There are Different Types of Voices ….

There are different types of voices. Although recently a psychiatrist and therapist at Cedars did not believe that my diagnosis was schizophrenia, and do not think I am, along with my internist, and my current therapist does not believe in labels. In case there is confusion as to my openness during the time my diagnosis was changed and all the treatments I underwent, and faced a tremendous amount of disability on those meds, spent a lot of time resting, doing less, and I’m assuming all of that helps, like going to the hospital, or being put on meds, or taken off meds, it’s a lot of rest, sleeping, living a simple life, not always a punishment, and I would never glamourize mental health to being an easy subject, I have always described mental health as requiring support, therapy, seeing a doctor, calling a hotline, or encourage reporting or calling 911, that’s been my experience with mental health, it comes across as an emergency, not feeling well, and needing to go to the ER. These days, I’m doing better, keeping stable, and it doesn’t take experience to not experience it again, it takes constant monitoring and daily effort and medications to stay balanced and prevent yourself from getting sick. For example recently especially in June, relapsed on alcohol, and it was an absolute nightmare, things only got worse and worse for me the less I did, or more avoidant I grew toward voices, it seemed like all my solutions weren’t working, and alcohol seemed like a good idea, to stop writing, or disable myself and not be able to write and speak, but once I started therapy, sobriety started, and so on and so forth each month, if ever a relapse in between attending meetings regularly, I never felt better the next day, and it never made anything better, writing wise, voices wise, or blogging wise, to me alcohol is something I’ve had few experiences drinking when I was 21, and soon there after stopped and never drank and if I did, I wasn’t able to be as successful, or do as well, and the same goes for now, Im not able to do treadmill, I end up wasting or ending a day early, and by the time I wake up and feel better, I realize to not drink, it only makes things worse, now especially, since Im going to start a new job, I will have to continue to stick toward reasonable solutions for voices, no matter what anyone else thinks, no matter the diagnosis, no matter how its caused, all I have to do is focus on myself, and be positive, be productive, and pray that it stops.

There are different kinds of voices, in case anyone is wondering whats going on inside my head, or what if anything is the delusion, or imaged case scenario in terms of voices as a blogger. If there was ever a team consisting of people working together in the company and support of one another while reading my blog as a group, then that would be the imagined case example, of a conversation that I would hear, coming from who is reading my blog, or believed to be the cause of voices, or how created, it would be “eavesdropping” or “made to hear” spoken to directly either by who’s listening, or cannot talk to me, or someone speaking directly to me, in support of a person who is reading who cannot talk to me, and those can be the variations of team building that can occur, without me. I think in many ways as a blogger, you are on your own, with great examples of feedback, but not nearly the amount of comments and engagement as popular Instagram accounts. I don’t see myself as a person who is hard to approach or speak to, but Im getting the feeling that when I discuss voices, the current feedback is from someone who is reading as though I am talking to them, and the ongoing issue of whether tone or to whom Im speaking to, in the duration of discussion of voices, is offensive to a person in real life, who comes to hold those beliefs toward me, and then thinks Im speaking or arguing with them, would be an imagined scenario, writing, or another type of writing being imagined, existing here or anywhere, that is confusing to the reader, or expresses a feeling in front of another that makes them uncomfortable, I don’t think its my voice that makes anyone uncomfortable, it is the voice of another as repeated toward me that becomes a source of discomfort, including existing examples, or non existing examples, or rising tension, on the blog, or chaos directed toward me, it seems like the the louder the voices get, “direct” “terms” is the kind of commentary if reported that people would think is schizophrenia, as though your writing and who you are possesses a negative term or capability of hearing a term that you don’t say, there is no exact science as to how voices are created within in you, but I can describe the process as being in your control, listening for responses and creating those responses, like checking on you, worrying about you, supporting you, talking about you, reinforcing you, being nice to you, or what they think is schizophrenia, whether you hear negative voices, and its unclear scientifically if that’s okay to mention and then come to believe that I created that voice, or should be represented by terms that I hear or mention Ive heard, is for controversy I think. Bullying “voices” can occur for many reasons, Ive been thinking lately who “bullying voices represent” they could represent varying age groups, old or young, it could represent a type of person likely to not like me by race gender story photo cause or religion, it could represent a person expecting something from me or feeling denied a privilege to be given solution for a problem they are having unsure whether my strategy for overcoming voices is honest true and helpful, they are actual things Ive worked on and practice as a human being to undo voices: (1) writing (2) journaling (3) emailing (4) therapy (5) reporting (6) defense and argument (7) description (8) improvement (9) weight loss (10) selfies (11) video, there are many ways to not be hated and part of the reason you should not give up if you feel you are hated and imagine voices that do hate you, for whatever reasons mature or immature, or varying by gender, class, or cause, or politics, the reasons for upset are unlimited the best you can do as a human being is not be a source of that upset, and with compassion, for all people, pray and hope for the same compassion and leniency in your honesty in all your colors, and based on who you are vocalized published connections or photos or not, not allow for a casual destruction of your life, allow yourself to be treated poorly by voices even if they are imagined or cannot be proven.

