Taking the time to remember your good years is a positive sign. It means that your trying, you value where you’ve been, and you have faith in where your headed in life. So much of life can be overwhelming if we end up future tripping over results in life. You won’t know until you get there so it’s better to focus on what you’re doing now than beat yourself up over not being where you want to be in life or future planning too early in the recovery process of assessing what needs to get done. Point taken, they say on thegoodtrade.com, “The good news is that even when our fears are realistic, we don’t have to let them run our lives.” [1] So don’t let yourself be ruled by the anxiety over what your future is going to look like based on what you’re concerned about right now, if you aren’t in a good place in life you’ll get there it’s the worry in between now and then is what ultimately keeps you away from feeling like those things are going to happen for you in life. I think about this all the time with dating, and being alone, why me? So long as you poor me yourself into thinking that you don’t deserve to have it all in life you won’t meet people and you won’t have opportunities in life to have those options in life if at a later point in time. As one article put it, ““Plan B” is anything allowing you not to waste your time.” [2] So keep busy! Right now I’m in between relationships, talking to men who are interested in dating me and pumping the breaks in terms of actually hanging out and seeing them, it’s not what I want but because of my mental health issues I have to be well in order to be in any kind of loving relationship and that’s hard for me to want something in life for yourself and not being physically or mentally ready to give yourself to a person in that way, I think this all takes time. I’m sure I’m overthinking it and will eventually cut loose again and be my easy going self and I can’t wait for that moment when I’m cuddling and yapping and talking all night to someone who loves me feeling the companionship of being loved and adored and all of the above. -So don’t give up, continue to work on yourself, and soon enough you’ll probably be like me, talking to people, have people interested in dating you, and getting your feet back on the ground again ready to work and begin life again. I don’t think any of this would be possible without a blog, I’ve learned so much about myself and I’ve come so far mental health wise just in thinking about life it’s crazy the things that used to occupy my mind and my time in thinking about life and I’m so glad to be in a better place where what used to bother me no longer does and starting to feel better with a fresh head on my shoulders. Good luck!

Reference:

[1] https://www.thegoodtrade.com/features/managing-anticipatory-anxiety

[2] https://thepowermoves.com/when-someone-makes-you-wait/