Being in the limelight, comes with its pluses and minuses, if I could make a rule book for becoming known this is what it would be. I may not be the best example of someone known online (no matter what the scope is analytics wise) given the changes in diagnoses and new heart condition, but will try to do my best to describe whats okay and whats not okay, to explain for any internal struggles resulting from being online, or with risk of being treated as someone “exposes” themselves. I don’t think as a blogger Im exposing myself, I think things get exposed for reaction, and that’s not how I treat my audience, Im not showing them anything, and Im behaving or experiencing anything that anyone can tell that I can’t tell looking at myself. Im getting better at knowing when Im doing well versus what things are like when Im not doing well. And being online is all about being able to maintain that internal balance, of things being okay with you, not misunderstood as someone who expresses themselves one way, or differently in private, its important to be the same person you are offline and in private as you are online, you need to maintain some consistency, that is what makes you unique and dependable, or reliable, when theres less second guessing, and more expectation of your ability to arrive to a better feeling, and for others starting with nothing to similarly feel rewarded having read, achieve a better state of mind too, that’s the gift that keeps on giving.

Limelight: List of Things to Keep in Mind.

• Be consistent.
• Be Aware of Risk of Being Exposed.
• Be Careful Who You Trust or Talk To.
• Try Not to Speak Openly in Private too much.
• Do Your Best to Utilize Professional Feedback Systems: Therapy.
• Be Unique, Reliable, and Dependable.

As a person online, its not been easy, there was a really bad experience I had for a few years, constantly being exposed, that is taking things from me in private like photos, and putting pieces together online about me, not coming from me, misrepresenting me communicating to everyone something about me not approved by me, and that was hard to deal with. Its better to be in a place where you are protected from harm, versus being advertised as someone less than. When you are advertised as someone less than, this is how you get hurt in tech, this is what causes hacking, this is what causes distrust, this is why causes prying, this is what causes physical injury to someone who is positive to be viewed in the negative is what ends up hurting your head.

When I hear the word “exposed” I think about all the moments in which I was ever taken advantage of and in what way was someones ability to hurt me capitalized on in public and told to the whole world this is how easy it is to make this girl/woman do this, and because he was able to make me do this or that is what is intended to make me look stupid or a poor decision maker. What matters more is who you are when things are well, who you are when you have privacy, who you are in intimate relationships, who you are as a friend, who you are as a family member, that’s what matters more, than any portrayal of you. So if your being exposed, and if your life is being threatened by someone as exposing you, no one knows you better than yourself, and so long as you keep track of your writing and your story you don’t ever have to worry about anyone trying to get to know you just to talk to everyone who knows you, that’s who winds up at risk of harm. When someone is hurting you, who is not approved, who you are told to block, that is the person who is not accepted by everyone who does believe in you, trusts you, and thinks highly of you, and that’s often times what that person cannot comprehend is a conflict that you face, forcing you to talk to someone you are supposed to lie about, and its not worth lying or ruining my entire support system, talking to someone who no one wants me to talk to, so this person has to just accept that. As a result of how badly this person hurt me in public, with risk of him doing that again, means he cannot be trusted, Ive not sent him any photos, and I cannot help this person, trying to gain access to my inner circle or Facebook or be in my life, so long as this person hurts me, that hurts everyone I know, that makes me uncomfortable as someone who gets hurt or is viewed poorly because of him makes it difficult to be around people or have friends of have jobs, and that’s that persons goal. Seeing me as someone worth loving, with my whole future ahead of me, is not for him to destroy or ruin my life again, which is why Im not talking to someone, whether anyone is okay or not bothered, its my life, its my heart condition, its my disability, its my mental health, and if you are not me and have not experienced what this person has done to me, then I cannot also ask for anyone to understand what I am going through, if talking about this person causes you to take his side, or be in agreement accuse blogging and writing articles as exposing myself, or things about myself is untrue.