Different Types of Voices (Delusions/Imagined Types of Voices):

• People sticking up for people.
• Different genders and attitudes toward you.
• Voices of expectation, resentment, and of varying ages.
• Voices of privileged, and under privileged, at peace and not at peace.
• Voices representing sides in life, not including your own.
• Voices that represent terms, published real or not real, reported, ongoing, or temporary.
• Voices can represent an imagined anger toward you based on sexuality.
• Voices can represent an imagined torment of you, that keeps you isolated.
• Voices can represent a force against you, in times of sickness, or incapacity.
• Voices can represent ways it can be justified to call you schizophrenic.
• Voices can be reported or explained online and make you look bad.
• The police cannot help you with voices, you will have to go to the ER.
• Ambient noise, or traffic rushing, can produce voices imagined.
• Changes to your appearance and face, can result in voices or anger directed.
• Your voice represents who you are, in periods of voices, it can affect octave.
• Hearing voices, then having to tell the police or therapist is extremely difficult and painful to state or explain, or get support and help with.
• Voices can occur on medications or off medications.
• Voices worsen depending on the causes, actual or imagined.
• Voices represent people who think it’s unfair for you to have a campaign.
• Voices can represent people who want to make money off of your campaign.
• Voices if reported can make you look bad, and cause argument in public.
• It’s difficult for people to watch and witness and hear you battle voices.
• Voices sometimes require talking to yourself in your head, or out loud.
• Voices are most disturbing, when they are “bullying voices” hearing terms.
• Voices if reported are not believed to exist, and no something tech can prove.
• Voices can cause self-harm, cause you to feel alone, cause you suicide.
• Voices can be temporary, go away, come back, or be a life long struggle.
• Voices can prevent you from exercise, writing, working, or sleeping.
• Voices I imagine are people who are testing who or what I represent, and has become ways to judge me or observe me by phone or computer, test to see whats audible to me.
• Voices, I imagine, isolate me, based on my descriptions, are people who learn of my condition with risk to me to me to be caused, by defamation, then not believed as a cause.
• Voices I imagine misunderstand what lawsuit is about, and think it means to be unhappy with me, complain about me, be dissatisfied, not feel helped by me, or can convince voices to be angry at me, thinking lawsuit means Im the problem or start creating excuses for voices, which don’t exist, and seek to turn voices into real people, by continued repetition of reporting terms, or hearing argument in regards to terms that hurt.
• There is no cure for schizophrenia or voices, the only available treatments suggested are no phone, no computer, no writing, no reading, rest, no stimulants.
• To me voices get worse the more real they become, actually have to be reported rom me, with no proof or scientific evidence, of how I can hear who is watching me, or how an imagined group of people in support of one another, can make me hear them, in the end I am responsible for my own life, what others think of me, how I process life, get along with others, and in control as far as Im concerned in terms of what people read from me.
• Voices support you when you work hard, and negative toward you, when they expect something positive of value to be coming from you, provided for free online, solution.
• Voices are something imagined that you are responsible for solving, that no one can help you with, that can be made worse through discussion online, can be misunderstood as argument in any way that it is written, ruining conversation, what people think, or how they see you, or affect what others believe is true about you, and think that’s the biggest threat that “bullying voices” pose, its being attacked, in a way that won’t stop, that if you report you sound sick or stupid, and in the end its about whether or not you are offensive, or responsible for the voices that you hear, and whether voices represent actual people.
• I think hate is problematic, that if I get fought, that causes who’s fighting me to be intimidated in the event that Im doing well, makes me feel sick, about how that affects someone else’s reality, or coming to terms, with whats happening, to not affect others is the solution, in terms of building strength, in acceptance of terms and issues as they arise, with risk of being confused as offensive, is the only threat to me “bullying voices” pose.
• I think voices and self-harm is a way that you can be misunderstood as a person who is struggling, since you cannot prove the voice or term, and since self-harm ends up scaring you, or a generated response actual, to stop voices, believed watching you.
