Sometimes when trying to help others, to prevent others from getting sick like I have suffered, you do focus on sharing on everything you’ve done that’s working for you. Maybe I haven’t spent enough time and with difficulty sharing about how painful challenges in life can be, and believed to be someone who always did the right things and sought help or treatment, to explain why I have been able to recover or improve. Proving intelligence isn’t easy it’s a constant competition writing, isn’t a no brainer, everyone achieves their gifts in life according to belief in themselves and not take for granted the belief in them by others, if it ever mattered to famous or non-famous, everyone prefers their peace, and sometimes that’s whats too much about mental health issues, or being treated as guilty, you won’t make sense, you wont always be able to identify what is wrong with you or how you need to improve taking for granted criticism of you or perspectives shared on my diagnosis, that doesn’t help me to interpret life as its not, or take wellness for granted or not remember how hard I needed to work to stay well, and it will continue to be that way.

The most criticized types of mental illness, are classically attributed to alcohol or addiction, with promise to recover and you may meet many people who faced hospitalization and do make a full recovery, I never compared myself or saw myself as more able or in a place I ever recognized anyone else to be worse off, take for granted my exposures in life or IOP. Group settings treat you one thing about life, when you can be supported and be helped, and trusted to be around other patients, with respect for each ones condition, in addition to confidentiality, which makes it hard and am doing my best to discuss mental health without having to use my life for story or make fun of my awareness for the suffering of others like me, isn’t me normalizing or having the same conditions in common with others, one can assume has a solution of creating a combined story or combination of writings, expected to treat or prevent such conditions, without first being aware of how long it takes to get strong again and live life again, I don’t think Ive ever taken any short cuts in life, or suddenly have been helped, and not stayed well upon leaving, that’s a new issue, maintaining wellness post treatment or ER, or being helped, or court, and staying well. Like most mental health issues the same things are concerning, sickness, content, story, delusion, truth, what everyone knows, what you don’t know, what everyone is okay with is a good stopping point.

It’s clear that when there is no stopping point, such as now, after a long post assessing how I was blamed, isn’t an example of something I have to sit with and not say, Im not competing with everyone creative ability to witness, read, be exposed, chime in, tune out, know when things are good, or when things are out of hand, to be for or against, a good time to contact or reach out to or when to be away.

Right now is a good example of things being too much, and not the solution. You can do your best to work honestly and give your best effort, Ive always said that its harder to create and be aware of risks in assembly regarding mental health is Im sure the confusion as to hearing me describe issues or my experience of life, and not think too hard about what sounded sick about then, now cant be any better. The goal is to not rebel, and not complain, not reverse your life from being fortunate and able and things should work out, humble, do your best, to speaking in a way that puts me at risk of harm, becomes something viewed as mental illness, with risk for convincing others that Im guilty, or something is my fault, and that’s nothing anyone can tell me is wrong with me that I cant already tell and feel myself being me. Im sorry that suicide is a problem, and Im sorry to subject myself to be in situations that I have nothing or feel sick, or sound sick, and over analyze things if it seems too late, simply means its not been said, so what is the right thing to do. I think the right thing to do would be to listen to myself if its too much and could cause me suicide or is making me feel sick, whether or not it’s the truth or something that someone else thinks, or clarifying to make sure isn’t considered something Im not saying, nows a good time based on being alone and having a couple good weeks with no voices, and this is me sitting with court and blame and negative terms, or what could be my fault, and this maybe is my idea of prevention, figuring out what the causes are and make sure Im not contributing to those causes, whether Im related or not or have mentioned on my blog something recent in the news. If there is one way to describe sensitivity to the issue of suicide, this is a bad example of blaming me for everything, and being hurt and feeling sick, and past the point of acceptance or being helpful, this is a difficult emotion. So I just want to make clear that maybe I made things too easy is why no one takes me seriously or is having fun hurting me, or its me who needs to lighten up and lose weight, or discuss serious subjects better, and do my best, to not also view research writing as some more complicated way of speaking that suddenly becomes age inappropriate I think whats too much for me is probably too much for others. Just make sure Im not some unforgiveable challenge, or hurt, causing suicide.