I don’t think I have ever had a single thought about being known, or ever had concern for my reputation or worried what others think, prior to law school, it’s in law school that you are taught that your reputation matters. Given that lesson in life, it’s never too late, or should result in a shock, as though you don’t know yourself or suddenly supposed to remember something that you’ve done wrong in the past that gives reason for another unstated assumption of there being something wrong with you. I don’t think a yearbook hurting my feelings, with a superlative “voted most shady” was appropriate since I was still friends with everyone and they were at my house every weekend, we had get togethers, and still remained friends cordial with old best friends who grew apart during the time that dating started, I didn’t date in high school, so not something I had in common with others. Have briefly matched or really liked people, but it never worked out in the end which is okay. Nothing I missed out on in life, being liked, feeling special, being known, being respected. I think if you go to a nice school and around people who know you that’s usually the case that everyone is nice to you and at some point in time have been friended by people, but feel like given any new circumstances this much has been misunderstood about my personal growth and commitment to sobriety and weight loss, not something wrong with me, I never didn’t have friends, it was only until I got in trouble in life (sued) that I isolated and lost contact with my best friends, which is okay. Life is tough enough to not reach out to people when you’re going through something serious, it never seemed like anything I could talk to anyone about, especially after being punished twice.

As someone friends with a celebrity, I used to live a very private life never participated much on Facebook and was focused on law school. After blogging there are many phases of being known and disclosing whether you are a blogger, and there can be many different reactions. So long as you are focused on yourself and your writing and don’t disclose personal details out loud, you should be good on not worrying or bothering anyone, in terms of your sense of direction in public. I think gradually you become known through @ and by DM and introducing yourself which always takes effort and needing to be in a good place to talk to people, so this has been challenging at times. I though I could go back to work but maybe I should make it more clear on what being famous online is like in real life, in terms of other underground campaigns, synergy, and treatments. I think its assumed that you don’t know you are known or there presents a lack of discussion on what is underground or governing the ideas and production of others, assuming you are either influencing and apart of allowed to be thought of or credited, view a lower profile as more appropriate to not credit or not be identified as a positive influence, there are ways it can be assumed that I should be harmed or treated as guilty or interpret when things do not go my way, or if I look bad, to bring up compliance in a way, as though I should be mistreated as someone who is sick who feels like they deserve to be treated as special or be accused of lying or thinking anyone is out to make them look bad, or look odd. I don’t think being known allows for you to be purposefully harmed, I think not being officially famous, and to continue to go back to convince me that blogging is bad, or my stats are not real, is going against what I believe in, and maybe that’s not the solution, to figuring out whats wrong, or to determine innocence or guilt.

I think once it gets to the point where people are harming you thinking that’s how you treat someone labeled guilty, I’m not familiar with a system that relies on hurting me, to do anything positive for me, I can keep myself out of jail I don’t need help, I don’t need a partner, an alibi, a witness, or an attorney. I can figure out what’s wrong and make the necessary changes myself and in words to clarify the issue if its viewing me as stupid. I think once you label someone as guilty whether playing up to the negatives or rising above and sounding better, whichever is leading no matter what team is winning, is a lesson on God and what is considered preventative medicine or appropriate treatment of a person, innocent or guilty.

The team effort in being known, is when your formula and words for peace work, when people are protected, and if at your expense you are harmed, its your job to not be harmed and no one else’s responsibility to treat you as special. I think I was allowed to share briefly my childhood stories and reflections on knowing OJ and was respected on those grounds. Later upon being sued, is when no one cares who I know or how special my story is, its about me not being hurt and not accusing anyone who then gets defended and I get hurt mistreated as though I offended anyone I loved or interacted with, and this is how you wrongfully credit a man for my health, or seek to take away my life or ruin my life, in favor of any man you prefer to respect who is not writing online and speaking to the public and punish me. Which is why I have said to not talk to anyone for the rest of my life, and always thought long and hard about never dating again, based on these two lawsuits and being bullied and diagnosed as schizophrenic.