsible for anyone else’s beliefs and outlook. I think I’ve made it clear online what is my life experience and what I stand for, and have been fair and accessible to all, and handled all riots and protests professionally, working hard online writing anyways. Sometimes the best way to lose a battle with illness or voices, is to stop talking about it and to remove posts, if its to the second if that harm is going to take over by mistake and I get injured then that means working too hard to prevent harm to me, occurred after I suffered and tortured, and you know that’s not my fault ask the CIA, I just applied, and working my way, towards either working, or filing for disability and be a blogger. So far I have successfully battled voices, by working hard on my website everyday, by focusing on myself, doing cardio, going to the ER for clearance to write in spite of recent outbursts and frustrations expressed out loud and to myself. And continue on this journey in life helping others. But I refuse to get involved with making code jokes about my life, or accuse me of not sharing or being an open book.

You know I share so much information with the public, it’s beyond me, whatever voices is about, are not my guilts, voices are people who think Ive hurt them and feel justified in attacking me, with no sympathy, no limit, don’t care if I punch my head, and won’t stop if I hit my head, that’s letting voices win, if I get injured and it gets called my fault, is how voices win and I suffer.

I am not suffering today, because I am working hard toward my goals of publishing and building websites, and refuse to lose my battle with voices and self-harm or schizophrenia, no matter what anyone thinks or no matter what anyone says. You won’t see the positive until Im famous and successful and earn million in traffic, and start earning by book, then [you can gauge] who I am, there will be proof of me being known for my writing. I will be credited for my knowledge of code, game, rap music, women’s issues, sexuality, secrets, history, and court, and be credited for my hard work, it’s not me who needs to change, its my work, my honesty, and my life, and I can live my life however it needs to be lived, so that I can live life free of harm and not be attacked including making sure that others are not attacked, and so no one’s guilt ruins my face, my campaign, or anyone’s life.