Not feeling well today. When is it time to rise above? I think by the time all the negative feelings take their toll on you you will feel spent, you will feel sick, nauseous, not hungry, and not feeling up to anything, and that’s letting sickness win. Trust me I could waste time examining all the different ways negative energy can be felt or result, but that would creating a reality different than what my reality is. And that’s how you get carried away in negative thinking. It takes you to a place, in which you are heard as though you have less, or think less of self or others, and in those downs, it makes you less relatable, and that’s the internal conflict that you face in defeat, whether that be voices, or actual people turning on you, a sickness is incurred. So how to battle this sickness incurred in when people turn on you, dislike you, of if you hear a negative voice. It would be to not play up to those voices, for example, not take a day off from blogging, and just sit around and feel sick all day, that one relationship in life is not working out or making me sick to deal with right now, and try to move forward. There are so many ways to get sick, when dealing with someone else’s sickness expressed toward you, the goal is to not get sick too, or lose yourself.

Trust me I could go nuts if for everything I earned I lost, from saying the wrong thing, or not being grateful for what I have, that’s exactly whats gets lost in complaint or not being appreciative and happy about where you are and what you have, that’s what you lose that feeling of things are going to be okay and that things are going to work out. Recently I have had to deal with the internal pains and struggle with staying sober, and the amount of guilt and sickness you incur, especially for me as a blogger, who has been sober or expected to stay sober, to face that public disappointment of not being who they want me to be sober, or not sounding like how they want me to sound, with clarity. I think a lot of things can take away from your clarity, including fighting, sickness, etc, there are a ton of ways to make you not feel up to doing things that you used to want to do, and those are the types of sick feelings you get in the event you overanalyze what types of sickness is being directed toward you in life, can only make things worse not better. So in order to start feeling better, no matter how bad things are, no matter where the negative judgment or disappointment lays, would be to improve and to start thinking positive, and the more that you are willing to let go, pray the more that whatever is causing that negative energy toward you, is willing to let go of to, not push one another to extremes. I feel like when sickness is at play, this is when extremes get heightened, its like a recipe for saying sick things to one another, hearing sick things, hearing cursing, or develops anger in the listener or the reader, and that’s a type of sickness that can be prevented. Anger to me is a type of sickness, that spreads, it hurts who is considered angering someone, and it hurts the person who is made to feel angry or upset when someone is angry or upset toward them, and that’s sickness too.

It’s time to rise above when nothing good can become of it, means to either change the subject, or implement more privacy features such as what Im doing on social media taking less photos, not modeling, not using messenger, not text as much, I need to work on myself. Its clear when negativity takes it toll its like a burning feeling inside your body, that causes you heart pain, and you don’t feel hungry, and your head feels like its being frozen by ice, to me that’s sickness when things are too much and my body cant handle the stress physically, and in order to escape from that feeling and blog online, requires me to also encourage others, of when it is a good time to just let go.