Still in treatment I have 111 days sober today and working hard on my recovery. Yesterday I started reading through my 4th step with my sponsor, learning how to not seek attention and validation from others, and work on my insecurities. She recommends when going into new friendships think how can I be of service to someone to ask questions and not have any expectations for what you want to hear back, to work on those things separately. I do find myself insecure about talking to others and seeking that validation or reassurance from others and there must be a better way to communicate without needing to hear something back that makes you feel good about yourself. So I’m thinking maybe text others like my Mom or my Sponsor who love me and can help me overcome these issues without putting the burden on anyone I’m talking to to validate me.

Things are going well in treatment, making friends and being social. We painted with the special needs the other day, and that reminds me to be thankful for what I have and who I am. No matter what I go through I know that doing well means to be there for others, maybe explains why I’m online. Not a sponsor yet, much to learn, but here to help in any way I can.