Going through a lot everything is too much right now I can’t understand my own writing and got sick so best not to share what’s complicated or hurting me won’t make things better let everyone get well on their own. This year has been shocking and painful and unbearable embarrassing and hurtful but I’m getting through it. I know I’ve not given up I represent myself and causes well a top blogger online. It’s clear to me that I’m not feeling well and need a few days rest to rest and recharge you cannot push through pain and shock that’s how you get hurt and lose you’re head and you cannot confront who hurt you that’s how they destroy you inside out until they feel right about it. So it’s best I rest journal write letters to the court and not make my blog about me not feeling good or an audience not feeling good and remove myself from this situation of anger and unhappiness that’s something people can work out on their own with depositing angry feelings or resentments toward me like I’m not doing a good job staying well being normal functioning in society. I cannot handle insults it’s not deserved I need to take a break from sharing, so everyone can check on how the rest of the world is doing without going back and forth looking at me and others then punishing me to see how others are feeling.