After something bad happens, is when it’s okay to back off and take time to get your mind right. I’m well aware of the political fiasco caused by me suddenly becoming famous and going by pen name and talked about, and for the underground elements of public speaking and speech writing to have occurred or stop at a certain point later, and I promise to not change or be changed, based on any permanency of any condition however caused mental health wise.

After former President Trump was shot, I was considering going to an AA meeting, but stayed home instead and drank, and much to my dismay, prior to any facts about the shooter having been obtained, they immediately went into a mental health analysis, which I immediately responded to by writing an email to Fox News, expressing my feeling about the discussion of mental health issues, from the get go. It seems no matter what my diagnosis is, whats misunderstood from my reservations or complaints concerning topics addressed is how should I be directly affected, and for those emails or reaction to have been observed as guilt.

While I can’t do anything about the unacceptability of what I sounded like or what I sound like now, it’s clear that a thread is sought to be found concerning my condition or his. The thread sought to exist is not as to who I was close to trusted or a past stage of being special and having actually talked to Trump, but for the later misuse of his employees name, to later manifest into voices, to use President Trump as making fun of me, so coupled with another person’s interpretation of name innuendo, instead of seeing things as made with love, it was somehow decided to use country against against me then situate me as being on the outside of whats holding everyone together, and I believe that’s whats intended to occur from a losing position.

Based on my statements, and feeling sick afterwards, Im assuming that making those [initial] 4 statements put me under negative scrutiny or made to think just by mention makes me look or sound guilty. I think if you use Trump’s employee’s name to make me take personally a later term coming to be, that’s misusing Trump as coding, then differentiate me as not belonging to my country apart of the creation of code or of influence, and to situate me similarly focus on the bullying aspect of voices, to compare me to a shooter against my wishes, which I think you think Im defensive to or not having mentioned.

Although I cant speak for what terms have been used to describe me, or what diagnoses were intended to do to me then, but I can assure you that if you need me to discuss closing how The former President being shot, relates me to me then give me time to come to that realization to discuss specifically. I don’t things will be okay until we have this discussion, its clear that in not having this discussion, its like a bunch of reactions can take place you hold me responsible for, in place or interpreting them as communicating how everyone else should feel about why or how former President Trump was shot.

I think if you allow a lawsuit or diagnosis to convince you that Im offensive, and if you allow a hate website to convince you of things being true about me not true, and also don’t care whats governing, my words, or his, I think whatever was the end result in regards to who I am, my weight, treatment of me, my face, or standing in life, will end up wherever I am able to work hard and place myself, it’s clear that sometimes your place in life gets taken, and given to someone else, if they think your place in life was given to you not earned through writing. I think a person shooting a gun at me, is suspect, if former President Trump was shot, because that’s accusing me of deserving to be shot, and that’s using evidence of medical records, pictures, or diagnoses, for allowing someone to convince others by hate website that I deserved to be shot, or am not a nice conservative human being who is nice to everyone.

So I think making me sound mean, or not seeing him as mean, means you want to understand why I was offended by the discussion of mental health issues, so me having been called “schizophrenic” and after being sued, Im assuming that (1) you already think somethings my fault (2) you already think who is hurting me is innocent (3) you don’t believe or appreciate if when Im ever struggling and (4) you seek some alternate interpretation of events as being my fault, when comparing me to other government officials or public figures not understanding my own gains and losses, or hurts in life.

So Im going to do my best and explain that although mental health is historically a huge factor in the creation of a shooter, I don’t also as someone with mental health issues, to be accused of having offended anyone in court or by any lawsuit compare me to who hurt me, and punish me as though what he has done to me, accuse me of doing to others, and so if that’s the treatment of me making me look bad and embarrassing me, its about questioning my ability to make someone else look good, and questioning a success rate when in couples with me, accuse me of benefiting off someone, or credit my wellness or what I sound like, to who you think Im connected to. So when the President says don’t cure, and says 8 million, its about how this person hurt me then using me to defend him or anyone or any voice, who intends to hurt me, or doesn’t care if I get shot or hurt and cant explain or no one is explaining why did President Trump get shot if I got “shot” so to speak, so that and the term “bullying” needs to be assessed, in terms of whether you are blaming my focus as changing or not focused or cant get over or has not overcome or improved as away to blame me and use people against me, to make what this person has done okay, still doesn’t explain what motivated this person to shoot the President.

Ive already been clear on being well to speak in public, to not play victim, to be strong, and to also not over motivate people to feel good be balanced, and not over sexualize myself online to others, to not be done by the wrong people in life, and while everyone has a right to feel good, don’t accuse of of being fought for, or wrongfully accuse me of victimizing anyone, or accuse my messages or contacts in life as harmful to health of anyone.

I don’t think its me whos a threat, I think the interpretation of everything poses a threat to me, and to now Presidents once you think me getting sick is to communicate for something that Im not seeing, having read what I have written and not accepted me cursing or continued blame or use of voices against me, is my own condition to improve from, I don’t make difficult the lives of others, I don’t say things unnecessary, I don’t waste time, Im not too late, and I said the word prevention. So so long as you focus on someones negative judgement of me then that will lead your thinking about how things happen, and whether or not I should be well or sick, and if you see my shoes and allow my words to lead, then you are not offended by words that Im offended by and that’s being hurt.

Reference:

Hope Hicks

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hope_Hicks

Hope Solo

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hope_Solo