If I go on a 3 day bender writing non stop for days my face out as prescribed goes through several stages and changes before my face appears proper today in makeup just to let you know for scientific sake what’s real or delusion or how my face is made…

I’m going to stop “working in public” instead of emails clearly that system worked better. I think everyone’s been through a lot feelings wise like I’m said is waiting for solution reassurance and if day to day help getting going doesn’t have the patience for what’s discussed in therapy or…

I’m working hard for my peace. Maybe my Twitter saves were taken for granted. It shouldn’t matter what 2020 was like or how 2024 is judged. I know where I was how hard I worked what disability was like working and getting a paid job. All that matters is that…

Distinguishing fault. Peace and wellness. Isn’t making fun of what being alone working hard being bothered asked for things or judge a timeline of getting sick or who’s fault that is question why I need to be left alone or question what treatment means to anyone pushing me or supporting…

Battling voices …. A fight for peace. Push yourself to be a better person you don’t have to be perfect. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in AA it is to work hard, forgive yourself, do what you need to do (get a court card signed), stay sober, in order…

(1) Was not writing consistently everyday. (2) Had difficulty messaging and reflecting on bullying without reliving trauma or fight. (3) A person let back into my life I was told to block not hurting me who believed in me said everything nice supported but didn’t stay well. (4) Sharing is…

I’m writing two books one unpublished I need to rewrite sharing quotes from over the years and life advice hopefully sans court issues I’ve been writing much longer than any legal problems or bullying or voices. It was recommended to talk about schizophrenia and given a list of suggestions for…

The main lesson at a time like this, is to not let anyone affect you. My goal is to do my best and stay positive, and not draw too much attention to this type of argument in life, over who loves who or who is helping who, I have never…

My blood pressure today is low I’m under a lot of stress right now doing my best. I did my best to reconcile with this person however he continues to ask for photos then expose me and I really don’t have the time and energy to fight with this person.…

I’m reading a book by Melody Beattie called Journey to the Heart. It’s a daily meditation book, I just started reading January 1 to hopefully September, then go day by day. She reminds us to “go on your own journey. Don’t let others hold you back, don’t hold them back.…

After 7 months of treatment, and taken off adderrall, I am again battling relapse (alcohol), taken off adderrall for the week, and doing my best to discontinue drinking when things are “too much” and focus on the road ahead and my writing. In the meantime Im going through something personal…

We go through life, and sometimes we are reminded of things in life, sometimes we notice things later as things become more clear, and sometimes we get carried away in how everything is connected that we lose sight of a common purpose in life, and this is what I think…

Staying well is incredibly difficult when you are feeling triggered or symptomatic. My best advice would be to stay positive. I’ve noticed that in times of difficulty Im either reaching out to get help, or feeling stuck and decide to shut myself off from the world, and that ends up…