When you’ve worked so hard just to stay well, trying to balance it all, sometimes we find ourselves, either on the brink of genius, or the brink of insanity. Insanity meaning instability, when all the symptoms get turned up leaving us in the midst of an uncomfortable chaos, the type of experience we only thought those with more severe mental illness experience, I wouldn’t be so sure of yourself. It can happen to anyone, that overwhelm, whether you are a boss, in power, not in power, and employee, a friend, a daughter, a Mother, we’ve seen it all on TV, those emotional rants and outbursts of expression, just to get our two cents in explain how we feel hoping that those listening will hear us out, empathize with us. What we are most in need of in those moments, is direction, more than a friend or companion, sometimes we expect our significant others and friends in life to step up to the plate of being a professional with that exact answer or opinion to set us free of our anguish. Let’s all hope we have friends like that in life. So what brings us to these emotional points of devastation and loss, are we really not as good as we think we are, in what ways has society tried to convince us that we are generational desensitized, yet still encounter these intense emotional states, even if its just me blogging online, sharing my story, what makes for those make or break moments in life, and why all eggshells. I think when something is new, or a way is being paved, or a type of conversation is being had and accepted, we often fear that our resources may suddenly become scarce, or a source of a feeling will suddenly disappear, and that’s not reality. In reality, we become responsible for maintaining our balance, and this may in turn make us more sensitive, to the contrary, of an otherwise seemingly desensitized, notoriously opinionated and humous comments on social media. What types of frustrations in life make us not speak, and why?

According to psychcentral.com, “Sensitivity is often framed as a negative personality trait. You may have been told that you’re too sensitive or overemotional and that you need to “toughen up.” Maybe you wonder, why am I so sensitive? It’s important to understand that sensitivity is a personality trait. Being “too” sensitive is not a disorder. Like being quiet or being thoughtful, it’s not necessarily a bad trait, even though each can pose its challenges.” [1]

For example, feeling a sense of ownership over a solution, is a probable cause of much distress in throws of things not being in your control. So what’s this about. I’m a good example of someone who is related to success, who is doing her best to amount to someone who is successful, if not equally, at least in a way that I can be respected. Therefore it’s important that you focus on yourself, I think most of the overwhelm is experienced in comparison to. Some things are easier to see than others, depending on how close to the core of the issues you stand. Know that the further away from the core of an issue you stand, maybe the easier it will be to pick up, and forget, or keep out of mind, something otherwise extremely bothersome to another. I think it’s by putting yourself out there that’s is possible to be known by other successful people, and sometimes on the outside that may appear as favoritism or enabling, but I assure you that in my downs, there is really nothing that anyone can do for me, so understand the helplessness too of those who are successful, they can only do so much, and if you don’t know them in real life, they really aren’t responsible for what you go through, and likewise, responsibility wise on my end. I think if I was not popular or not successful blogging, my life would be much different, and very much believe that my life has changed for the better, since becoming a blogger, and exploring my writing skills. Everyone is different, I for example as someone who archives a lot and removed posts, continue to face difficulty in the realm of story telling, it’s hard to find that comfort overall, it’s hard to be protected from unwanted exposures of harm, and sometimes its in how you are exposed that can wind up being an aggravating experience, to open up for the first time, and to have already faced negativity in your personal development as a writer and blogger, sometimes sharing what has caused us pain or anguish become examples of things and issues you may be sensitive to. And Im not always sure you want people to know you in that way, know how to hurt you, know how to expose you, or know how to affect you, I don’t think it allows for personal development, when a harm is caused that prevents you from speaking, or sharing your story. To negativity it will never be enough, and sometimes better places you achieve later in life, are too late, and it may not have been an easy journey to not be bothered, there’s always risk.

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[1] https://psychcentral.com/health/why-am-i-so-sensitive