• If voices are connected to you, the best thing to do is be healthy and strong, like managing an audience, and if voices try to prove you can hear others watching you, then the issue as to whether or not you are mentally ill, will now be how I demonstrate solution in times of voices, and how I explain a condition with no scientific evidence or solution or cure written online. Ive accepted being on meds for the rest of my life, so all I have to do is do my best, I think alcohol, isolation, weight gain, not dating, or not credited for social skills and progress is a huge problem in terms of what keeps me away from others, I think voices is something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life, or else live life disabled off meds, and that’s not what I want, and consider voices, to have no cure, as they don’t exist, and even upon description cannot be proven, or determine a logical source or cause acceptable.
• I think your voice represents yourself, the problems you have, including the voices you get, is something you can try to explain, and still not be able to cure and can happen again, and there can be no legal explanation or cure if it is so determined for “schizophrenia” to exist, which Ive been told several times Im not, I went to law school.
• I see “bullying voices” as representing terms and who thinks I am those terms.
• I think “bullying voices” say terms based on putting me down in life, or not valuing my life and my writing online, my offered solutions, or campaign work, or reporting online.
• I think dysfunction can result for bullying voices, can speak clearly, octave change.
• I think dysfunction can result from hacking or imagined being watched negatively.
• I think dysfunction can result from non acceptance of you, insult, or judgment.
•  I think voices is a deadly condition, that most would get very sick, unsupported by meds, or police, or hospital, for coping with different types of voices, shouting or overheard.
• I think voices, is something that affects what people think of your senses, question your decision making, or how you can tell what to write to make things better, or limited based on audience or person, a privileged communication anywhere, ongoing, not shared online, I wouldn’t say an elevated sense of disorganization is for any communication period, or email, I think that you keep to yourself, I think what you share is solution, be well spoken.
• I think as a person who gets voices, there will be continuing challenges ahead, and Im sure hypothesis, as to where my writing comes from, whats produced from me, or a product of a connection or imagined sense of self-worth that is not believed to be me, based on alternate representations of my condition upon insult, pressure, or hurt which I would not say is because of alcohol or mental health, I think what happens to you has a lot to do with what is said about you, or said to you, and that affects where your headed, or what your focused on, what becomes the basis for discussion and however long it takes to move on from those subjects, is when peace will occur, I don’t think that fighting or constant recitation of terms means Im losing in life, as directed by another, Ive stated my concerns, and right now Im improving and not checking the hate/fan website, as its mentally disturbing for me, and upsetting to check, and need to clear my mind, and focus on myself, with or without voices, governed by hate, imagined, or repeating a hurt, its my job to simply deal with whats in my head, inside my body, and what energy I can deal with is what I have to solve in the immediate, and to me, an emergency is something that everyone is waiting on or needs, or can’t afford to lose timing or be late or held back in life, due to any delays in life, which Ive minimized to only 2 days rest, so I can do my best and still be unclear as to whats the continued caused, or way an issue has been addressed that is only making a problem worse, I think I can address war, tech, politics, hate, who I am show pictures, but I think that unconditional awe and support and peace and closure is something that needs to be created in writing, and don’t see that as some pendalum of continuation by losses dependent to create for solution, I think a loss represents a life lost that it was too late to save, I think Im clear on how many times Ive been helped, I think if Im being judged as guilty, those are ways I am made to look bad, or accuse my story or mental health as something that’s not of value, which publishing a book can prove or showing more pictures can affirm, I don’t think I need a leaning force on me, to push me, in the form of negativity to be strong or drained in life, or inherit a pain or hurt, to excuse not writing, or challenge the difficulty in building a blog, or challenge what hurts me or what Ive overcome.
• I think being in a better place is half the battle, I think a cure for voices not existing there is no cure, and hate website only makes worse. I don’t think there is a solution in tech or hacking, that can prevent or explain voices, or determine where I am or what I say.
• I think voices, is a joke on spirituality, I don’t read people or hear people that’s bipolar, and if everyone can hear me and hear my writing what they want to know, is how do I know what to say in a way that is balanced that is of value and doesn’t cause fighting, the same way everyone else handles a problem starting with nothing, and deciding what the issue is I think they want to know how the issue is determined, I think the issue is determined, by who I am, my life, my belief, my quotes, my thinking, my writing, what I say, what the header says, how a previous post was viewed, how a conversation is viewed, how an email is viewed, how I am viewed, and maybe there is no solution for “angry voices” the previous title to a post as far as Im concerned “anger towards me” or hearing “angry voices” is something you can be diagnosed as schizophrenic for, as is something that you have to figure out on your own, how to be, and how to prevent voices, even if it means being alone.