Day 14 at #laxcourthouse

When someone loses faith in you, its by reading and interpreting in the negative thought a reaction to be about them, and that’s how relationships are lost, its not a lesson its if you are not doing well no one wants to know you, no one wants to talk to you, and no one can help you, that doesn’t mean that you are okay, it just means that they are okay without you, this is the “misery loves company” concept, so complete disillusionment, is when someone purposefully attack you so that things don’t work out for you, and its upon someone viewing as communicates to the wrong teams in life, that you become mentally disabled and suicidal, that’s an uwanted interpretation of you to treat you as on the outside of an equation to be made fun of and that’s not what life is about, people will go by what feels good, it doesn’t matter for what reasons anyone is doing well and what by you may never be a member to that feeling in life, of things being well, so long as you base your own wellness on the unhappiness of others, so an example that is being made of me, is to put me in mental illness, schizophrenia, which are voices to treat me as less then, then to see or witness how I get out of mental illness, and its not through sitting and thinking, and its not through writing, and it not through connection and its not through therapy and its not through AA and its not through connection or love, its wanting to improve and feeling like things are okay so once someone has announced to the world that you are mentally retarded or easy to control that creates a disappointment, that one does not recognize they are well and capable and able to get a job, and that’s not what my education is about excelling its about me doing well recognizing that Im not the smartest and understanding that I got a 990 on my SAT am not the smartest in my class, and your potential will always be based on what you think and what you think will not feel good to others, if they think that you don’t deserve to be well, so anyone who has not been to law school feel well when you look stupid, and that’s not a recipe for experimentation or study to treat me as criminal or mentally ill or stupid, and expect end results by study of me or control of me like I don’t care if you don’t know the reasons for criminalization of a human being then don’t convince me that I have anything wrong in life or mean harm to anyone, you cannot go back anywhere you don’t belong, and you cannot be anywhere you are not welcome, and you cannot be anywhere that hurts, and you cannot function through any difficult upset, and the point of embarrassing me is to hear what I have to say if put in a suicidal or devastating position that cannot be changed when I appear “grose stupid and mentally ill,” why no romance works out, no friendship works out, no communications work out, and when everything becomes hurtful, means there is something defective about your faith, and when its too late for approvals or forgiveness, that’s you not being respected in upset and you being required to understand who has harmed you and why and the complexity is that if additional people are harmed, then that’s to make me look like the bearer of an equation that does not solve but makes things worse or was remembered and applied to me, to create devastating consequences to all my progress. The solution to mental health for kids is to recognize who has been punished or messed up in life or gets made fun of and do their best to “not let anyone affect you,” not even the failures of others lose faith by any expressions in the alternate support and respect comes and goes based on how you present hopefully no one learns this lesson too late not to be too vocal or complain and be misunderstood as not in appreciation or in recognition for anyones wellness other than your own take no ones advances personally get sick. Life is a game of acceptances the less you accept the more rejections in life you subject yourself too, call that punishment, but when your attitude is in the negative your harder to understand and comprehend when someone elses story is more clearly recognizable for solution to be more like. What you figure out if it doesn’t apply to your own life and if you cant take your own advices don’t be ashamed that others don’t have the same impact on you for improvement, we all get better by our own metrics in life, so if you cant provide it love don’t be shocked when others are aggressive toward you like you are going or gone, not everyone understands  alone time perceives that as guilt. Be well spoken. The rest is history. The solution for mental health for men is to get a job and to date nice women (or significant others), the solution for gay in a bisexual women is do not practice both liking men and women (acceptance from both is clear, no one wants to be responsible for anything odd coming from you, all things you don’t recognize later become things about you you get made fun of if not identified by you from the get go). Focus on one at a time and then choose by comfort (accept all who adjust to your new condition if vocal about it so no one gets hurt or intimidated by anyones standing or likeability affected), and the point of having friends is not for acceptance or getting laid, if you cannot get along with others, and get a job, then you will not have friends, you will not have a boyfriend, then who is being made to feel smart no disadvantaged person in life has ever felt well by anyone who they do not believe in so once things stop working out for you, to recognize no one can help you is the first step in the right direction to living life, and to create opportunity for yourself future is not to accept loss as a reason to back down or to rest and to not let disability convince you that there is something wrong with you, and not to allow defamation to create some heart warming sense of urgency for recognizing a misinterpretation not lying in you but another, no beautiful life can be created by someone who does not value their education and privileges in life, and sometimes through the study of people people learn and those who are well are people that have not endured discrimination or rejection or isolation, so if its not new to me, that explains why things are worse for me now then they have ever been, I was never able to get a job past hospitalization and I cannot date or move on when I am mentally ill so don’t treat me as disappointment, when I did my best, you have one life to live so do your best when well and accept when a step down is created to destroy your life and reputation and by personal message haunt you and cause you torture and mental illness, its by your representation of others that they are well and see you as bad then there is no one to say anything to you to talk you through mental illness, no one can help you if people don’t like you, and no one can defend you if you are rejected or mentally ill, it then becomes a waste of time, so try your best if you realize that someone is treating you as gay or offender report that to the court so that people don’t punish you or treat you as a fake hostage or try to create a real hostage situation to make fun of you or your family or anyone else family, fear is a condition, that can only be perfected by living a good life, being honest and reporting and that may not seem to resonate only if someone can change me and f-k me over in my face like I deserve it or have done anyone wrong and that’s not helpful. Past the point of wellness all they remember are three things that they memorize and recite about you, and none of your well time matters, and then you have to recreate your life again. The issue is that they want to be themselves get mad at you and f-k you over and hurt your opportunities in life then see you complain to see whether you have it all and lose it all then they want to pretend like they are molding you or teaching you how another feels who is affected when I am hurt controlled or treated as stupid, then they pretend to be above you, then they want to blame you, then you cannot function, then you have to be positive, then they want to be apart of the solution, then you feel old, then theyre too old, and then when its too much this is why Im at #laxcourthouse, you cannot connect me to a younger generation that has their whole future ahead of them who cannot handle disappointment, who accepted as I was, not all of life is about beauty connection and age, you realize this the more times you F up in life, life is not short only to someone who has low tolerance and flips out easily on you, and presumes that there is something mentally ill or wrong about you, so if its about companies they are not responsible for perfecting the image of someone by view, that is something you have to do within. And that’s how selfie companies are affected by how you feel how they feel represented who is benefiting and who is appreciating, so the face voice success rate, is based upon watching you fall and then expecting you to rise, or to solve a problem of being f-ked over and stopping a situation in which any team takes you being disabled as opportunity for attack, you cannot talk sense into anyone who does not respect you, so if I don’t feel well Im not giving up and Im also not responsible for anyone who does not love this country does not get along with people or does not like me, so don’t blame me like 17 million people didn’t like me and watched me get F-k over and life and treated as stupid, that’s a very painful lesson to learn in life how aggressive people are when they think  that you think they are smart then read clear and hurt you broken. Don’t break em back!!!! Shouts #laxcourthouse, exactly, its my life my body, not your knowledge. I lay low I did not participate on social media, its always in illness, made to speak to all, for a change I was well and did everything right and shared, it’s a condition for improvement, past the point of disrespect or difficulty nothing that anyone can talk you through once you feel sick.